Does anything still help you get a temporary break from the suicidal ideation?

[Groundhog_Day]

Some days if i wake up with a slight headache, i'll take paracetamol(Tylenol in US)+caffeine tablets. For an hour or so, they can give me some energy and a feeling of positivity.

Other than that, i listen to a shuffle playlist of my favourite songs, which can slightly help me whilst doing housework etc. Also, i've been using food to calm my nervous system, but it doesn't feel that good and my t-shirts are getting tighter which isn't great.

I've never drank alcohol, smoked weed, or done any drugs either legal or non-legal.

Does anyone find alcohol, drugs (including ssri's etc), any hobbies, or any youtube channels etc, that help provide temporary escape from the negative thoughts? I'm finding it harder to escape them, and want to try and see if anything else could help.

 

[Topaz111]

My mind is set by now and I'm not trying to hang on anymore, however, listening to audiobooks gives me a break from my reality for a little bit while I wait for the time come.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

alchohol and weed do

theatre does, acting and becoming another person and all that. there are film/tv acting classes at my school. i've never tried them and am not really interested. for me, acting as a character feels more real when its done live. (from a watching persepctive i like both tho, i only perfer theatre when im the one whos performing)

and thats really the only things that fully do it. dnd, writing fanfiction and being with my best friend or being with one of my other two close friends kinda helps but i still have it in the back of my mind that i want to die. the only things that fully help are alchohol and theatre

 

[InTheAbyss]

Nothing really helps me escape from these thoughts anymore. Unless you somehow make the distinction and count any hope I still might have left for getting approved for euthanasia.

 

[Life's not a comedy]

Lately it's been online cards, following the federal government dramas, and c-span. Although I can only devout a small amount of mental bandwidth to each before I collapse.

 

[Nikkra]

exercise

 

[Dinozauria]

I think making characters usually provides a bit of an escape (though recently I've started straight up putting my struggles onto those characters so it doesn't really work anymore)
I like watching YouTube videos. They usually take my mind off personal stuff and just make me yell at a TV screen over some random issue lol (some channels I like are: Queer Kiwi, Thought Bug, Kurtis Connor, Jetlag the game, Daniel Thrasher Plus, DaniellesAdvocacy and CHUPPL)
Also, embarrassingly, I use ai role-playing sites alot, which very easily take my mind off stuff if I get invested in a lil story. I'd probably recommend TTRPGs more then this. Theres some good solo ones out there (I haven't played any personally but I've heard of good ones anyway)

These things don't provide a long distraction, but it's enough

 

[anopenwound]

Alcohol helps but as of lately it's become more, more, and more difficult to actually feel better with it. I don't feel the excitement I used to about it 'cause all is gone.
Videogames keep my focus on, so I indulge in complete escapism when I can. If I can believe I'm not actually living my life, but the life of someone else, it's good. But it's temporary. It doesn't last more than some minutes.

 

[CloudyDay]

Unfortunately I've been going back to alcohol. I must say it really helps on the spot. However, the day after is quite hard and I can't find the strength of getting out of bed.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

alchohol and weed do

theatre does, acting and becoming another person and all that. there are film/tv acting classes at my school. i've never tried them and am not really interested. for me, acting as a character feels more real when its done live. (from a watching persepctive i like both tho, i only perfer theatre when im the one whos performing)

and thats really the only things that fully do it. dnd, writing fanfiction and being with my best friend or being with one of my other two close friends kinda helps but i still have it in the back of my mind that i want to die. the only things that fully help are alchohol and theatre

Which drinks do you find best for quieting your mind? I've never tried whiskey, but i was thinking of giving it a go as 40% alcohol would hopefully mean i could get drunk quickly. Is that a good idea or is it more likely to give headaches and nausea, for someone not used to alcohol?

Also, i read that in the long term, alcohol can make you more anxious. Is it best to not drink too much and too often?

