Do you tell anyone how you feel?

[Hope:-)]

Or do you keep it to yourself? I don't mean about ctb...most of us keep that to ourselves, but just that you're feeling bad? I tell my sister about how bad I feel..never that I am going to ctb, but simply that I always feel very bad, but I'm thinking of keeping it all to myself from now on. Do you keep it to yourself?

 

[TheLastK]

As of the past few years yes, telling people how I feel has never ended well. Most people Don't actually care in my experience, its just trendy right now to feign interest in mental health and its been trendy for quite a while todo the same with long term illness. I really wish it wasn't like this, but it is, and its a large reason why I joined the site, to meet people who I could vent to.

 

[Un-]

I don't have anyone to tell it to.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Everyone knows that something is wrong with me, I'm not the person that I used to be

 

[jermainet]

If there was someone who could understand I would.

But there isn't, and to be honest at this point it's advanced to a point where there couldn't possibly ever be, so I don't.

 

[Hope:-)]

Yeah, I'm gonna start keeping it to myself from now on. It can't changed what's happened anyway, but I definitely need to ctb soon. Just gotta get the stuff. I can't go on like this.

 

[TheLastK]

Yeah, I'm gonna start keeping it to myself from now on. It can't changed what's happened anyway, but I definitely need to ctb soon. Just gotta get the stuff. I can't go on like this.

It is such a shame that we can't really talk about desire to ctb irl. People should be able, especially considering how common it is. I'm sorry to hear you feel the way you do, and I hope everything works out for you to keep goingon without ctb, or at the very least to be at peace.

 

[Hope:-)]

^^^ That's very sweet. Thanks.x

 

[outrider567]

I tell my step mother in NYC and my cousin Pam in Seattle, about my omnipresent dark depression following Patti's death on a regular basis, and they are still quite understanding about it--I low key it to my cancer-stricken brother

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I lost my mind about a year ago and was telling everybody what had happened to me including strangers… But I knew it would get old rather quickly so Now I don't discuss it with anybody And I don't really interact with too many people… People who see me are probably a little weirded out - I haven't shaved in a couple months and I'm starting to look like a homeless person… Younger people are definitely weirded out… At the supermarket I think people think I'm some kind of tech guru… Nobody can save me at this point anyway…

 

[FuneralCry]

I would never tell anyone. It's always better that I keep my true feelings towards life to myself. Saying too much would only ever make things worse. Talking doesn't achieve anything or take away suffering. The only way to be free from suffering is to die.

 

[JealousOfTheElderly]

Yes I have / did / do told / tell my family. I even said I want to ctb.
They did not take it seriously and said I need to get over it and be happy with the fabulous life I have. Or, they ignore it, stonewall me and pretend I didn't say anything so the problem will go away.

*shrug*

 

[Unworthyoflove]

yes I did and still do sometimes. But it always made me feel bad about it afterwards. Also it really disturbs normal peoples peace and happyness if they have to listen to a depressed person. So then after sharing I despise myself even more. It can help though to talk to other depressed people like here, because they are empathic about the topic and you cant make someone sad who is sad already by own means ;) just today I was asked to share how I feel. And yes I had to lie, because everyone would have been very uncomfortable if I would have shared my true thoughts. This concludes actually that every time we are asked how we feel, it should be said like this : how do you feel ? ( but please only tell if you feel mainly good) or : how do you feel ? ( but please dont say anything negative). anyway ctb thoughts will not be taken serious . one, because of the rumor that people who are REALLY suicidal do not talk about it and second because nobody wants to have anything to do with that , so ignorance will be the result.

 

[Regrets]

I wish I had someone to talk to who would understand me, but I know that if I try to vent to someone I would get sent to psych ward or something, so I would rather keep it all to myself.

 

[Jrmull1993]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...uly-2022-on-exit-international-website.96477/

 

[starryeyedgemini]

I personally dont tell many people. I have opened up to 2 friends who have been in similar positions themselves so at least i knew i wouldnt be judged. However family and other friends no way. I just tell them im fine because i dont have the mental energy for a conversation that will go nowhere. My family wouldnt take it seriously until it was too late despite my past struggles.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Talking to people on SaSu is just fine with me. I don't have anyone irl to tell anyway, not even to discuss how I feel, let alone that I want to ctb. Even if I did have someone to tell, I would not. Not worth the risk.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

I keep it vague or else I get the pro life treatment thrown at me.

"You have so much to live for!"
"People have it so much worse than you!"
"You have a good life!"
"Just be happy! You have parents that adore smother you!"

All that nonsense that I don't feel like hearing for the umpteenth time.

There is no one out there that can understand me other than this place. And even here, you have to tread lightly due to LE/pro-lifers taking up OUR space. I think they need "help" more than anything if they can't worry about their own lives. No one likes a bunch of creepy stalkers.

People like to make you think there is hope by recommending you to talk to a health professional, but that's a trap in itself. You can't fully open up to them without risking yourself being thrown into the psych ward. Which also isn't cheap - it's just a way to exploit you to take your money really.

Sorry, for the vent - but that's why I am hesitant of letting anyone know anything:,)

 

[popcorn1234]

I don't really tell anyone how I feel. I kind of just keep it to myself. I've only told a couple of strangers how I felt through an app called 7 Cups of Tea, but it wasn't very helpful.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I used to tell people, but they tried to intervene. Now I keep it to myself. My behavior and mood have changed drastically over the past month, though, so I don't think anyone would be surprised.

 

[Theanswer]

Yes, I've told people how I feel. Not about suicide. Burt for over 20 years, I've expressed my sadness. Thing is those leading 30 years no one gave a shit except to say, I'm sorry you're feeling that way, you'll be fine, you're going to be okay. I'm here...puke, etc. Even with the fucking brain tumor. Imo, people can't handle someone sharing what's going on nor can they handle really feeling anything themselves. Not just suicide but all other kinds of pain that all humans feel.

Have you told people how you feel?