Doing it in 3 hours

[callisto32569]

Ok. Starting fasting a few hours ago. Feeling very very anxious. Have measured the water out. Got the SN ready.
Somebody please help, I need someone to talk to

 

[dustyfurcollector]

Hi. I'm a stranger to you and I'm not very good at this site, but I hope you find the peace you seek. If you want company, I'm sure many will be here with you. Best wishes for a peaceful passing

 

[outrider567]

Ok. Starting fasting a few hours ago. Feeling very very anxious. Have measured the water out. Got the SN ready.
Somebody please help, I need someone to talk to

Hope it goes well, praying for you

Ok. Starting fasting a few hours ago. Feeling very very anxious. Have measured the water out. Got the SN ready.
Somebody please help, I need someone to talk to

What has brought you to this point?

 

[callisto32569]

OCD. My mind is shot and I can't cope.

 

[dustyfurcollector]

OCD. My mind is shot and I can't cope.

I can't imagine the strain of those urges. There is a thread (I'm sorry I don't know how to embed them) from a med student who tested it with the minimum dose that is lethal and besides a racing heart he said when it really started to work, he felt as though he just fell asleep. Just all of a sudden fell asleep.

 

[callisto32569]

I'm just smoking and watching some star trek. I think I always knew it would happen

 

[Ecka-26]

I'm sorry for your suffering, are you going to take any AE's?

 

[callisto32569]

I'm sorry for your suffering, are you going to take any AE's?

Yes. I just can't fail.
This is very frightening. I'm shaking like a leaf. But I really just want it to be over.

 

[dustyfurcollector]

Which star Trek do you like? Any franchise?

 

[callisto32569]

Which star Trek do you like? Any franchise?

Ds9 in particular

 

[dustyfurcollector]

Ds9 in particular

I hope that's what you're able to be watching.

 

[callisto32569]

Yes. Watching on YouTube. This feels really weird.

 

[Dot]

R u sre abt ur decisn

 

[J007]

Ok. Starting fasting a few hours ago. Feeling very very anxious. Have measured the water out. Got the SN ready.
Somebody please help, I need someone to talk to

What method have you chosen?
Sorry, silly question, should read before I posted.

 

[wljourney]

Wishing you well. And if you decide not to go through today, we will still be here to support you.

 

[Shu]

What method have you chosen?
Sorry, silly question, should read before I posted.

"Got the SN ready"

 

[callisto32569]

R u sre abt ur decisn

I think so Dot. I've had 6 suicide attempts over the years. I just think it's inevitable.

 

[J007]

If you're too scared it would be better to take some anti- anxiety drugs
or just wait when you're calm...

 

[Snatsbats]

Hey, you dont have any benzo's to calm your nerves? I hope you are sure about your decision. Good luck with whatever you choose

 

[Chronic]

Maybe try to put it off a day if you can....there's no rush if you're not ready.

 

[Dot]

I think so Dot. I've had 6 suicide attempts over the years. I just think it's inevitable.

Am srry tht u hve cme 2 ths pnt - u cn alwys chnge ur mnd

Importnt qustn thn
Favr8 chrctr - Qurk or Odo

 

[callisto32569]

Am srry tht u hve cme 2 ths pnt - u cn alwys chnge ur mnd

Importnt qustn thn
Favr8 chrctr - Qurk or Odo

Quark. Remember the
Quark adverts on the cups. Come to quarks, quarks is fun

 

[Dot]

Quark. Remember the
Quark adverts on the cups. Come to quarks, quarks is fun

 

[Lebensunwertes]

Like others here said I'd rather wait it out. Finish watching Star Trek, go to sleep. I think the decision for departure should be calculated. From what you have written it doesn't seem like your intentions are set in stone. And I'm not talking about the decision to end life, but the decision to end life right now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I can imagine that it must have been so awful and tiring to go through that many ctb attempts. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I know how horrible it is to live with OCD. I assume you have benzo? didn't you take any today?

 

[dustyfurcollector]

Yes. Watching on YouTube. This feels really weird.

I hope it's comforting you.

 

[Graham]

I think so Dot. I've had 6 suicide attempts over the years. I just think it's inevitable.

You don't have to do anything you don't want to ... it feels weird ... had that feeling yesterday

Whatever you decide is your choice don't be pressured by anything (including yourself/mind)

X

 

[Dot]

You don't have to do anything you don't want to ... it feels weird ... had that feeling yesterday

Whatever you decide is your choice don't be pressured by anything (including yourself/mind)

X

 

[Graham]