 

[meatballlover]

Gaming for me. Its one of the only hobbies I have left basically. It does not eliminate suicidal thoughts at all but it functions as more of a brainwash for me - no time to think about anything else other than the exact moment. It also gives me light motivation to self-improve in the game but it is not nearly enough to fix life. I suppose think about the stuff you enjoyed doing before depression (if there was that time) any niche interests and you can try getting back to them.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

Gaming for me. Its one of the only hobbies I have left basically. It does not eliminate suicidal thoughts at all but it functions as more of a brainwash for me - no time to think about anything else other than the exact moment. It also gives me light motivation to self-improve in the game but it is not nearly enough to fix life. I suppose think about the stuff you enjoyed doing before depression (if there was that time) any niche interests and you can try getting back to them.

Thanks for this. I did play Clash Royale a few years back but deleted it as i thought it was probably not a positive use of my spare time. But i have since thought it might have actually been helpful, as it did give me a break from my thoughts. I guess moderation is the key, getting a break from the negative thoughts, but not getting too addicted.

 

[Cepheuss]

The only thing that worked for me was drugs but then the second your on the comedown you will feel so much worse so youll end up in a cycle of being constantly high to avoid comedows. Unfortunately theres not many good options for distraction

 

[m3nhera]

Some days if i wake up with a slight headache, i'll take paracetamol(Tylenol in US)+caffeine tablets. For an hour or so, they can give me some energy and a feeling of positivity.

Other than that, i listen to a shuffle playlist of my favourite songs, which can slightly help me whilst doing housework etc. Also, i've been using food to calm my nervous system, but it doesn't feel that good and my t-shirts are getting tighter which isn't great.

I've never drank alcohol, smoked weed, or done any drugs either legal or non-legal.

Does anyone find alcohol, drugs (including ssri's etc), any hobbies, or any youtube channels etc, that help provide temporary escape from the negative thoughts? I'm finding it harder to escape them, and want to try and see if anything else could help.

Usually hanging out with my bf helps temporarily! He is so sweet and means the world to me, I can't leave him alone. He reminds me life is worth living. I just need to get through it.

 

[Leorio Paradinight]

Nothig really, because my illness leaves me in a constant state of pain and fatigue so I have to fight through it even to do things that normally people consider relaxing.

I thought moving forward in life would alleviate some of it, but now, around people, I get reminded 50 times a day that I'm simply not equipped to lead a normal life, no matter how hard I try.

Being with the right person who cared for me and respected me despite my affliction gave me a break from ideation and it was really nice, but that's all gone now.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

Which drinks do you find best for quieting your mind? I've never tried whiskey, but i was thinking of giving it a go as 40% alcohol would hopefully mean i could get drunk quickly. Is that a good idea or is it more likely to give headaches and nausea, for someone not used to alcohol?

Also, i read that in the long term, alcohol can make you more anxious. Is it best to not drink too much and too often?

i don't know how much i can answer the questions of if whisky will make you nauseus, or if drinking will make you more anxious, im not an expert im just a guy who drinks sometimes. i would be careful if you are not used to it though. i hear some people feel worse after drinking. also how fast it hits you is different for everyone too, you might not need the super strong stuff. i am very much a lightweight, i take one shot and feel drunk. and even for me who does usually feels better from drinking it can still not work how you hope. sometimes i get drunk and feel great and then end up full on crying later. i would say be careful if you are not used to alcohol and don't do a ton if you aren't used to it. i made that mistake when i first started and got very sick and blacked out even because i didnt know i was a lightweight. probably going slower with it is better, especially if you're not used to it. and not do it too often if possible and not rely on it too much for coping.

 

[yourlocalprotist]

I listen to music at max volume (mostly femtanyl) a lot of the time, though I do that regardless.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

i don't know how much i can answer the questions of if whisky will make you nauseus, or if drinking will make you more anxious, im not an expert im just a guy who drinks sometimes. i would be careful if you are not used to it though. i hear some people feel worse after drinking. also how fast it hits you is different for everyone too, you might not need the super strong stuff. i am very much a lightweight, i take one shot and feel drunk. and even for me who does usually feels better from drinking it can still not work how you hope. sometimes i get drunk and feel great and then end up full on crying later. i would say be careful if you are not used to alcohol and don't do a ton if you aren't used to it. i made that mistake when i first started and got very sick and blacked out even because i didnt know i was a lightweight. probably going slower with it is better, especially if you're not used to it. and not do it too often if possible and not rely on it too much for coping.

