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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
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The future is very bleak and there doesn't seem to be any point to anything, literally. Nothing I do matters. I don't like the idea of dying, don't really want to die and thoughts of the afterlife are not comforting at all. I don't have anything to kill myself with yet but I've decided that it doesn't matter, I'll find something in the next few days. Take care.
 
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takemenowpls

Experienced
Aug 19, 2022
237
I can feel the pain and suffering in your words. Just know I share the same views as you and hope you find a way to free yourself of pain.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,571
I understand having dread for the future. Life does just seem to be constant misery with no relief. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering, best wishes.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
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annique

🕊️ seeking profound peace 🕊️
Jul 5, 2022
201
i've been feeling like i'm at the very verge of killing myself these past days, i had never before thought of suicide this much

sorry, i don't have nice words unfortunately, what i can say to you is that i'm also about to kill myself, so you know you're not alone
 
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Hiraeth Grimoire

Hiraeth Grimoire

Longing to answer the call of the Void
May 21, 2022
154
Sounds like you have delved into nihilism a bit, and perhaps even fatalism. I am all too familiar with the territory. Philosophically, I see life as a self-renewing state of rot, suffering, and carnage. A waste engine of futility so to speak, serving no justifiable reason to exist, only producing negative utility as its outcome. We are in a bad predicament. Collectively life is a disaster, and personally, it is a tragedy, specifically when you see that your suffering is serving no good reason whatsoever. Embodying futility, nihility, and fatalism is a strange path to go down. I have been doing it for some years now, and am probably in the deeper end as you are. Hopefully, it will all be over soon enough and me, you, and all of us can find peace.
 
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Finding Sirius

Finding Sirius

The brightest lights cast the darkest shadows
Aug 16, 2022
162
I'm so sorry you feel this way. I hope you find peace soon.
 
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Nirrend

Nirrend

The important is not how long you live ...
Mar 12, 2022
400
We're sorry to hear this amount of despair @Suicidebydeath...

It may sound easy to hear but, stay strong, I'm sure you'll find a way to be in peace

Loving you <3
 
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Marine

Marine

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Jul 5, 2020
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
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I understand your pain and hopelessness for the future. I hope you find peace
 
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