Discussion Do you work?

[Endstati0n]

This probably gets asked alot anyways:

1. What do you do to earn money?
2. How is your job affecting your wish to CTB, does it help or make it worse?

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(Vent, kinda tl.dr: i work as a security dude kind of. I would say it helps me alot, but still very depressed)
I"ve worked alot of jobs, probably 20 at this point and i'm only 29. I could only last for like a month before i had to quit and try a new job. It got to the point i attempted to ctb because i was so burned out from switching like 10 jobs in a year. I worked at 2 diffetent KFC's, Clothing Store, Bakery, Gardening, Warehouse, 2 different jobs at the airport, Dhl, Hermes, Car Factory, and more.

After my attempt i tried to not just find any job but something where i think i could last more than a month. Mostly people are my Problem. So i did my deiving license and started working at UPS as a driver. It was good. I was alone most of the time in my car delivering packages. Sure i had to talk a bit with the people i delivered the packages too but it was quick and not as stressfull as i thought. For the first time i took olanzapine too on that job for the whole yesr which helpded alot too. The job was still not easy physically so i was looking for an easier one where i could also be on my own most of the time. So i Switches to security work which Is what i do now for more than a year now. I earn good Money and i dont have to talk to anyone and i am completly on my own. Driving around in my car and closing doors n stuff. Really chill. It also helps me mentally because i dont have alot of time thinking about bad stuff. Its still depressing tho cus i work only on nightshifts and everyday its the same. I will work the Rest of the year because i have a big Trip planned in December and after that i plan to ctb. I thought if Im able to work i will be a normal human and would want to live. Im still suicidal. Still depressed. Still nothing feels good

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes. Customer service job. It is well good job but I really wanna quit. But im im no position to do so as if now.

 

[jw_sisyphus97]

Grad student + part-time clerical work to pay the bills. Keeps me busy and my thoughts elsewhere. No idea what I'll do once I graduate...

 

[hurts2b]

I'm a dropout, I have a bit of student loan money left. After that runs out I'm more or less fucked. I don't work. I hate how much of a useless person I am.

 

[crossingtheriver]

I work as a data analyst, I actually wanted to switch jobs this year, but I wanted to prioritize CTB now. I've been wanting to CTB since I'm like 14, now I'm 33 lol. I decided this is it.

(BTW, I am new to this SaSu nice to meet y'all)

 

[LastLightFade...]

I don't work. It sometimes feels good to not work, but I am still very depressed because of judgment from others when I'm just trying to find a meaning in life. I graduated high school over a year ago. The years have been going by quite fast, and every day feels the same and meaningless. I often feel burnout due to a lack of a job. I don't even want a job to feel fulfillment, but I believe the money I will receive will help me feel some sort of level of fulfillment.

 

[Forveleth]

1. I work in science . Do not really want to say more than that.
2. This has absolutely nothing to do with me being suicidal other than the fact I might be able to steal a good chemical or two, but I already have a rope, so it does not matter.

 

[calebzz1]

Hey, I saw this post briefly but decided to fully read the thread today.

I have been an involuntary NEET since May 2024.

My mental health is perfect but the physical part is the reason why I can't work.

https://i.postimg.cc/h461dkyP/Disability-letter-edited-from-second-neuro-ophthalmologist.png (Disability letter)

I'm pretty much stuck with this until further notice, no treatment has really improved anything.

I'll feel better once I get disability benefits but personally I feel awful not being able to work.

I would like to do customer service again but my personality isn't the greatest.

I'm cynical and world weary at only 25.

I make a little bit of money by doing surveys, entering sweepstakes and giveaways though.

I rely on my mom's SSDI check which I hate doing but have worked hard to make sure she was able to get the electric bill situation taken care of and secure EBT benefits.

I don't see how individuals who are NEETs and hikikomoris stay in their lifestyle for so long honestly.

I have to keep in mind that a lot of them don't experience visual impairment on the level I do and they most likely can find enjoyment in playing video games, watching television, movies and reading books.

 

[suncide10]

I work on furniture production factory, basically I do whatever I'm told but can also be a gluer if they ask me.
I think my job makes me feel a little better because I can keep my mind busy for some time and not think about my life and also being around people feels nice even though I still feel lonely

 

[darksouls]

(BTW, I am new to this SaSu nice to meet y'all)

you are welcome

 

[prmsenottotellshh]

Yes, I work in healthcare. Work stress is a major reason I even began thinking about ctb. My mental health has continually spiraled more and more into depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. Physically, I have to go home early sometimes or call out due to my neuro and autoimmune disorders.

