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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
248
I'm planning to have my last moments recorded, in case anyone who cares about me wishes to see, also to hopefully give more resources to other people wishing to go the FSH route, to show that it IS easy and a good way to go..

This makes me think if I should get pretty for it, do my makeup, put on a nice outfit, it'll be the last my beloved sees of me, should I have his memory of me be in a pretty outfit?

I'm honestly not sure, on one hand, being discheveled and messy shows desperation and patheticness, which is sort of romantic, on the other hand dressing up pretty and looking nice is also romantic, I'd be found in my best outfit..

What do you all think?
 
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Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined my whole life
Jul 17, 2026
125
Thats what i wanna do but btw there have been people on here that have a job that makes them see what people that do FSH look like after and they said its horrifying like tounge swollen and out , eyes bulging out etc

I was thinking of doing FSH since i dont think you suffer as much but i would do it if i cant get SN
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
248
Thats what i wanna do but btw there have been people on here that have a job that makes them see what people that do FSH look like after and they said its horrifying like tounge swollen and out , eyes bulging out etc

I was thinking of doing FSH since i dont think you suffer as much but i would do it if i cant get SN
Haha yeah after being found you do look horrifying, I've watched countless videos of the process and you don't look as horrible during it, since I'm planning to have the video taken of During my death rather than after a few hours I should be able to still look presentable
 
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canidiealreadyy

canidiealreadyy

coolest ever
Feb 12, 2024
29
I'm planning to have my last moments recorded, in case anyone who cares about me wishes to see, also to hopefully give more resources to other people wishing to go the FSH route, to show that it IS easy and a good way to go..

This makes me think if I should get pretty for it, do my makeup, put on a nice outfit, it'll be the last my beloved sees of me, should I have his memory of me be in a pretty outfit?

I'm honestly not sure, on one hand, being discheveled and messy shows desperation and patheticness, which is sort of romantic, on the other hand dressing up pretty and looking nice is also romantic, I'd be found in my best outfit..

What do you all think?
absolutely, i also plan on doing nice make up and putting on a cute outfit! i'm not sure exactly if i want to record myself because i'm kind of worried whose hands the video could possibly end up in. but i'm definitely going to do "video suicide notes" before i do it. i really don't want them to autopsy me so i'm going to try to explain the best i can what i'm doing.
 
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Sord17

Member
Oct 1, 2025
30
I definitely would if I could but I'm generally pretty unhappy with the way I look, even though I logically know I'm far from ugly. If I had a say in it I'd never be discovered anyway
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
248
absolutely, i also plan on doing nice make up and putting on a cute outfit! i'm not sure exactly if i want to record myself because i'm kind of worried whose hands the video could possibly end up in. but i'm definitely going to do "video suicide notes" before i do it. i really don't want them to autopsy me so i'm going to try to explain the best i can what i'm doing.
I'm gonna record it for my beloved in case he ever asks to see or wishes to see, besides, I weirdly hope to be remembered, and I suppose my ctb day being pretty and aesthetic would make me remembered.. Sorry if that's weird to say! I just like romanticizing my end
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,695
Nah. I will just go however I am dressed that day.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
248
I definitely would if I could but I'm generally pretty unhappy with the way I look, even though I logically know I'm far from ugly. If I had a say in it I'd never be discovered anyway
I say you don't look in a mirror and make yourself pretty the way you don't have the confidence to be, in your last moments your true self comes out, and whether made up or not I think there's beauty in that 💜
Nah. I will just go however I am dressed that day.
Hehe fair enough! I guess I just am a bit too dramatic, I see my life like a movie, at least this life, it is nice to think about my end and trying to make it be as meaningful and impactful as possible
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Experienced
Apr 17, 2023
279
Oh absolutely. Im also going with fsh i dont give a fuck about how horrifying im gonna look after the fact what matters is that i go out not feeling insecure of my looks its gonna be my day ill wear my favourite clothes have clean hair and fuck yeah a bunch of makeup cause i wanna feel as good as i can for my ending plus i find makeup relaxing
 
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http://crystal

http://crystal

Dark Magician Girl
Mar 11, 2026
4
honestly, it's nice to see someone who also wants to dress up to ctb... i want to do that myself. especially given how little control we might be given in the grand scheme of things
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
60
I want to braid my hair nice (if it feels comfortable). I haven't braided my hair in forever since it's not long enough yet… but by the time I CTB it'll be long enough.

I'm going to wear comfortable clothes and I know for a fact that first responders strip you naked because they need to take pics because it becomes a homicide investigation (all suicides are homicide investigations initially even if it's obvious). So I want to wear clothes that is easy for them to take off and put back on.

So probably I'll probably just wear some light sweat pants, a t-shirt I like. And a zip up sweater. I'm choosing a zip up sweater because I don't actually know if I'll become really hot or not (SN CTB).

I never wear makeup. But I'll probably shower and be all clean.

I'm also doing colonoscopy prep before I CTB so that I won't make a mess. And I probably will wear an adult diaper in case there is pee.
I'm gonna record it for my beloved in case he ever asks to see or wishes to see, besides, I weirdly hope to be remembered, and I suppose my ctb day being pretty and aesthetic would make me remembered.. Sorry if that's weird to say! I just like romanticizing my end
I would never want to see someone die who I know. That's very traumatizing…
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Enlightened
Dec 24, 2025
1,130
i obsess over my looks every living day of my life so the day i plan to ctb wont be any different
 
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angelofbows

angelofbows

I prefer to not feel real.
Nov 29, 2023
32
I'm getting pretty right now, I plan to wear my favorite undies and bra too, gonna use strawberry soap so I smell nice, and go to the bathroom beforehand so I don't soil myself. I hope everyone dies a doll!
 
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DoomedDarkCircles

DoomedDarkCircles

too many secrets, please make it good tonight
Feb 23, 2024
84
I probably want to die with my natural, without makeup looks. But I do want to wear a cute and delicate white outfit in this moment
 
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passthisnote

passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
71
well i'm a guy so not exactly "pretty" but i def want to make sure i dont look like a swagless bum at least
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
428
No point, I will never be pretty, I will never be a woman, and I would look better as a dead body
 

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