Drinking SN tonight. (Hopefully)

[sivvie]

My timezone is +8 GMT. I'll start fasting at 4 pm, take paracetamol at 11 pm, domperidone at 11:15 pm, and then the SN at 12 am. That is my plan.

I'll answer as many questions as I can, though I may not be as responsive since I'll be messaging loved ones through it.

I'll keep this thread updated, hopefully tonight is my night. If anything goes wrong or something unexpected pops up, I'll be sure to update. Fingers crossed.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

What will you be saying to your loved ones? Will they know what you're doing?

 

[sivvie]

Godspeed.

What will you be saying to your loved ones? Will they know what you're doing?

I'll just be telling them that I love them, maybe crack a joke here and there. I only have two people I would like to talk to before I get on the bus.

 

[Starchaser]

Hey sivvie, wishing the best for your on this life or on the another!
I hope everything goes well 2 u ♥ ~

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I'll just be telling them that I love them, maybe crack a joke here and there. I only have two people I would like to talk to before I get on the bus.

I hope the conversations go well. Are they friends or family? If I had to choose people to talk to before or while CTB, it would be some friends; no one in my family that I'm close to or in contact with.

 

[Dead Meat]

Best of luck to you sivvie ,I want to wish you a comfortable and pleasant journey and may you have everlasting peace and tranquility.

 

[sivvie]

I hope the conversations go well. Are they friends or family? If I had to choose people to talk to before or while CTB, it would be some friends; no one in my family that I'm close to or in contact with.

No family! I hate all of my family haha.. I had to survive by making all my connections online.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Definitely wish you a peaceful transition if you decide to do this. Sucks that life has brought you to this point and while none of us should have tomaje this choice to go this way, sometimes it's unavoidable. We can only take so much before we say "Enough!" Hugs and love to you in any decision you decide to make.

 

[_Minsk]

Safe travels, i hope you find peace

 

[demuic]

I hope you find peace and freedom from pain and suffering.

 

[dearlybeloved998]

My timezone is +8 GMT. I'll start fasting at 4 pm, take paracetamol at 11 pm, domperidone at 11:15 pm, and then the SN at 12 am. That is my plan.

I'll answer as many questions as I can, though I may not be as responsive since I'll be messaging loved ones through it.

I'll keep this thread updated, hopefully tonight is my night. If anything goes wrong or something unexpected pops up, I'll be sure to update. Fingers crossed.

Good luck. I hope you find the peace you fought so hard for, you earned it the hard way. Even if it's on the other side. Remember that it's okay to fail or change your mind, this forum is neither pro pro life or pro death. It is your life and you have the right to make your own decisions.

Life-pro tip: Make sure you're alone once you hop on the bus, and that no one can hear you, there is something called a "death rattle", it's the sounds people make before they're passing away. If you're heard you might be found and "rescued". Just make sure you do this in an isolated area because you don't want to end up in a mental facility. I wish you the best, it's horrible that some people, especially people our age have to go to this length just for some peace. I'm sorry life was so cruel to you and I'm sorry life brought you to this point. This world is cruel indeed...
Oh, I also have a question I forgot: How long does it take for SN to kick in?

 

[Crazy4u]

sorry to see you go :( I hope you find peace

 

[sivvie]

Good luck. I hope you find the peace you fought so hard for, you earned it the hard way. Even if it's on the other side. Remember that it's okay to fail or change your mind, this forum is neither pro pro life or pro death. It is your life and you have the right to make your own decisions.

Life-pro tip: Make sure you're alone once you hop on the bus, and that no one can hear you, there is something called a "death rattle", it's the sounds people make before they're passing away. If you're heard you might be found and "rescued". Just make sure you do this in an isolated area because you don't want to end up in a mental facility. I wish you the best, it's horrible that some people, especially people our age have to go to this length just for some peace. I'm sorry life was so cruel to you and I'm sorry life brought you to this point. This world is cruel indeed...
Oh, I also have a question I forgot: How long does it take for SN to kick in?

I can't really do it whilst alone :/ I'm going to pretend to shower and leave the shower running. If my family is asleep by 10:30 - 11, i can (hopefully) safely start protocol. My family don't check up on me, and they'd probably realize once it's too late. Again, this is all just hope and maybe I'm desperate but I can't live anymore.

And it should take between 10-20 to pass out, and between 40 minutes to 4 hours to reach a point beyond resuscitation.

 

[ddd1234]

I can't really do it whilst alone :/ I'm going to pretend to shower and leave the shower running. If my family is asleep by 10:30 - 11, i can (hopefully) safely start protocol. My family don't check up on me, and they'd probably realize once it's too late. Again, this is all just hope and maybe I'm desperate but I can't live anymore.

And it should take between 10-20 to pass out, and between 40 minutes to 4 hours to reach a point beyond resuscitation.

I wish you the best but doing it at home where your parents live may be a bit risky. It's your choice. Good luck!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand the feelings of desperation and I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Whatever happens, I wish you the best, and if your decision is to leave then I hope you find peace.

