does anyone else feel like their brain is full of holes??

[megafire]

Honestly, I'm not sure if I am capable of producing thoughts anymore. I took a walk yesterday, and unless I was talking to myself, my brain was just static. Feels like it's made out of Swiss cheese. I can't retain anything I read for my classes for longer than a day, and even then- it's slipping by the minute. This problem contributes a LOT to my ctb, because it's really hard to talk to people when you don't have any stories to share bc you can't remember anything that you've been through. Does anyone else have this problem? It would be nice to relate to someone for once lmao

 

[Symbiote]

I have had a history of concussions, but can't get diagnosis of CTE until after I'm dead. I also suffer from trigeminal neuralgia which also triggers cluster headaches. So either I'm in pain for an hour everyday or I have brain fog afterwards when it wears off. Some say I'm absent-minded, some say my brain is lazy, and people close to me think I'm exaggerating my pain. Must be nice to not experience headaches all the time.

 

[KClown]

Were in the same state for about two weeks when I had severe depression.

Got better when fully accepted meaningless of life. Didnt have guts to hurt myself at that time anyway.

Hope that helped

 

[Forgotten]

Yes, in the last five years or so, my brain feels really slow, I also feel this weird numbness in certain part of my head like a really weak headache. A decade ago I could think really fast and learn things extremely fast, these days it's just a mess, I have to concentrate really hard to even move or speak properly.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Honestly, I'm not sure if I am capable of producing thoughts anymore. I took a walk yesterday, and unless I was talking to myself, my brain was just static. Feels like it's made out of Swiss cheese. I can't retain anything I read for my classes for longer than a day, and even then- it's slipping by the minute. This problem contributes a LOT to my ctb, because it's really hard to talk to people when you don't have any stories to share bc you can't remember anything that you've been through. Does anyone else have this problem? It would be nice to relate to someone for once lmao

Yes, and that is one of the reasons I am thinking about ctb. Forgetting things makes it extremely hard to function in everyday life and I also have a big problem with placing memories in the right context, in relation to time. I have a very distorted view of time.

 

[Didymus]

Literally all of matter is 99.9999999% empty space :)

 

[megafire]

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I have had a history of concussions, but can't get diagnosis of CTE until after I'm dead. I also suffer from trigeminal neuralgia which also triggers cluster headaches. So either I'm in pain for an hour everyday or I have brain fog afterwards when it wears off. Some say I'm absent-minded, some say my brain is lazy, and people close to me think I'm exaggerating my pain. Must be nice to not experience headaches all the time.

that sounds like hell. i'm pretty good at handling external pain (cuts, burns, needles) but go big baby mode when i get the slightest bit of internal pain. and i can def relate "just get a hobby!" how can i when i forget the essentials after just learning it ))

Were in the same state for about two weeks when I had severe depression.

Got better when fully accepted meaningless of life. Didnt have guts to hurt myself at that time anyway.

Hope that helped

In a way it did, I'm not currently seeing any MH professionals, so it's validating to know that it's not just in my head (poking through the holes lol). i've been trying to accept the meaninglessness lately but it's so hard when "everything happens for a reason" is imprinted on my soul.

Yes, in the last five years or so, my brain feels really slow, I also feel this weird numbness in certain part of my head like a really weak headache. A decade ago I could think really fast and learn things extremely fast, these days it's just a mess, I have to concentrate really hard to even move or speak properly.

i can relate to some extent my words always come out all jumbled and i have poor balance... ur case sounds like straight up neurological damage though. sending hugs <33

Literally all of matter is 99.9999999% empty space :)

add an extra 9 and you got my brain ;)
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Yes, and that is one of the reasons I am thinking about ctb. Forgetting things makes it extremely hard to function in everyday life and I also have a big problem with placing memories in the right context, in relation to time. I have a very distorted view of time.
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Right?? was i 4 years old or in 4th grade? high school was like 2 years ago and I have only faded snippets that I try to fill in. feels like im surrounded by fog.

 

[TripleA]

One big empty hole

 

[NightmareTour]

I think people are getting sick of these jokes now, but on account of the fact that a lot of my brain mass on the right side is missing... yeah, kind of.

 

[XYZ]

Yes... I have the same problem. It's caused by brain fog. I used to be able to deal with it, but now it's gotten to a point where I sometimes can't focus on what people are saying to me. I feel so, so bad and it affects my already low self-esteem.

My brain is a block of Swiss cheese that is slowly eaten away by a bunch of rats.

(Man, I love cheese)

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

was i 4 years old or in 4th grade? high school was like 2 years ago and I have only faded snippets that I try to fill in. feels like im surrounded by fog.

I might have chronic brain fog.

 

[XYZ]

Right?? was i 4 years old or in 4th grade?

Yes, you were.... wait, what? What was the question? Sorry... who are you? What are we even talking about?

 

[Rn110bg101]

My memory and brain have more holes than a strainer. I assume it's because of depression, though, I read that having it for a long time gives you brain damage.

 

[Forgotten]

ur case sounds like straight up neurological damage though.

