Done with life but having no courage to end it..

[UselessAndUgly]

I feel very incompetent and useless. I have not got any job while all my classmates in college have started working in great companies. I realize I am useless because I have not done anything. Academically I have poor grades, no projects/internships which lead to my resume getting rejected. Socially, I have no friends, never talked to any woman. Physically unfit and emotionally unstable. I really just want to end myself but I dont know why I am not getting courage. It is not like I am worried about hurting someone or I have some hope left in me. No I have no hopes and I know for sure my death will not matter to anyone because I have never been an important part of anyone's life. I dont know why I am struggling to end myself then

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I feel very incompetent and useless. I have not got any job while all my classmates in college have started working in great companies. I realize I am useless because I have not done anything. Academically I have poor grades, no projects/internships which lead to my resume getting rejected. Socially, I have no friends, never talked to any woman. Physically unfit and emotionally unstable. I really just want to end myself but I dont know why I am not getting courage. It is not like I am worried about hurting someone or I have some hope left in me. No I have no hopes and I know for sure my death will not matter to anyone because I have never been an important part of anyone's life. I dont know why I am struggling to end myself then

Are you scared?

 

[UselessAndUgly]

Are you scared?

I feel so....like if i fail and survive things will be worse

 

[Sslsh]

On the same boat. Im in this perpetual limbo where I don't want to live but am too lazy (not scared) to kms. Like I'm just wasting away my days. Thankfully I have SN with me so I can kms if there's something unavoidable that comes up.

 

[Wormfood]

I feel very incompetent and useless. I have not got any job while all my classmates in college have started working in great companies. I realize I am useless because I have not done anything. Academically I have poor grades, no projects/internships which lead to my resume getting rejected. Socially, I have no friends, never talked to any woman. Physically unfit and emotionally unstable. I really just want to end myself but I dont know why I am not getting courage. It is not like I am worried about hurting someone or I have some hope left in me. No I have no hopes and I know for sure my death will not matter to anyone because I have never been an important part of anyone's life. I dont know why I am struggling to end myself then

I can relate. I can't cook to save my life and my room looks like a pigsty. At times I don't shower for days due to crippling depression and I don't do laundry which results in me wearing dirty clothes. I feel absolutely worthless at times. My cousin is 23 and owns her own house I rent somewhere... At your funeral will your grades matter? What about your resume? Why do you think everyone is going to like you? Does it appear that even 80% of women can recognize a good man if he punched them in the face? Even if they recognized him wouldn't they miss the drama of the emotionally unavailable guy? I can see you're still alive cause you have hope. That's okay. Some people will will appreciate you as you are. You don't need to impress us with your resume or material possessions. You're enough as you are dear friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer. I know that it is so awful wanting to be free from this horrible existence, yet being unable to. I feel trapped in this world as suicide is difficult for me and the fear of failing the method is what holds me back as well. It is horrifying, the thought of ending up in a worse condition due to method failure. After all, even know we want to die, all humans are programmed to survive. To me, there is nothing easy about suicide even know that more than anything I wish that it is easier to leave.

I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, and I hope that you find what you are looking for. Life really is so cruel and unfair, and it is sad how so much suffering exists in this world.

 

[UselessAndUgly]

I can relate. I can't cook to save my life and my room looks like a pigsty. At times I don't shower for days due to crippling depression and I don't do laundry which results in me wearing dirty clothes. I feel absolutely worthless at times. My cousin is 23 and owns her own house I rent somewhere... At your funeral will your grades matter? What about your resume? Why do you think everyone is going to like you? Does it appear that even 80% of women can recognize a good man if he punched them in the face? Even if they recognized him wouldn't they miss the drama of the emotionally unavailable guy? I can see you're still alive cause you have hope. That's okay. Some people will will appreciate you as you are. You don't need to impress us with your resume or material possessions. You're enough as you are dear friend.FyF

I can relate. I can't cook to save my life and my room looks like a pigsty. At times I don't shower for days due to crippling depression and I don't do laundry which results in me wearing dirty clothes. I feel absolutely worthless at times. My cousin is 23 and owns her own house I rent somewhere... At your funeral will your grades matter? What about your resume? Why do you think everyone is going to like you? Does it appear that even 80% of women can recognize a good man if he punched them in the face? Even if they recognized him wouldn't they miss the drama of the emotionally unavailable guy? I can see you're still alive cause you have hope. That's okay. Some people will will appreciate you as you are. You don't need to impress us with your resume or material possessions. You're enough as you are dear friend.

I'm thankful for your honesty and kind words. But it is just proven to me that my job, my ambition will always be considered before anyone be my friend.

I'm sorry that you suffer. I know that it is so awful wanting to be free from this horrible existence, yet being unable to. I feel trapped in this world as suicide is difficult for me and the fear of failing the method is what holds me back as well. It is horrifying, the thought of ending up in a worse condition due to method failure. After all, even know we want to die, all humans are programmed to survive. To me, there is nothing easy about suicide even know that more than anything I wish that it is easier to leave.

I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, and I hope that you find what you are looking for. Life really is so cruel and unfair, and it is sad how so much suffering exists in this world.

Thank you.

On the same boat. Im in this perpetual limbo where I don't want to live but am too lazy (not scared) to kms. Like I'm just wasting away my days. Thankfully I have SN with me so I can kms if there's something unavoidable that comes up.

Same I keep thinking about it but haven't came up with a sure plan.