Doubts

[TheHatedOne]

I have a habit of expecting too much but I know that i'm not worthy for too much and I need to get out of it, it only brings suffering when you know you were born only to be a fucking trash and nothing more. I know that I'll never be among the first, maybe not even an option. I don't know if until now I was loved out of pity or just politeness because I'm just a freak by nature. I don't know. Everything is all the place and my heart physically aches, I'm not there and it sucks. I don't think I will ever be there. I want to self harm so hard, it will always stay the same: I only deserve pain and suffering. I want to cry but dammit again no tears to cry.

 

[Zinz]

It sounds like you're having a rough time.
Try not to think of what others have done or said and try doing as much you enjoy as you can without ending up in a bad position.
If you're still feeling bad you can always talk about it. Its always good to collect yourself before you make big decisions anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine it must be painful to deal with so much self hatred. I'm sorry you are suffering so much, it really is horrible being alive. I wish you the best.