Don’t even feel like crying anymore

[butterfly3]

I'm normally an emotional crier. But at this point I don't even feel like crying anymore. I feel so empty, like there's a hole in my soul/life. Crying wont do anything because it will remain there. The best thing I can do is sleep.
My room has also gotten so messy. Normally, even in my lowest of points especially throughout this year, I don't like to let my room get messy. I learned the hard way when I was in a depressive state in 2020 of not tidying my room and a mouse got in (I know gross but don't judge). Now, it's the one piece of control I have over my life. But now my room is an absolute pig sty, tripping on things as I walk. But I really have no intention of cleaning it. Because what even is the point.
There's no point in asking when things will get better, because for me, they won't and I've grown to accept that instead of trying so hard to lift myself out of this.
I wish I was born as someone better than me

 

[novem]

states that those experiencing grief go through a series of five emotions: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance
what stage do you think you are at?

 

[Hollowman]

It's extremely hard to shake the pointlessness of it all. I can't cry anymore either.

 

[Capsaicin78]

There's no point in asking when things will get better, because for me, they won't and I've grown to accept that instead of trying so hard to lift myself out of this.
I wish I was born as someone better than me

Feel the exact same way man.

 

[novem]

states that those experiencing grief go through a series of five emotions: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance
what stage do you think you are at?

I am in a constant cycle of anger, bargaining and depression. I think when i reach acceptance i will finally be able to ctb.

 

[Hollowman]

I am in a constant cycle of anger, bargaining and depression. I think when i reach acceptance i will finally be able to ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. I also see no point to everything, to me just simply being alive is so tiring. I just want to pass away and be at peace for all eternity. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens, I wish you the best.