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Maki9

Maki9

Member
May 8, 2026
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Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
592
Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
Well if I was born with different life circumstances then I wouldn't mind eternal life and if in each life I retained my memories from my last life it would be better
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,379
I understand as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want to be permanently unconscious free from the torture of existing and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake that just causes all this dreadful cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and all I want is to be free from it all, for me only non-existence could ever be positive.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all, non-existence is just all I hope for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any kind of existence, to suffer in this existence is just always the most torturous, futile burden to me, all that existence does is just cause suffering.
 

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