does anyone else daydream about the way they'd like to die?

[derpsie]

today all I could muster up the energy to do was imagining myself in a hotel room with sn maybe benzos, wired earbuds for playing this one song on loop that makes me cry, a christian orthodox prayer book to recite prayers from as im dying, the clothes id like to be wearing like Italian designer, margiela sneakers, the position id like to die in, maybe slumped over but still sitting in a chair holding a bible by my chest because it would look dope. also id like to bring some cigarettes and smoke inside as im reciting these prayers. idk.

 

[nool]

I do. I'm going to be using the night-night method and I keep imagining the feeling, wondering if I'll even manage. I feel optimistic and a sense of impending relief.

 

[Worndown]

Smoking in a hotel? Risky!!

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes and for me it's a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep, I wish for a death as peaceful and painless as possible with no more suffering, I just want to never exist again but I really wish I could erase this torturous and futile existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[deep-sleeper]

I daydream about bloody and painful ways to die, but not necessarily the way I want to

Bleeding, drowning, beheadings, being run over, burning, falling, and a few others, to the point of almost feeling the pain and jolting me out of the daydream

 

[bloominghopelessne]

I daydream about bloody and painful ways to die, but not necessarily the way I want to

Bleeding, drowning, beheadings, being run over, burning, falling, and a few others, to the point of almost feeling the pain and jolting me out of the daydream

I always imagine myself lying in a pool of blood. For me, it feels like something that would be so clear and final, and at the same time so frightening for those around me.
I have so many scenarios in my head that I can't even count them. In a way, it's almost a pity that I only have one life and yet so many methods to end it! :) Throwing myself out of a window at night after an ordinary day or some gathering, or shooting myself in the head with a gun in my room closer to sunset.

 

[ChocoPie]

For me I ideal way to die would be in a clean room in comfy clothes ( maybe Pyjamas) hugging a big soft plushie or a pillow, the lights would be very dim ( I hate bright lights ), I wouldn't want to care abt anything anymore.

Before this I wanted to die in space like I could just die peacefully somewhere far far away where noone would be able to find me ever.

But I know my death will be much more messy and I would be so overwhelmed at the time.

 

[knickknack81]

In a perfect world, the ideal way to go would be peacefully in yr sleep. That would be the greatest way to go and thats what i would dream of. The reality I have is either getting my hands on a gun (which is very difficult where I live), jumping (which SI can be quite the obstacle from what im told) or hanging (which I would need to do more research on) so I do think about the quite often. I wish it wasn't like this but here we are.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

I feel like the daydreaming is something that makes a lot of sense. Why wouldn't you dream of being free? Why wouldn't you want to fantasize about the moment your suffering ends? Your daydream sounds like a nice peaceful way to go.

If anything were possible, I would like to die under sedation while someone removes my organs so that they could donate them to someone with failing organs. I don't think that'll ever happen tho. A shame. I didn't ever want to live but letting my healthy tissue rot or become unusable just because the person it keeps alive ctbed feels like a waste.

 

[ianista]

Daydreaming about my own death is a reality since years for me. No day is passing that I don't imagine my last days. I believe daydreaming is a strategy of the brain to escape the shitty reality and put myself into something nicer. I realize that I always done that, in one way or another. Don't plan to end that until I end everything.

 

[WhiteSkinRedBlood]

I always daydream of jumping from a building. I'm hesitant to jump but ultimately do it and I shut my eyes tight when I fall and my heart stops in fear and the impact.

Since I was really young, I'd have dreams of having to fall to my death a lot. I'm scared at first but ultimately accept my fate, time feels like it stops and my heart stops, I don't breathe, I hit the ground and wake up. One time I dreamt I jumped from the top of a huge ferry into water and survived and was surprised I was alive because whenever I dream about having to jump, I die and wake up.

Daydreaming about my suicide makes me feel less scared to attempt.