dying by my hand is my destiny

[fieldofash]

frantically trying shroom cholocate bars to lift me out this depression.
but its not a depression. its who i am.
accepting the fact that i am going to ctb is as freeing as everyone makes it sound.
i have about a month and a half left.
i know the instant i get my hands on n, ill drink it. so waiting to order it til then.
i'm postive it's not eternal nothingness that will meet us on the other side.
but i'm confident we will be forgiven.
boldness is a virtue.

I hope everyone on this site finds peace one way or another.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I agree not eternal nothingness

 

[fieldofash]

I agree not eternal nothingness

what do you think will happen? i believe in reincarnation and higher realms

 

[Journeytoletgo]

what do you think will happen? i believe in reincarnation and higher realms

We shall see let's remain optimistic

 

[FuneralCry]

I have always known that I will ctb as well. I cannot imagine myself dying from anything else. I personally hope and believe that it is eternal nothingness after this, but I hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[hankbank3928]

My personal belief is that we ascend into the ultimate reality (God reality).

 

[Rational man]

I knew at an early age i would ctb and i dont know why. Maybe my abusive family and their influence over me. At 12, i had this compelling need to jump off a multistory carpark. Years later at 36, ive become chronically ill so im faced with the need to end my life before the illness kills me.