Does anyone else wonder when they crossed the line from depressed to suicidal?

[Suicide]

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[CrappyMJ]

When my dad yelled at me that he hates me and he doesn't want me as his son

 

[Susan472]

When bad stuff that happens outweighs good stuff and even good stuff doesn't give me much of a boost

I actually bother to get dressed each day now whereas could spend most if not all of the day in nightclothes before but I feel worse now

I just can't see the point in doing 99% of stuff

Valium is about the only thing keeping me going currently

 

[Painless_end]

April 2012

 

[deletednumber]

After my last attempt at trying to fight depression, I didn't make it for the seventh consecutive year and from that point on I realized there was nothing more I could do. I'm just exhausted and very lonely.
No one has been able to help me, and I don't want to go on any longer.

 

[return2dreamland]

i would say it happened when i was 14, but i remember countless times before that where i would actively wish i was dead, so i do wonder ,,,,

 

[FuneralCry]

I think I know, I was depressed for most of my teenage years and then I started to get health problems and I realised that this life isn't worth it for me. I mean I have been thinking about dying a lot of my life but I guess then it took a downward spiral.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

When I realized that existence itself was the problem and that all my feelings of depression, anxiety, and dread were perfectly normal responses to the absurd nature of being alive.

My growing self-hatred and the awareness that the only way to escape myself is to die has also cemented the need for me to ctb as soon as I am able to.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I think I became depressed and suicidal at the same time because it all started at my 12s.
I was more than happy and had no depression before that.

 

[noname223]

Well, I think I became depressed and suicidal at the same time because it all started at my 12s.
I was more than happy and had no depression before that.

I can relate to that. Except for the last part.

 

[DoodleBug]

When i was 17, after my trauma that has sent me over the edge.

 

[Emilia1012]

When my suffering became so much that I wanted to sleep all days just to escape it, I couldn't eat, had constant stomach pain ,started crying 1000 times a day. And would do anything, even die, just to end this suffering

 

[BlankUser]

Suicidal thoughts were present most of my life. But it never was as bad as the last 3 years. It's a rock bottom I guess. I was few steps away from doing it several times. Had things prepared and couldn't go through it.

 

[Meditation guide]

Yesterday. I wasn't ever really depressed. Just fed up.

 

[charcoalcat]

Early days I was depressed but still have the drive to continue living. Later found nihilism, which led to losing the drive. Lastly comes hopelessness due to realization of everything happening around me and the world.

I wished I was ignorant and daft.

 

[Øystein]

I wish I could relive the memory of the day I actively chose that this will be my end. I've been considering it since i was twelve years old, but I wasn't always dead (heh) set on it. I wonder when exactly that shift happened. It's been a while.

 

[sm20]

Title

There isn't really one moment because I went from depressed to suicidal to just depressed, back to suicidal again. Most recently what made me cross back to suicidal was my hearing damage leaving permanent ringing in my ears and hypersensitivity to noise. That and some things with my eyes are leaving me terrified I might be going blind. If I ever confirm that last part I think that's guaranteed death for me.

 

[Lupgevif]

I remember it clearly.

 

[vita min]

Clear as day. If I could go back on time to one day before the events leading up to it started, I would change everything. If I could go back in time to one day after, then I would order chemicals.

 

[motel rooms]

I honestly have no idea

 

[Hurt]

Some years ago when I realized life wasn't for me anymore. I was already depressed but suddenly became suicidal. I don't want to be here anymore. I've had it.

 

[glad it’s night]

It was such a gradual decline: from intermittent subconscious sadness - to depression - to daydreaming about ctb - to researching methods - to being certain there is no way I'll make it a natural death from old age. I'd give myself 1-10 years to live if I had to guess. I suppose things can change for the better...

 

[Pisceslilith]

honestly I really don't know, It all just hit me at once, all of sudden I just wanted to die. I really wish I had succeeded when I tried.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

When I lost a lot of $ and realized I was fucked

 

[Snake of Eden]

When I lost a lot of $ and realized I was fucked

How did you lose it and how much if you dont mind me asking?

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

How did you lose it and how much if you dont mind me asking?

Stock market. Initially lost about $30,000 but .. I took the rest out of the stock market completely and missed out on an opportunity to make about $300,000 and even more in extending into the future… Really wiped out my chances of any type of Retirement, financial independence etc. so totally fucked… Which really put me here