No problem. I'm not a doctor but felt I should respond because when I was ~15-17 I had problems with 2 (other) specific benzo & zdrug so I've gone through a lot of blackouts & know that they can mess your life up more. I'd be more specific about what happened during mine but not comfortable. Some vague is that I was delusional & hallucinated some, told people personal things I wish I didn't, got taken (sexually) advantage of, I stressed out someone I loved very much & it didn't end well, I ended up in the psych ward, I tried to threaten psych ward staff which made me stay longer, I screamed personal stuff in public, I hurt myself etc. Can't say for certain what would happen to you but want you to be aware what might happen
EDIT: also I think you should make that thread about what's on your mind. If you're not sure about CTB I think writing it can help you sort your thoughts out