My current job is what I wanted to do since I was 12. I loved studying my specific field during by bachelor's program. When I hit my master's program it was hard and depressing as hell but I thought, hey once I finally get out of school and start working I'll be happier. Turns out I hate my job. I have been in the field 7 years to the day tomorrow. I have moved multiple times so have been in 9 work places but doing the same work. When I first started working I realized how much disrespect my field has in the real world. My patients are rude, demeaning, and think my specific role is useless. Sometimes I overhear them and their families talking about me when I leave the room-not necessarily my personality but quite literally about my role (though plenty complain about me specifically as well...which is all I can seem to hear and remember-not the ones that love having me as their assigned therapist). My co workers at my current work place are the worst I have ever met. They too make sure to send the message that my field is worthless and say things to me as if they think I'm an idiot; they look down upon me.

As the years have gone by my disdain for what I do gets worse. I used to cry on my drive home from work daily for my first and current job. Over the past year I can rarely find the energy to cry. I feel anxious at work and empty when I leave. The days feel monotonous despite the craziness of my patients and coworkers, and the business of the day doesn't make it go by faster. I worked so hard for 6 years and I know so much about my field but man the emotional toll makes me want to ctb.

 

[Endstati0n]

Yes, I work in healthcare. Work stress is a major reason I even began thinking about ctb. My mental health has continually spiraled more and more into depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. Physically, I have to go home early sometimes or call out due to my neuro and autoimmune disorders.

My current job is what I wanted to do since I was 12. I loved studying my specific field during by bachelor's program. When I hit my master's program it was hard and depressing as hell but I thought, hey once I finally get out of school and start working I'll be happier. Turns out I hate my job. I have been in the field 7 years to the day tomorrow. I have moved multiple times so have been in 9 work places but doing the same work. When I first started working I realized how much disrespect my field has in the real world. My patients are rude, demeaning, and think my specific role is useless. Sometimes I overhear them and their families talking about me when I leave the room-not necessarily my personality but quite literally about my role (though plenty complain about me specifically as well...which is all I can seem to hear and remember-not the ones that love having me as their assigned therapist). My co workers at my current work place are the worst I have ever met. They too make sure to send the message that my field is worthless and say things to me as if they think I'm an idiot; they look down upon me.

As the years have gone by my disdain for what I do gets worse. I used to cry on my drive home from work daily for my first and current job. Over the past year I can rarely find the energy to cry. I feel anxious at work and empty when I leave. The days feel monotonous despite the craziness of my patients and coworkers, and the business of the day doesn't make it go by faster. I worked so hard for 6 years and I know so much about my field but man the emotional toll makes me want to ctb.

You need to quit your job asap.. you can do Things that you love on your free time. Look for an easy job where you can almost relax, you just go there for money. I know you put alot of time into that field and stuff but your not alone. That happens to alot of people. It just is what it is. Look for a different job. And maybe you have to try out 20 or more like i had to. But where I am at right now feels like a holiday and i get paid alot. You can't keep going like this

 

[LovesickLoser]

This probably gets asked alot anyways:

1. What do you do to earn money?
2. How is your job affecting your wish to CTB, does it help or make it worse?

.
.
.
.
.
(Vent, kinda tl.dr: i work as a security dude kind of. I would say it helps me alot, but still very depressed)
I"ve worked alot of jobs, probably 20 at this point and i'm only 29. I could only last for like a month before i had to quit and try a new job. It got to the point i attempted to ctb because i was so burned out from switching like 10 jobs in a year. I worked at 2 diffetent KFC's, Clothing Store, Bakery, Gardening, Warehouse, 2 different jobs at the airport, Dhl, Hermes, Car Factory, and more.

After my attempt i tried to not just find any job but something where i think i could last more than a month. Mostly people are my Problem. So i did my deiving license and started working at UPS as a driver. It was good. I was alone most of the time in my car delivering packages. Sure i had to talk a bit with the people i delivered the packages too but it was quick and not as stressfull as i thought. For the first time i took olanzapine too on that job for the whole yesr which helpded alot too. The job was still not easy physically so i was looking for an easier one where i could also be on my own most of the time. So i Switches to security work which Is what i do now for more than a year now. I earn good Money and i dont have to talk to anyone and i am completly on my own. Driving around in my car and closing doors n stuff. Really chill. It also helps me mentally because i dont have alot of time thinking about bad stuff. Its still depressing tho cus i work only on nightshifts and everyday its the same. I will work the Rest of the year because i have a big Trip planned in December and after that i plan to ctb. I thought if Im able to work i will be a normal human and would want to live. Im still suicidal. Still depressed. Still nothing feels good

I've been working as a grocery clerk since I was in high school because during the pandemic I gave up on my plans to go to college and trying to start a future. I have to say that with all of the bad things that have happened in my life since I've started working at this store, every single shift is really taxing on my mental health. I'm too scared to try finding a different job though, because they're lenient with my schedule, and everyone I know IRL is having trouble finding work because most places only hire foreign workers unfortunately. In the city I grew up in it's very very rare to see someone who's not a foreign-born worker actually working any sort of unskilled job.