Thanks for this. Sorry if it was dumb, it's just nobody in my family drinks, and i've never really been around anyone who does drink, so i'm a bit clueless.

I will try it out carefully, like you suggest. I started watching whisky reviews on youtube, and now my algorithm keeps suggesting videos about the benefits of quitting alcohol.

 

[LittleJem]

It can be addictive (apparently), but it is also now being used as part of an anti-depressant in USA, which is called Auvelity. It is called DXM.

You can get pure pills, but currently I am trying the cough syrup till I order the pills. CBD makes it last longer, or in the anti-depressant combo, they use buproprion for that.

Yesterday was the first day I tried it, and it was a better day. However, I also had a xanax. It might help you, just keep it low dose. It's larger doses people trip on. It is talked about on Reddit.

 

[charlavail]

I've been painting some walls in my apartment in hopes that a bit of change will bring less negative thoughts and associations (my ex who I thought I was going to marry and we spent a lot of time here just up and dumped me out of the blue a couple of months ago and it sent me down a spiral into the psych ward). that paired with loud music or having the TV on is enough stimulation for my brain. idk what i'll do after. the warm weather is getting to me, i feel depressed and i don't want to go outside. i get anxiety walking and i'm worried about having panic attacks at the gym.

audiobooks are also good, if you have spotify you get like one free book a month because of time/credit. it's good to focus on that because you have to pay extra attention. will say, at some point things do stop working.

 

[Wojaczek]

documentaries have been a new good cope for me, there's so much interest stuff to learn.

 

[February_In_April]

taking a walk outside and finding things to do on my phone like playing simple games and browsing on shops like ebay and amazon.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

Thanks for this. Sorry if it was dumb, it's just nobody in my family drinks, and i've never really been around anyone who does drink, so i'm a bit clueless.

I will try it out carefully, like you suggest. I started watching whisky reviews on youtube, and now my algorithm keeps suggesting videos about the benefits of quitting alcohol.

no worries it's not dumb. it's good to try to figure out before you drink something with a ton of alcohol.

 

[Aflame5926]

light novels. i have a thing with reading wuxia and my fantasy takes care of the rest.

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

I somewhat find a few things that help me. I'd not say it relieves the symptoms but it makes me forget about it for a few minutes of the day.

Playing games is one of those things. Playing online games is even better because I feel like I'm sharing the same moment with other people, this helps because I'm completely lonely and cope with loneliness isn't easy.

So lately I'm playing CS:GO community servers and actually having some fun because most people aren't trying hard or trying to be the best, sometimes we laugh about extremely bad plays of our own team.

But overall, if I remember I can think, I automatically remember I want to die.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

Spending time in nature with my dog is basically the only time I don't feel incredibly suicidal as of late. But even then the heaviness of depression is creeping in, and it's not always easy to ignore it. I have a hard time going home as I know I'll feel worse there, I wish I could stay in the forest forever. I also still find some sense of escape in alcohol, but it's getting to the point where my depression/suicidal thoughts are amplified, and I get messy when drunk. I'm not the best at controlling myself when it comes to how much I drink, so more often then not I end up sad drunk.

Here's some forest pics, moments I wish I could stay in forever. Maybe then I wouldn't be so fucking sad:

 

[violetforever]

working/being around children. theyre so innocently loving and happy that i forget how much i hate myself and the world.

 

[CloudyDay]

Unfortunately I've been going back to alcohol. I must say it really helps on the spot. However, the day after is quite hard and I can't find the strength of getting out of bed.

I've been thinking about this since I answered. What's been helping as well: playing TTRPGs (I get so immersed in the story and characters that I don't think about anything else) and reading (like today, I read in a park during my lunch break and it actually felt good).

 

[outrider567]

I have Youtube Premium, $15 a month, I mostly watch old movies from the 1940's to the 1960's

 

[tbaslim1968]

I'd be careful around alcohol. Last time I drank it got out of control and I tried to CTB because alcohol took away my SI.