Yeah, probably. My psychiatrist did mention I display certain symptoms of PTSD, so my brain is all sorts of damaged. Another good reason to CTB, since this sort thing is irreversible anyway.

 

[TheSomebody]

when I was a kid I used to be super smart, today I'm an amoeba

 

[_Minsk]

back in the days, stress was present for only a short period, like during hunting or escaping from animals. nowadays its like stress all the time. running all time on overdrive cant be good, stress is toxic and degenerative, cant tell when i was the last time free of it.. but i've noticed memory and mental power return when the stress and depression is low for some time.

 

[Silenos]

I mean look at my forehead. There's a literal hole in there.

 

[deleted]

I feel that some parts of my brain have died and when I die and the coroner opens my head he will discover black parts of my brain

 

[XYZ]

back in the days, stress was present for only a short period, like during hunting or escaping from animals. nowadays its like stress all the time. running all time on overdrive cant be good, stress is toxic and degenerative, cant tell when i was the last time free of it.. but i've noticed memory and mental power return when the stress and depression is low for some time.

I agree with this. Stress is a necessary mechanism that has ensured our species' survival. A stress reaction produces adrenaline, makes the heart pump faster and diverts all energy to our muscles so we can be active and avoid danger. Afterwards, once the danger subsides, the body relaxes and it's all good.

The problem some people have is that their stress - relaxation system is broken due to them being in a constant state of stress. Such constant stress is highly degenerative and its effects can unfortunately be irreversible for the body.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Honestly, I'm not sure if I am capable of producing thoughts anymore. I took a walk yesterday, and unless I was talking to myself, my brain was just static. Feels like it's made out of Swiss cheese. I can't retain anything I read for my classes for longer than a day, and even then- it's slipping by the minute. This problem contributes a LOT to my ctb, because it's really hard to talk to people when you don't have any stories to share bc you can't remember anything that you've been through. Does anyone else have this problem? It would be nice to relate to someone for once lmao

I feel kinda like the same way like I only have 10% of the cognitive function I used to in my teenage years and I can´t even vividly remember most stuff from I was childhood or even from when I was 16-17 years old I can only remember it vaguely and I have felt this way since I was at age 20 one big reason for this I think is because of apathy and anhedonia that started at age 20½ so I can´t feel emotions anymore which is why I think these memories are so vague because there are no emotions to boot up the memory, sure I can remember a lot of memories but there are no feelings connected to it and this is really tragic since I have no life, no friends and dozens of physical and mental problems so memories are all I have but apparently not even that I can get the full experience of.

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Also I forgot to mention my thoughts are just so incredibly boring and just the same over and over I realized this some time ago that back as a teenager I would think about everything i.e. clothes, my looks, girls, hopes, dreams and passions, and thinking about when to hang out with friends or think about what to do in recess with friends in school and whatever fun and exciting things we would do in the weekends or after school and so much more I thought about everything.

Now my only thoughts that pop up like when I go for a walk is like thinking of training zombies in Call of duty black ops 1 on the stage on kino der toten, ctb, or if I should by alcohol today or maybe a couple more mundane things. My thoughts has become so boring and I don´t work, or go to school and have no friends and no hobbies left so there is nothing to think about like the generic question "how was your day" my days are the same over and over nothing new ever happens to me it´s like the movie 'Groundhogs Day' in the aspect I wake up every morning to do the same thing again and again there is literally nothing left for me anymore I have experienced a full life with a paradise of a childhood and exciting teenage years where I did everything I truly lived despite the depression back then so it really feels like I have lived a full life I don´t want a wife and children or a job you know all that crap the majority of people desire as adults so I have lived a full life.

 

[ravergirl]

Honestly, I'm not sure if I am capable of producing thoughts anymore. I took a walk yesterday, and unless I was talking to myself, my brain was just static. Feels like it's made out of Swiss cheese. I can't retain anything I read for my classes for longer than a day, and even then- it's slipping by the minute. This problem contributes a LOT to my ctb, because it's really hard to talk to people when you don't have any stories to share bc you can't remember anything that you've been through. Does anyone else have this problem? It would be nice to relate to someone for once lmao

I literally told someone 2 days ago that my mind is like swiss cheese right now. I'm surprised I can remember my own name half the time.

 

[Gnip]

Brain imaging, particularly SPECT scans, often reveal literally that, holes in the brain or brain function, exactly like Swiss cheese. (My father's currently struggling with dementia, and imaging displayed actual rust in his brain. I got him to discontinue the iron supplements he had been taking, as he had been anemic.)

Our bodies have an innate wisdom which we can often articulate with greater precision than medical doctors can interpret accurately.

Therapeutic counseling needs to die in favor of hard science. If you need to talk to safely get things off your chest, go to Catholic confession (where they can't have you committed or arrested even if you tell them you're about to kill yourself or others, and a priest's service is always free).

 

[WaitingWesting]

This is often how i feel in my soul...i also suffer debilitating migraines. I have a very high tollerence for pain else where except in the head...makes me want to catch that buss.