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Leave out all the rest. We all at SaSu care for you
you aren't alone. Trust me, when I feel alone I turn to SaSu and immediately find an entire site full of loving like-minded humans who are ready to listen to you to help you to guide you, for no benefits in return. Makes sense. Do what you feel like. Others don't matter
In my case, there have been tons of people (apart from my family) who have been trying to convince me to live but I know most of them will not care.. except my immediate family
i really like this forum because people actually are friendly and helpful to others, i like being able to talk about my feelings here since no one that knows me in real life caresLeave out all the rest. We all at SaSu care for you
I sometimes wonder, if we ppl are good humans and the rest of the ppl who don't feel this pain are inhuman
Makes sense. Do what you feel like. Others don't matter
In my case, there have been tons of people (apart from my family) who have been trying to convince me to live but I know most of them will not care.. except my immediate family
So true!! Interestingly, you know what feeling suicidal brings me to this forum but the love and care that I get here, somehow it stops making me feel suicidal. Ironic
I find people like that so strong, like, people who don't care what others think, Because that's a really hard thing for me to do, i really wish i was able to not care but im just nervous all the time
Not always. At this point I'm getting a lot of love from my family. But it isn't stopping me from feeling suicidal. I do feel selfish about thinking to ctb, but idk I'm in a dilemma
Love isn't always enough, you can have love and still feel incomplete, empty, tired and sad. Love is certainly a wonderful thing, but it isn't always a cure for a unbearable, exhausting pain
I guess I've never really cared about (not violent or rude etc) others so hopefully that strength gets me over the line.
Yes, highly relatable.
Such parents like the ones we have, they have themselves struggled in their life but tried to give us a happy life. Until we were under their umbrella, life was somewhat good. But as we grew up and faced the jungle that this world is, it gave us a culture shock. Our parents know that they can't protect us , they just anticipate the best they can. This is what I feel when I look at my past. They have been victim of circumstances too
but they'll forget I even existed after like a month. The only saving grace about my suicide is that it's a very easy decision for me to make, I have literally no one to live for. Except maybe my dog but honestly it's just not worth living for her if the people around me are just so toxic. Good fucking riddance planet earth.
this whole thing with feeling selfish by wanting to commit suicide is such a complicated thing, There are so many perspectives about it, So many things that contradict each other in different ways, it's like arguing endlessly with yourself in your head.
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Very well said.. it's always like the tug of war in the head
It's true that sometimes I feel the life pressures they face are much heavier than mine, so I can understand why they can't fully understand how I feel. but at the same time it feels contradictory, because they care about whether I live or die mainly because they don't want to lose their child, not because they care about whether my pain has reached a breaking point
Ty :) that's how we all can relate with each other's pain
Until you are on planet Earth, we at SaSu careThey won't. Nobody in my life actually gives a shit about me. They never ask me questions about myself, about what music that I listen to, or what tv shows and movies I like watching, or the video games I like to play, or my opinions on literally anything. Like literally no one ever talks to me about anything, nobody wants to hear what I have to say about anything. It's like I don't even exist. Yeah sure they may be shocked after I ctb "oh he had so much to live for, we should've seen the warning signs uwu"
you aren't alone.. you've all the support you need on this siteThis is so relatable you know.. i couldn't agree more.. ever since my parents know that I'm suicidal, they monitor my actions constantly as they know what I'm capable of. So they check all my parcels and surprise check my room. Last month, i was living away from them, they'd call twice a day to check.. i had a panic attack recently, and my father took a flight (and travelled 2000kms) just to bring me home.
It's almost always like that. no one ever cares about you while you're alive, but when they find your lifeless body or a message about your death, they care temporarily and then they quickly forget. So they wonder what could have driven you to this, yet they never even asked how you were doing, never talked to you out of genuine caring, or showed any signs that they cared.They won't. Nobody in my life actually gives a shit about me. They never ask me questions about myself, about what music that I listen to, or what tv shows and movies I like watching, or the video games I like to play, or my opinions on literally anything. Like literally no one ever talks to me about anything, nobody wants to hear what I have to say about anything. It's like I don't even exist. Yeah sure they may be shocked after I ctb "oh he had so much to live for, we should've seen the warning signs uwu"
Hell yeah.. The same ppl will express how they could have helped if we approached them on time while we were still alive.. Interestingly. I have two personalities of mine. One where I'm confident and charismatic. Other where I'm broken and suicidal. When I'm confident and charismatic, i attract a lot of ppl in to my life. The moment i go into my second personality, most of them vanish
that's the reality of ppl
I hope one day your family will truly empathize with you, stop constantly monitoring your state, and give you space. I can understand how these things create a conflicting feeling, because they really have done a lot to make sure they don't lose you, but I hope they'll one day truly understand what you're going through
So sweet of you for those kind wordsI hope one day your family will truly empathize with you, stop constantly monitoring your state, and give you space. I can understand how these things create a conflicting feeling, because they really have done a lot to make sure they don't lose you, but I hope they'll one day truly understand what you're going through
means a lot. It reminded me of something..i asked them why did you all bring me on earth when you know what this world is like.. Why!!! They had no answer to it.
i can relate a lot… it's so accurate, unfortunately it's just the reality
i feel you, sometimes I feel that people of our parents' generation subconsciously have an extreme optimism about life, so they might unintentionally overlook certain realities. I've asked about it before, but never really got an answerSo sweet of you for those kind words
Yeah
plus the generation gap is also there . They grew up in different environment and ours was very fast paced competitive environment
