Drinking again

[dysfunctional]

Well, I started drinking again. When I first fell into deep depression, I started drinking like a freak. Buying wine as soon as legally possible in the morning (700 AM). Things got out of hand and i stopped drinking for awhile. Well, I started again. Strong beer this time. It gives a slight numbing effect and lets me slightly pretend to be normal kinda sorta. We'll see where it goes. Unfortunately it keeps me from sleeping through the night. Definitely a negative. I want to die so much. Just watched a character on tv commit by jumping. Wish I had the tenacity to do this.

 

[stellabelle]

I go back and forth between binge drinking myself. Wine is my poison of choice, I never really liked hard liquor or beer. Mixed drinks were okay at times, but the amount of sugar bothered my stomach. I often combine alcohol and other otc CNS depressants to sleep, which is not recommended, but I do it anyway.

I too often think of CTB whilst intoxicated. I understand the mindframe avicii was in at the time of his suicide.