 

[prmsenottotellshh]

You need to quit your job asap.. you can do Things that you love on your free time. Look for an easy job where you can almost relax, you just go there for money. I know you put alot of time into that field and stuff but your not alone. That happens to alot of people. It just is what it is. Look for a different job. And maybe you have to try out 20 or more like i had to. But where I am at right now feels like a holiday and i get paid alot. You can't keep going like this

You need to quit your job asap.. you can do Things that you love on your free time. Look for an easy job where you can almost relax, you just go there for money. I know you put alot of time into that field and stuff but your not alone. That happens to alot of people. It just is what it is. Look for a different job. And maybe you have to try out 20 or more like i had to. But where I am at right now feels like a holiday and i get paid alot. You can't keep going like this

I've been looking to pivot into a career where I can continue to make good money and receive good benefits. I'm a chickenshit at the end of the day. I like the pay and I don't want to disappoint my parents by not using my degree-my dad gave me his GI bill to help me stay out of college debt when he could have used it toward his and my moms' degrees. Maybe one day I'll get to work per diem or start a private practice with a friend or two.

 

[LastNite]

1. I work in science . Do not really want to say more than that.
2. This has absolutely nothing to do with me being suicidal other than the fact I might be able to steal a good chemical or two, but I already have a rope, so it does not matter.

Science is so cool. Youre so smart. It's my favorite subject ever since I was like 6. We used to watch bill nye the science guy. It was so fun to learn.

 

[boilingfishcakes]

I used to have a very demanding but high paying job, the pressure and constant bullying was slowly destroying me. Of course, I was laid off a year ago and my mental health has been too bad to bother to seek another job. It's hard to give a shit about working or contributing to a society and culture that always kicks you whether you have fallen down or when you try to get back up. Only reason why I'm not back on the streets is because I married into a well off family so I don't have to work to survive.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/41m-totally-exhausted-this-job-market-is-trash-meritocracy-is-a-fantasy-this-country-is-a-joke.247463/

Might be relevant here


I myself... well lets just say im not broke, i have skills, and i produce value. But i dont make money

I dont wanna do this. I just came to post the link

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Not really, unless you count a volunteer position as work. I'm a full time student, and even if the job market wasn't so fucked in my area, I don't think I'd have the energy to work with my other responsibilities. I'm lucky in that my parents let me live rent free so long as I'm going to school.

 

[iguazo falls]

1. pretty busy clerical role, i can't really say much else. its objectively not that bad except the pay/benefits i just think working is shit unless u luck out and dont have to talk to people or have non snake people around you which is rare and never happened to me before. but hey i have a job in this shit ass economy that wants everyone to ctb anyway young or old
2. im kinda stuck with either debt or below minimum wage pay for 12 months and no guarantee of a job afterward so yes i feel like ctb, and yes people are the worst part of any job, i don't trust anyone. ive despised all the jobs ive had before this, and i pretty much refuse to take pride in "toughing it out" or being treated like shit no matter what i do to survive cause i hate people who put others down on that basis.

 

[adamantc]

This probably gets asked alot anyways:

1. What do you do to earn money?
2. How is your job affecting your wish to CTB, does it help or make it worse?

.
.
.
.
.
(Vent, kinda tl.dr: i work as a security dude kind of. I would say it helps me alot, but still very depressed)
I"ve worked alot of jobs, probably 20 at this point and i'm only 29. I could only last for like a month before i had to quit and try a new job. It got to the point i attempted to ctb because i was so burned out from switching like 10 jobs in a year. I worked at 2 diffetent KFC's, Clothing Store, Bakery, Gardening, Warehouse, 2 different jobs at the airport, Dhl, Hermes, Car Factory, and more.

After my attempt i tried to not just find any job but something where i think i could last more than a month. Mostly people are my Problem. So i did my deiving license and started working at UPS as a driver. It was good. I was alone most of the time in my car delivering packages. Sure i had to talk a bit with the people i delivered the packages too but it was quick and not as stressfull as i thought. For the first time i took olanzapine too on that job for the whole yesr which helpded alot too. The job was still not easy physically so i was looking for an easier one where i could also be on my own most of the time. So i Switches to security work which Is what i do now for more than a year now. I earn good Money and i dont have to talk to anyone and i am completly on my own. Driving around in my car and closing doors n stuff. Really chill. It also helps me mentally because i dont have alot of time thinking about bad stuff. Its still depressing tho cus i work only on nightshifts and everyday its the same. I will work the Rest of the year because i have a big Trip planned in December and after that i plan to ctb. I thought if Im able to work i will be a normal human and would want to live. Im still suicidal. Still depressed. Still nothing feels good

I work as a medical worker. My work helps my eventual CTB (drug obtainment).

 

[Endstati0n]

I work as a medical worker. My work helps my eventual CTB (drug obtainment).

What drugs you recommend?