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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,548
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?
 
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311

Dying cat
Nov 24, 2018
779
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?
I drank N in a dream lol
 
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Xerxes

Xerxes

Invisible
Nov 8, 2018
936
I get them pretty frequently. Usually I'll die heroically like in a war or in a car crash. Sometimes I get shot, hanged, drawn and quartered. I have dreams where my wife kills me, I get eaten by giant ass snakes, etc. I'm so used to them and it doesn't faze me anymore. Been having these dreams since I was a little kid. My nightmares are when dreams are just too good to be dreamt.
 
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Jenna

Jenna

Experienced
Nov 21, 2018
234
I too have been getting them more frequently. I've even sat up saying "I have to die". I don't remember how its been happening.
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
I dreamt I got into a head-on collision with a semi. Then I woke up remembering that it actually happened years ago and wishing I died that day.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,548
I dreamt I got into a head-on collision with a semi. Then I woke up remembering that it actually happened years ago and wishing I died that day.
That must have been traumatic.
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
That must have been traumatic.
Very. Was with a friend who was driving and he died on impact. Thank whatever that I didn't see the aftermath since I blacked out but I remember the smell. There's nothing like the smell of burnt metal, blood, smoke and a hint of a those scented leaves fused together to remind me of that. It fucked me up. I dropped out of college, experienced the heights of existential despair, and ended up staying in the house for two years like I was in a Final Destination movie before I had problems with my family over not working and ended up homeless for a over a year. So much fun (sarcasm).
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?
I never have dreams like this but last night I dreamt that I was pregnant. It was one of those dreams that you think is real until you wake up enough. It sucked I was so upset in the dream because I repeated getting pregnant outside of an appropriate situation.
 
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SiArc

SiArc

sassy and sarcastic-y
Dec 10, 2018
230
I have dreams of dying either by my hand, anothers, or situational. I am myself or different people. I've had these dreams since I was a kid.
 
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Lifeisatrap

Arcanist
Oct 5, 2018
408
No, but I'm usually suicidal in my dreams too lol. A dream where I finally go through with it would be an improvement. I can't get a break from life even in my sleep since it's plagued with dreams. How I long for a dreamless sleep even if only for few hours.
 
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Fcancer

Fcancer

Student
Sep 24, 2018
185
I thought it was pretty common for your dreams to portray things to that are on your mind, that you've been thinking about a lot?? So kinda makes sense that you all have dreams about ctb.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?

I had a dream about taking SN just a few days ago.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,506
I've had frequent dreams where I'm in some type of crash and die. So far it's been a car going off a cliff, a helicopter crash and some other types of death. In the car crash dream my soul fled my body and flew towards the sky.
 
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CuriousAboutThis

Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
Dec 30, 2018
542
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?

In some cases I do some types of dreams or nightmares those deju vu where it actually comes true like a self filling prophecy one nightmare was I have trazodone and I opened the pill cylinder and took how many I had in my mouth but for some reason I decided to spit them out it was dark in the dream either outside or in maybe my apartment room when I woke up from that dream I sometimes ask myself not in these exact words but more or less what the fuck was that all about?
 
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21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
Ofcourse I do! AND I LOVE IT! Until I wake up and I'm still alive, of course.
 
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Paulsmith

Paulsmith

Student
Aug 8, 2018
188
Yes I do all the time.

Had a dream last night where i finaIly achieved my goal of ctb by jumping off beachy head cliffs

Be so well if I can achieve it away from the dreams
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
I don't think I've ever dreamed but I daydream all the time about it.
 
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iloveloving

Student
Aug 4, 2024
115
I've has reoccurring dreams of being electrocuted and suffocated to death.
 
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J&L383

Enlightened
Jul 18, 2023
1,204
Please tell me I am not the only one who has dreams wherein I am a passenger on a bus that is crashing, and am aware during my dreams that I am going to die.

I've been having recurring dreams wherein I am on a bus, in various settings and scenarios, but there is always one constant: I am going to die.

Anyone else?
Absolutely, although I'm not catching a bus. If we're going to use an acronym it's DBA (death by accident), or DBER (death by errant roller coaster), or, my preferred one, if I had a choice, (DBDWSWF) death by drowning while swimming with fishes 🤦. I have actually had all of those.
 
LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
I sometimes dream of SN lol. Especially when I'm super suicidal.
 
DedCircut303

DedCircut303

Member
Sep 4, 2024
11
I use to normally just have dreams about dying in an accident, but mainly of my loved ones dying, which led to a bit of insomnia. Now, since becoming this level of suicidal that I feel, now I have dreams of "after" I CTB. Mainly they consist of me figuring out that I went through with it, and trying desperately to talk to my mom but she can't see me or hear me. So I guess that doesn't really make sense, being suicidal and feeling the dread of not being able to communicate. Guess I have to work on that.
 

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