Discussion Does everyone know you’re suicidal ?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Will they be shocked or unsurprised?

 

[nameeater]

practically everyone in my life knows, i doubt anyone will be surprised when i finally ctb. i've attempted numerous times and have lost many friends because of it. i'm at least happy i wont be around to see their faux sympathy when i'm gone for good because everyone left me when i needed them most

 

[Account unknown]

Will they be shocked or unsurprised?

All of my immediate family know, I'm not too sure they know how serious I am about it but they know something is seriously wrong with me. I'm a complete recluse and don't leave the house. I have a couple of friends who know too but I never see them for the same reasons or even talk to them anymore.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

Everyone I love knows I'm suicidal. I don't know if they'll be surprised.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not care about how others react after I have died, as by that point I will be gone, I will be at peace. Nobody knows and they never will. There is no point in telling anyone as they will not accept and understand my decision. They would selfishly expect me to suffer for decades. After all it is my life, and I have the right to exit at a time of my own choosing. It is nothing to do with anyone else. I am the type of person who prefers to keep things to myself anyway.

 

[somedayillbefree]

I don't think my friends and family (whoever's left of them) will be surprised. My life has been one mental illness-driven car crash after another. Honestly, I just hope they'll be relieved, especially my parents. I worry about putting the burden of grief on them, but at least they won't have the burden of taking care of me and my messes anymore. My parents deserve to spend their retirements focused on themselves instead of being saddled with the emotional and financial strain that is my pathetic diseased existence.

 

[Chinaski]

Will they be shocked or unsurprised?

Jesus man, you ask a *hell* of a lot o f questions, are you doing some kind of suicide survey or something?

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Jesus man, you ask a *hell* of a lot o f questions, are you doing some kind of suicide survey or something?

Sorry.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Nobody knows that I am suicidal, and I do not share any of my suicidal thoughts with anyone outside of this forum. As a guess: I am under the impression that other people who see me regularly in the real world, like acquaintances, just think that I am an asocial loner - which I am; I do not believe that they would go so far as to think that I am suicidal though.

As for their reaction: shocked or unsuprised? I do not want anybody knowing in the first place. Plus I am no one important, so it is unlikely that too many will be seriously upset anyway. Though there might be virtue signallers as is the case with many suicides.

 

[thefoodispoison]

I talked with my husband, some close friends, and my therapist about my suicidal ideation before, when it was "don't want to kill myself but don't want to be alive." Once it switched over and I started planning I shut up about it. But I don't think any of them would be surprised if I go through with it.

 

[Starryeyes]

Everyone knows

 

[atlaSS]

Eles ficarão chocados ou não surpresos?

Meus familiares iriam se surpreender e procurar algum motivo fútil para tal ato de "egoísmo meu".

 

[TVtrays]

Yeah, sadly.
I have BPD and the emotions are unbearable and I'm unable to keep them to myself. I have a great deal of anger towards myself and in the heat of the moment, I've gone on extremely angry rants about how i want to kill myself because I deserve it because I'm trash and a waste of the very air I breathe and blah blah blah, you get the picture.

 

[Harriet]

Yes most people know because I'm stupidly open with my feelings. Also I made a pretty dramatic attempt a few months ago so now people creep around me as though I'll do it again any minute.

 

[The_Dreamer]

Nobody knows. They'll be shocked if I ever succeed. I've known this is my path for years though and I have a journal of my thoughts and feelings rationalized in my phone notes that they'll be able to access if I ever die. Some semblance of closure for them maybe, I suppose.

I've even concealed my multiple failed CTB attempts. (Nothing really to hide though to be fair)

Now I play the waiting game.