Does anyone buy things to have something to look forward to?

[StillWaiting]

Have this bad habit of buying things that I don't really need them but it doesn't really makes me happy long enough either.

Do anyone can stop buying things even though it doesn't make you feel happy at all?

 

[Hexen]

Nothing these days to be honest. I feel like my nervous system is fried. Sometimes I see some new game I might be interested in but I play through it and I am back where I was. Doesn't help that this was my last year at college and am going home and can't find job. I am not looking forward to that shit.

 

[woxihuanni]

I buy tobacco, drinks, maybe a little food and a variety of poisons. Once all the post arrives, I'll have a variety of four poisons to choose from or combine to my heart's content.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Before I was suicidal, I spent a lot of money on hoarding PC games, movies and books over the years so that when I wasn't a depressed mess I'd have a ton to do. Since I had become suicidal, I realized that all of that money was wasted.

 

[H2H2]

Constantly trying to feel something buying things I found joy in in the past. I buy them, not even open the box, and then I try to sell them online. Most of the time I give up because I get ridiculous offers. They dont have a personal interest in what Im selling, they look like resellers who need to take into consideration their own margin. Other times I think they are people who are browsing listings for the dopamine of scoring bargains.

 

[StillWaiting]

Nothing these days to be honest. I feel like my nervous system is fried. Sometimes I see some new game I might be interested in but I play through it and I am back where I was. Doesn't help that this was my last year at college and am going home and can't find job. I am not looking forward to that shit.

Same here. I am not looking forward to graduation either. It is scary to even think about it.

 

[c824767]

I buy things for my ctb

 

[JulienSorel]

My closet is an artistic endeavor.

Or that's what I tell myself as I horde more clothes.

 

[pole]

I spend A TON of money on clothes and shoes, even ones i know im probably not gonna wear. i just get this lime euphoric feeling, like temporary happiness in spoiling myself for just that one second.

perhaps its just the feeling of wanting something, and in clothes and shoes, feeling this happiness because i want something and can have this somthing that i want just like that. me not being able to retrieve happiness in other ways, although i really really want to be happy and such, is probably why i spend money on things i want, just cause i can have it.

 

[Alchemist]

Yeah, I keep buying games, just to have an excuse to keep going.

 

[k75]

I am constantly buying things lately. Stupid things, useful things, just... things. I always think it'll make me feel better, but it never does. I like the anticipation of the packages arriving, but once they're here, I can barely be bothered to open them.

Right now I'm on this bizarre home improvement kick. It makes no sense, because I'm pretty sure I won't be living much longer. But I keep buying new new things for the house, upgrading lighting, rugs, etc. I keep fairly current on things I collect, and even though I'm not ever going to touch them, books, movies, and video games. All these things that have no purpose since I'm just waiting to ctb.

I guess I keep hoping I'll wake up and suddenly not be suicidal anymore or something. It's not exactly hope, just... I have no clue. My fucked up brain misfiring. Habit, maybe? Whatever, I can't seem to stop. All I really know is my best friend is going to inherit a lot of cool things.

 

[woxihuanni]

Let alone buy anything, I feel guilty when my friends talk about buying tickets to come to me. Actually one of them knows they may not be in time.

 

[k75]

Let alone buy anything, I feel guilty when my friends talk about buying tickets to come to me. Actually one of them knows they may not be in time.

I have a similar problem. A few old friends have announced they want to buy me tickets to visit them in the future. And my parents beg me to travel to them. I play along, but the reality is that according to my current plan, I'll be long gone by the time they want to do this. I feel so deceitful and awful. So much guilt.

 

[woxihuanni]

I have a similar problem. A few old friends have announced they want to buy me tickets to visit them in the future. And my parents beg me to travel to them. I play along, but the reality is that according to my current plan, I'll be long gone by the time they want to do this. I feel so deceitful and awful. So much guilt.

If only we did not have to hide our plans...

 

[clownangel]

The past few months I've been buying and returning things realizing I don't need them/I wasn't happy. Wether it's some shoes or most recently a "fancy" computer.

Main thing I can buy and actually keep is food and art supplies - past that I can't even justify treating myself for more than $5 anymore but I do go nuts on silly impulse purchases like a new snack or something.

 

[peacefully31425]

Yes. There is a high associated with buying new things. I've wasted a lot of fun a lot of money on electronics that I never use because it gives me a hit of dopamine.

 

[Rachel74]

When I'm in mania I spend money on designer bags and heels I'll never wear!
I have asked to be buried in them though!

 

[stellabelle]

Have this bad habit of buying things that I don't really need them but it doesn't really makes me happy long enough either.

Do anyone can stop buying things even though it doesn't make you feel happy at all?

Retail therapy my friend. I understand. That's why I'm trying to stick to things that I know I need or will use instead of little luxuries. It all adds up so fast.