 

[stevieu]

I'm so sorry your life has come to this point but I wish you peace in whatever you choose

 

[dearlybeloved998]

I can't really do it whilst alone :/ I'm going to pretend to shower and leave the shower running. If my family is asleep by 10:30 - 11, i can (hopefully) safely start protocol. My family don't check up on me, and they'd probably realize once it's too late. Again, this is all just hope and maybe I'm desperate but I can't live anymore.

And it should take between 10-20 to pass out, and between 40 minutes to 4 hours to reach a point beyond resuscitation.

4 minutes to 40 hours are a lot... If you're somehow "rescued" you're risking becoming a quadriplegic veggie or ending up with (even more) brain damage. (I assume your reason is mental illness, I could be wrong). Regardless, good luck, I hope we get to meet on the other side. Again, it's fucked up how people have to even reach that point just to find some peace. And it's okay to change your mind. I hope you succeed. Will you inform the forum when you're about to do it?

Edit: Also, out of curiosity, do you believe in an afterlife?

 

[sivvie]

I'm still alive lol hey y'all :') Nothing went according to plan. My entire family was up, I fell ill and had a headache and sore throat the entire day; and worst of all, my anxiety got the best of me. I'm sorry to disappoint.. i'm sure some of you want another account of what happens.

On that note, I think I'm going to stop logging on here (Or at least, as much). I understand everyone just wants the best for everyone else, or maybe some are projecting their own fears of making it alive after an attempt; I just let it get to me too much. If I say I'm doing it at home, people tell me to go to a hotel or a forest, if I have a couple hours alone, people say it isn't enough.

I don't have the resources like everyone else for those things. My parents kept me sheltered all my life and I live in a foreign country without a job, so not only will they notice that I'm not in the house like I always am, I also have no money so I can't go anywhere in the first place. I will take measures to make sure I have backups, like a rope and leaving some sn behind in plastic bags and hiding it.

Everything seems to have been going against me :/ And I mean that quite literally. I'll be gone soon, but until then, I'm going to stop looking at things like that. I hope I can exit at my preferred time this time, and don't feel anxious. Thanks to everyone who wished me well :) love u all and I hope you're doing alright <3

TLDR; Setting wasn't going as I expected, got anxious because of the things I read here so I won't be logging on as much, will have backup plans aside

 

[Crazy4u]

I'm still alive lol hey y'all :') Nothing went according to plan. My entire family was up, I fell ill and had a headache and sore throat the entire day; and worst of all, my anxiety got the best of me. I'm sorry to disappoint.. i'm sure some of you want another account of what happens.

On that note, I think I'm going to stop logging on here (Or at least, as much). I understand everyone just wants the best for everyone else, or maybe some are projecting their own fears of making it alive after an attempt; I just let it get to me too much. If I say I'm doing it at home, people tell me to go to a hotel or a forest, if I have a couple hours alone, people say it isn't enough.

I don't have the resources like everyone else for those things. My parents kept me sheltered all my life and I live in a foreign country without a job, so not only will they notice that I'm not in the house like I always am, I also have no money so I can't go anywhere in the first place. I will take measures to make sure I have backups, like a rope and leaving some sn behind in plastic bags and hiding it.

Everything seems to have been going against me :/ And I mean that quite literally. I'll be gone soon, but until then, I'm going to stop looking at things like that. I hope I can exit at my preferred time this time, and don't feel anxious. Thanks to everyone who wished me well :) love u all and I hope you're doing alright <3

TLDR; Setting wasn't going as I expected, got anxious because of the things I read here so I won't be logging on as much, will have backup plans aside

you didn't disappoint! I haven't known you for a long time but it was good seeing you here.

I also want to mention that some of the members who responded to you in some threads are suspected prolifers. There are many of them here using fear mongering tactics

I am sorry you felt this way and I understand your points about members not understanding your options.

I wish you the best

 

[dearlybeloved998]

I'm still alive lol hey y'all :') Nothing went according to plan. My entire family was up, I fell ill and had a headache and sore throat the entire day; and worst of all, my anxiety got the best of me. I'm sorry to disappoint.. i'm sure some of you want another account of what happens.

On that note, I think I'm going to stop logging on here (Or at least, as much). I understand everyone just wants the best for everyone else, or maybe some are projecting their own fears of making it alive after an attempt; I just let it get to me too much. If I say I'm doing it at home, people tell me to go to a hotel or a forest, if I have a couple hours alone, people say it isn't enough.

I don't have the resources like everyone else for those things. My parents kept me sheltered all my life and I live in a foreign country without a job, so not only will they notice that I'm not in the house like I always am, I also have no money so I can't go anywhere in the first place. I will take measures to make sure I have backups, like a rope and leaving some sn behind in plastic bags and hiding it.

Everything seems to have been going against me :/ And I mean that quite literally. I'll be gone soon, but until then, I'm going to stop looking at things like that. I hope I can exit at my preferred time this time, and don't feel anxious. Thanks to everyone who wished me well :) love u all and I hope you're doing alright <3

TLDR; Setting wasn't going as I expected, got anxious because of the things I read here so I won't be logging on as much, will have backup plans aside

That's a bummer, I'm sorry your plan did not succeed. It's good that you're deciding to log off, I need to do the same too, but don't have the will or volition. I hope your plans succeed regardless of whether you make it to the bus or not. Sending love <3