Does anyone else have an extreme regret they can't live with?

[Allpainnogain]

Mine is eating me alive and I have to ctb because of it. I ruined my own life and there is no coming back from it

 

[Empty Smile]

My biggest regret is still being alive.

 

[Halo13]

I don't have it in me to care about regrets anymore... except failed suicide attempts.

 

[Nem]

I feel the same way, I ruined my life and the regrets are just nails in the casket now

 

[Johnnythefox]

Too many to mention.

 

[wanttodie]

My biggest regret being a live and being born

 

[Socrates Augustus]

Yep but I dont know if It is irrational or if its worth ending it all over it .I know what you mean when you say "eating me up" its a horrible feeling.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Yes the thing I regret most ruined my life. It's not my only reason but that 1 mistake set into motion a lot of bad things that have further ruined life over the years. It's a hole I can't dig out of despite trying.

 

[Quinlor]

guilt for everything that happened to me and people around me

 

[JadedGray]

Other than being born and having not ended my life much sooner, it would be that I took advantage of my health and didn't take better care of myself, when I still was able to function. It wouldn't have stopped me from wanting to CTB, but at least my life could have been more enjoyable and I could have had more life experiences instead of being stuck at home all day every day, if my health had been better for longer.

 

[Ruined081018]

Mine is eating me alive and I have to ctb because of it. I ruined my own life and there is no coming back from it

Yes, it's the same for me.

 

[Final Escape]

Mine is eating me alive and I have to ctb because of it. I ruined my own life and there is no coming back from it

I unfortunately aborted all of my children. It's complicated to explain because I'm not sure I truly wanted this even though I consented. I had lots of issues in my youth that were left unaddressed. Traumatic childhood definitely played a part. I guess the decision was fear driven.

I knew I was goin to be a single mother like my mom was and I didn't really want that but yet I was having relationship troubles and it felt inevitable. I remembered the pain I felt at rejection by parents especially my father and didn't want to put that onto my own children. So then they have to possibly go through what I did with the broken home, welfare poverty trap.

 

[Alchemist]

My life is whole can of regret, but I guess my biggest one is pushing away people because I am emotionally immature.

 

[Retched]

Yes. Several. And it's very hard to forgive myself. It eats away at me.

 

[TAW122]

There are many, but I'm still living as the survival instinct, my curiosity, and also not quite at that exact point of where I will die yet. I'm sure that there could be such a time that it will happen and I get overwhelmed enough to go over the edge then ctb.

 

[TiredHorse]

Ah jeeze... Where do I start my list...?

 

[Fucking loving it]

My biggest regret is letting my daughter get a G tube. I wish I would have let her body do it's natural thing. Then the inevitable would happen sooner. Not be dragged out.

 

[andy69]

I regret every decision I ever made. I regret losing the only person I ever love. I regret being alive.

 

[Dreamcolleger]

I could say I regret not reporting my parents to somebody and getting moved into the care system which probably would have been a small improvement, but I think really I needed my parents, I just needed them to be good parents.

I don't actually regret anything significantly since this was coming no matter what I did.

 

[HGL91]

I regret living this long...

 

[littlelady774]

I broke his heart.
I wasn't sure what I wanted at the time and probably led him on.

I feel horrible about it

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

I have a lot of regrets but the main one is

I didn't talk to a girl i liked because I was shy and anxiety

Not that she would like me back anyway, I'm ugly and have nothing going for me in life.
I have nothing to give her except for myself, but she wouldn't want me she could do so much better. No girl will want me.

There hasn't been a day in the last 5 years I haven't thought of her. I live an imaginary life in my head. But the fact that it's not reality and my reality doesn't make me happy.

That's why I'm thinking of CTB

 

[not_a_robot]

Birth and everything after. Even the good things I did were mistakes, symptoms of delusional hope tying me to participation in this world. Even now I do it. I am giving myself one more chance at a situation where I can be properly isolated. I need it.

 

[21Neberg]

My biggest regret being a live and being born

Well unfortunately we don't get to choose on that second one...

 

[Dawn0071111]

Only one.

 

[Icarus]

Taking everything for granted