Do you think you'll still be alive by the end of 2019 ?

[Plankter]

If so, where do you see yourself on 31st december 2019 ?

 

[15dec]

Planning for sometime in February. If I am still here by the end of 2019 I'll probably spend New Year's Eve the same as I'm spending it now, browsing SS and playing video games

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I definitely won't be here by next year. Plan to be gone by end of Feb.

 

[Cold]

I think I will still be here. Same as every year; sad, tired, lonely and wishing I was dead.

 

[Nanako]

Jesus talk about absolute worst case scenario.

 

[therhydler]

No WAY

 

[Plankter]

I think I will still be here. Same as every year; sad, tired, lonely and wishing I was dead.

I'll probably be exactly like that too

 

[NumbItAll]

Realistically most of us will probably still be alive whether we want to or not.

 

[AlePizarnik]

I think I will still be here. Same as every year; sad, tired, lonely and wishing I was dead.

Same here man :(

 

[Xerxes]

I dunno, I have an inkling of hope that it'll get better, but the better half of me says, "Are you fucking kidding Xerxes?"

 

[Mr2005]

Possibly we'll see. This year is make or break for me

 

[deflagrat]

I was going to ctb in 2019 but I got approved for disability, and now I expect my benefits to last the rest of my life, which means that I lost my reason for ctb (money issues). They are giving me 380,10 € / month, which is more than enough to survive.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Sadly I think I will still be here, unless some divine miracle takes me from this earth. I would much rather go in a random accident, with the caveat that it's quick and relatively painless. Ctb is very hard when push comes to shove, and I can't stand the idea that it's my fault I'm dead with regards to my loved ones.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

this would be a nightmare

 

[wanttodie]

won't be here by won't be end of 2019 i hope

 

[Buddyluv19]

No

 

[Aesthler]

Chances are I'll still be alive, unless I completely lose my shit, or some accident or unforeseen health problem kills me.
I don't know where I'll be exactly, hopefully in a better place.

 

[TAW122]

Unfortunately, I think I will still be around in 2019, unless of course some major shitty life event hits me so hard that I have the courage to finally ctb. I'm currently on standby as I've mentioned over a few weeks ago, so this means I'm ready to go and all it takes is a big push then bam, it's done. Some of these shitty life events could be going homeless, finding myself into a lot of trouble if shitty circumstances out of my control occur, or some strong shitty life event such as a major disappointment or something.

Before anyone assumes that I'm going impulsively, I'm not. I've long ago decided that I will ctb and I have my reasons (most of which are rational and well-thought out) for it. The idea of the catalyst means that I'm ready but willing to just see how things goes and when it becomes too much, I'll just check out on a whim.

 

[existenceissuffering]

Now that I have a method, no. I just have to wait for everything to arrive.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

I hope not

 

[RainAndSadness]

No

 

[stellabelle]

If so, where do you see yourself on 31st december 2019 ?

I sort of doubt it, whether it's an accident or my own choice.

 

[Morbid Cam]

I said yes,but I really hope I wont be

 

[Stillnotsure]

I was going to ctb in 2019 but I got approved for disability, and now I expect my benefits to last the rest of my life, which means that I lost my reason for ctb (money issues). They are giving me 380,10 € / month, which is more than enough to survive.

Good for you! Congratulations! I know the road to this is long and uncertain. It's probably the only thing that can save me now. Have a hearing in front of a judge to plead my case in 17 months.... if I make it that long.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I hope I'm not here … seeing that I haven't had the courage yet … who knows. :(

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I think I will still be here. Same as every year; sad, tired, lonely and wishing I was dead.

If afraid I will still be here as well … wishing I had ctb. :(

 

[littlelady774]

God.. I hope not..
I either want to do CO, Butanediol, N2
Or if all else fails.. SN

 

[Xaphous]

Might be, might not be. It's a chore being in a body and having to 'live', especially so when everywhere outside there is endless huge ego aggressive fucktards everywhere.

 

[Lunaemoth]

No way. I'm gone in a few days, but if I somehow fail, I'll VSED... Even if I'm hospitalized, giveupitis is a real thing... I'll never stop trying to kill myself.

 

[Karl]

I die in February at the most