Does anyone else feel like they're too retarded to continue living

[glasseater]

I always knew it have been the case for me I'm sick of myself

 

[Hollowman]

Yep

 

[staticdepression]

Same bro. I'm a liability to my family.
I can't work properly.. I've quitted both of the jobs I've ever got only after couple of months because I couldn't mentally handle them.
I have high IQ but low EQ (socially retarded)
Apparently later is more important to live in society.
I hate the society anyway. What's the point of living?
I have no dreams no plans no goals.
I'm 32 and I've tried everything that I found interesting, but now I've lost interest in everything. Life is boring and painful.
This is literal hell for me and in about 10 days I'll end it once and for all.

What's your story?

 

[ReadyToLeave]

Yep, in a way. This world is to fast paced anymore, and those of us that are slower learners just get left behind and get treated like trash.

 

[Archness]

Yes, I'm too autistic and can't relate to other people. I'm relatively aware and intelligent in some ways, but conveniently in all the ways that isn't useful. My mind's a strange in-between of a child and an adult in terms of structure. No, I can't just "Grow up" or "Snap out" of it, I'm neurologically stunted and defective. Being on some level dissociated is simply my default state of being now.

I just can't live or get anything done, so I feel it's just natural for people like me to be dead. However, modern society makes it very easy to simply stay alive and distract yourself, so I'm just floating passively suicidal, until inevitably I can't bear even this anymore.

 

[NickyKymJelly]

Yeah. It takes me much longer to fully understand and complete things that most people can do easily (school and real life). I know I shouldn't compare myself to everyone, but it sucks being constantly surrounded by those who can meet the bare minimum while I can't do shit. One of my biggest reasons for my SI

 

[plskilme]

Yeah. Autism + inattentive adhd makes me feel less about myself. I don't feel like I fit in the world in general man.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I feel I'm too hurt and heartbroken to continue life

 

[lifesnotfair]

Yes 100%. I have profound executive dysfunction especially in working memory that makes work and life in general impossible.

 

[violetforever]

i think this every single day. i dont know how to function lol.

 

[tomame]

i'm a 31 year old man child. a complete liability. i always end up in father son gay dynamic relationships because i'm so retarted .. then they end up controlling and sort of abusive because i appear to know nothing. i hate my freakin life. i don't trust my own judgement. i have no internal compass that guides me. it's so debilitating. the book the Cinderella complex helped me understand myself a lot .. but having borderline personality kind of doesn't help. i hate feeling so foolish and helpless most of the time. it's just constant emotional suffering and i absolutely never learn. just spinning my wheels ): i've prayed alone— my past two birthdays .. the only wish for God to please take me and save me from myself. but, he doesn't .. and i for the life of me don't understand.

i've attempted ctb'ing 3x already. i feel so helpless and like i can't save myself to any capacity

 

[NonEssential]

I'm at an age where I should be able to survive independently but I'm reliant on my family members (who also aren't doing too well so I feel like I'm on a boat about to sink. Idk how to repair it so I'm just expecting it to sink one day)

 

[am045]

Yeah. Right when life was about to star for me few years ago, little did I know it would be the start of the end. Just lost interest in everything thereafter, and just find daily life pointless. There's nothing to live for, nothing to work towards, just nothing. You go to therapy, you take medication, but at the end of the day just realise that this is your life now. It's a life that is not worth going on with. I was hoping that things would get better with time, but it's only gone downhill. If MAID was accessible to me, I would've applied long ago. Now I'm so torn between what to do, what method to choose, how to go about wrapping up everything, etc. It's just a mess.

 

[blackmoldonwall]

Yeah its actually my main reason im just so dumb at figuring how this world works

 

[otomedissection]

Yes. I'm neurodivergent and working in a professional field, which means I mask constantly. It's gotten to a point where I come home and cry because I'm just so exhausted from trying not to be myself or to not inconvenience anybody or to look competent at my job. Everything about me is completely fake and I'm genuinely terrified of what might happen to me socially if I ever allowed myself to just exist without thinking. I feel like I hold everyone back and everyone secretly hates me and hates accommodating me.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I'm sorry, this made me chuckle, but yes

 

[itsgone2]

Yes. I'm not sure why. I was good at math but that's it. I think becyo was really good at one thing there's an idea I'm good at lots of things. But I'm not. Something is wrong I just can't process new things anymore. How the hell is one to start over on their 50s when they can't think straight?

 

[watergun88]

i am low on IQ but high on EQ ,

so everthing i do , i do it almost out of feeling, and try to win others acceptance, but you cant do that on the 'system side of the world' .
i am too dumb... too naive .... too naive,,, too ignorant. IGNORANT killed me .. killed ME!!!!

 

[cowlover1252]

That is one of many reasons

 

[thelostautistic]

I don't use that word to describe myself or anyone else because it's a slur. I do feel like a failure because of my Autism though.

 

[kirillbledny]

Yes, I'm too autistic and can't relate to other people. I'm relatively aware and intelligent in some ways, but conveniently in all the ways that isn't useful. My mind's a strange in-between of a child and an adult in terms of structure. No, I can't just "Grow up" or "Snap out" of it, I'm neurologically stunted and defective. Being on some level dissociated is simply my default state of being now.

I just can't live or get anything done, so I feel it's just natural for people like me to be dead. However, modern society makes it very easy to simply stay alive and distract yourself, so I'm just floating passively suicidal, until inevitably I can't bear even this anymore.

I relate to this so much, sometimes I feel like a child/teenager stuck in adult body, I never wanted to be an adult. And everyone nowadays pretends they're super tolerant of mentally ill/disordered people, but then they'll mock you or not accept you for being weird.

 

[Chabrychek]

I always knew it have been the case for me I'm sick of myself

Yes. I'm on the spectrum. It's a curse, it's a disability, it's ruined my life. It's impossible to live with a brain so hypersensitive to every stimulus. The more I grow up, the more I see how disabled I am compared to other people. And there's no cure. My entire brain is damaged.