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Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
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Mine were due to medication. It makes everyday living skills much harder these days. How about you?
 
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evolutionerror

evolutionerror

Corrupted DNA
Sep 5, 2022
46
No injuries, but cognitively I feel brain dead. A bit hard for me to explain but I feel like I've been on autopilot for months now. I can barely muster the mental fortitude to mow my lawn.
 
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western_heart

western_heart

trying to save ourself
May 23, 2021
622
medication has impaired me in the past, as has recreational drug abuse, but I've been able to recover from that with time

I am permanently altered by trauma since childhood, I have DID and PTSD. There is some amount of recovery possible, I have reprocessed many of my bad experiences, but the dissociation never really stops happening, I just learn how to cope with it better. My personalities will always be disordered.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Yup unfortunately. It started 3 years ago where I noticed my memory started getting even worse and my ability to articulate my thoughts verbally took a nose dive and now I sound like an idiot most of the time trying to collect my thoughts
 
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Capsaicin78

Capsaicin78

Full time failure
May 4, 2022
238
I have a fair bit of brain fog. My decision making does not to make sense whatsoever. Also I have a hard time concentrating on things in general.
 
KQuotientW

KQuotientW

404: Reason to live not found
Jul 17, 2022
326
Mild acquired brain injury because my bio father tried strangling me a few times when I was little. Also, from domestic violence relationship where I was slammed into walls, and a car accident where someone drove fast into my stationary vehicle (pre airbag model).

People say that they think I'm really smart, but I'm a bit slow at processing new information when studying, sometimes.
 
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Why Me?

Experienced
Apr 5, 2022
270
Yes, my brain was so messed up by the time I was 18, I couldn't retain information, so college was not doable. Autism, lack of self care, poor diet, medications are to blame I think.
 
Al0neAlwayz

Al0neAlwayz

In the end, it doesn't even matter...
Sep 10, 2022
65
Mine is from my worst ctb attempt. I swallowed everything in my medicine cabinet and was out for several days in the ICU. They did 2 EEG's on me because they were concerned about my brain, and I definitely see changes in my thinking, cognitive abilities, and just forgetfulness and stuff ever since then...Too bad I didn't just succeed....
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,423
Yep for three decades now, I've had to survive by using my physical strength in manual labor jobs. Now my body's wearing out.
 
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Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
I have difficulties to study because I'm too depressed. I don't want to exist anymore.
 
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toasterbath

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Jun 26, 2022
254
i used to be passionate about studying and learning but slowly as the depression and CPTSD crept up my academic performance declined. i stopped caring about anything. what's the point of memorizing things when i want to be dead and none of it will even matter??
 
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