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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Arcanist
May 17, 2024
419
Are you ctbing because of it? I know I have no sense of purpose in life, no passion or hobby to keep me going. Not having something to do in life can make you feel like you're in a prison with no purpose. I'd rather die than sit around and twiddle my thumbs or force myself into something I don't like.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
436
I have things I'd like to do, I just don't have the motivation anymore to do them. Life has deprived me of them.
 
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Greyhawk

Greyhawk

Member
Jan 3, 2025
74
It's one of the main reasons for me. I'm struggling to find any meaning or purpose that would take away my feelings of worthlessness and self-hatred. Especially hard now since I fucked up my studies and my family is expecting me to do well. I have some idea of what I want to do but I'm really depressed right now. I'm trying to find hope from existentialism and berserk.
 
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Pilgrim_

New Member
Aug 3, 2024
3
I'm trying to figure out how to live. There does seem to be some sort of purpose to this life, even if it is subjective, but finding it just comes harder for me than for most people.
 
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sulk

sulk

if beauty is in the inside i wanna see my bones
Sep 30, 2023
54
Same, I genuinely think I was born to live with no purpose at all and i'm definitely ctbing because of it
 
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Esc9434

Experienced
Feb 25, 2020
299
Hey Buddy,

I think we are supposed to master ourselves.

I guess that means having to create our own purpose.

As long as we are not doing anything evil or low vibrational, then it can be whatever.

I'll DM you later with some more insight.
 
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onthefence

onthefence

Actually… sobbing on the floor
Dec 31, 2024
227
This is it! Exactly my problem as well. I see no reason to live and find no joy in anything. I compare every experience to black nothingness and black nothingness is always preferable. How do people just live meaningful lives with some joy? It seems like many people have this figured out but no one can tell me how to do it.
 
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shrizoid

shrizoid

Experienced
Nov 18, 2024
201
Are you ctbing because of it? I know I have no sense of purpose in life, no passion or hobby to keep me going. Not having something to do in life can make you feel like you're in a prison with no purpose. I'd rather die than sit around and twiddle my thumbs or force myself into something I don't like.
No I don't have a sense of purpose in life, but that isn't why I want death, im fine with living without a purpose in all honesty
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
757
Are you ctbing because of it? I know I have no sense of purpose in life, no passion or hobby to keep me going. Not having something to do in life can make you feel like you're in a prison with no purpose. I'd rather die than sit around and twiddle my thumbs or force myself into something I don't like.
My emptiness towards life is definitely a factor in my decision to wanting ctb. In comparison, my life is not bad . It just feel everything is pointless, why do I bother to live?
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,193
Are you ctbing because of it? I know I have no sense of purpose in life, no passion or hobby to keep me going. Not having something to do in life can make you feel like you're in a prison with no purpose. I'd rather die than sit around and twiddle my thumbs or force myself into something I don't like.
To be honest yeah im right there with you. I've had passion and purpose medicine and becoming a doctor. And they were stolen from me. I'm just left a hollow husk of a person. Worse yet I've tried to fix my life yet. I can't afford or go to more school. I can't get a job I've sent in hundreds of applications. I'm walled in by immovable objects on all sides and I've been left to rot and die by everyone I know. It's hell.
 
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whytrymyguy

whytrymyguy

Junkie Trash
Apr 10, 2024
51
Are you ctbing because of it? I know I have no sense of purpose in life, no passion or hobby to keep me going. Not having something to do in life can make you feel like you're in a prison with no purpose. I'd rather die than sit around and twiddle my thumbs or force myself into something I don't like.
I don't even know anymore
 
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ScaredOfMachines

ScaredOfMachines

I am who I am
Nov 8, 2024
156
I did feel like I had purpose, but realizing it's all unachievable and my declining mental health has sort of made it all go away. Life's been a prison for me forever, but losing any purpose to it has made it much worse.
 
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SafferGuy

Member
Oct 27, 2023
49
I did feel like I had purpose, but realizing it's all unachievable and my declining mental health has sort of made it all go away. Life's been a prison for me forever, but losing any purpose to it has made it much worse.

I feel the same way
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I don't have a sense of purpose but this isn't really one of my main reasons for wanting to die. Even if there was a purpose in life, I refuse to accept that purpose
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,449
I just don't see their being any point to this existence at all, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, to me existing truly is just waiting to die and I'd never wish for any of this, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering, find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all. No matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I wish I could simply choose to just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, existence really does feel like a mistake to me.
 
kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
425
Do people really have a sense of purpose in life? I never really tried to have one. It doesn't make sense to me because everything is going to end one day. But not having a purpose isn't really why I want to die.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,054
I think it's hard to work towards a purpose with all that is being thrown at us. I believe the purpose is simple, to become the best version of ourselves and to spend time with loved ones. What makes it hard is when we lose loved ones, or when we finally feel we get somewhere just to be brought right back down to depressing Earth. I don't know anymore. It's like it's this constant battle with us having to decide whether we still have it in us to fight and not give up. That requires belief and positivity in a mostly f*cked up world. And does it even matter in the end? Not if we are alone and messed up with no joy or some kind of contentment. Just where I find myself now.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,628
i will never see a purpose to continue living in this evil life and evil world. My purpose should be to escape this hell asap , my suicide asap.

i don't see an objective reason for why i have to live another minute or have to want to live another minute or to do anything

much less that there is a reason to risk extreme torture

nothing really matters to me except avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap

i should see other things only in the degree to how much they move me towards my suicide or away from it.
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
488
The existence of any purpose for life is, in general, logically indefensible. Nevertheless, there is something irrational that "keeps" some people there, in life. It is about the extremely individual perception of the purpose of existence.
 
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Peter Skellern

Enlightened
Jan 10, 2025
1,071
I did but of late that's ended so I dont. If I could flick a switch I'd go right this second.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,498
As a science person, the science answer is: survive and reproduce. You purpose for being alive is as simple as that.

Personally, my purpose has always been to make myself as happy as possible while not hurting others. Unfortunately, life has brought me to a place where this is now impossible, so I no longer desire to live.
 
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coolgal82

coolgal82

she/it, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
590
i feel that sometimes. although rn my purpose is just to talk to my besties but when im not doing that i just feel awful (well when im not high/drunk/etc atleast tbh those make being away from them somewhat more bearable. atleast i dont have a breakdown every time they leave with drugs lmao)
 
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Manfrotto99

Arcanist
Oct 10, 2023
415
I guess it proberbly is. I think most people need a purpose in life, otherwise when life becomes a struggle there is no reason to keep going and things become too hard for the soul and body to endure. It's easy to say we can create a purpose, but that takes resources, money and health which is not accessible to everyone.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,665
I used to have one (in my creative career) but, it's just lost a lot of its appeal. Which brings it's own problems really because, I still need to do it. Or rather, it's my better option while I'm alive. But, it requires huge amounts of commitment, huge amounts of motivation and energy. All three of which, I'm struggling with. So, it's like being in a marathon you know you have to try and finish with injuries and, nothing left in the tank.

The main thing keeping me going is that I don't feel I can CTB while my Dad is still alive. So, quiting now doesn't feel like an option. I suppose I should be grateful that I still hate to fail or, let people down so- that forces me to do my best. Plus, the memory of what the alternative to this is like (doing more wage slave jobs) pretty much horrifies me. It's basically fear and obligation making me limp on but that also fosters resentment.
 
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Peter Skellern

Enlightened
Jan 10, 2025
1,071
I did have a huge one until quite recently. That unfortunately is now gone.
 

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