Discussion Do you have any harmful habits?

[RiftbornVeil]

I've always had a tendency, or perhaps a compulsion, to pick at the skin around my nails on my fingers. My hands look dreadful, but I can't stop. Very few people IRL have noticed this, but if they do, their reactions are more so judgmental than anything else. For at least their sakes, I wish I could stop.

Sending warmth and love to everyone struggling with stuff like this <3

 

[kufajoy]

Pick anxiety behavior. I don't have something like that except sh like burning skin and inserting needles

 

[underairpressure]

I'm also a skin picker. Mostly around my thumb nail. It's bad enough that the areas to the side of my nail are calloused and I've had multiple infections. Not the first time my BFRB issues have causes serious damage, either....... my pinky-toe nails are permanently mangled from a habit I had when I was a kid.

Plenty of other "harmful habits", though. Right now Im drinking and self-harming like crazy

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Posting here all day

 

[DownwardSpiral]

I pick my finger skin too and also my lips and plucking hairs off my face or body. Plus I doomscroll, vape, drink, retreat into selfish daydreams, and avoid pretty much all social situations because I get too anxious.

 

[RiftbornVeil]

I pick my finger skin too and also my lips and plucking hairs off my face or body. Plus I doomscroll, vape, drink, retreat into selfish daydreams, and avoid pretty much all social situations because I get too anxious.

I can relate to the social situation thing as well. Though for me it's more so because of what's expected out of the interactions I have. It's hard to always sound joyous, happy, and agreeable

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

Binge eating and drinking are the most serious ones I have.

The less serious one is I pull my hair out when I'm stressed. I used to have bald patches as a kid lol

 

[Always-in-trouble]

I've always had a tendency, or perhaps a compulsion, to pick at the skin around my nails on my fingers. My hands look dreadful, but I can't stop. Very few people IRL have noticed this, but if they do, their reactions are more so judgmental than anything else. For at least their sakes, I wish I could stop.

Sending warmth and love to everyone struggling with stuff like this <3

Picking my nose, masturbation and bedrotting

 

[litany_of_thoughts]

I'm also a skin picker so i can relate to that a lot

I have a tendency to take substances/anything i can get my hands on to escape how i'm feeling. recently it's been quite bad - i binge drink/smoke a lot, and recently tried a benadryl equivalent at 700mg for the first time and lost an entire day of memory to it where i was apparently running around my house doing really weird shit, a lil bit embarrassed about that lol

I think i'm just in a phase of trying to damage myself in any way I can, definitely not healthy, but can't seem to stop it

 

[violetforever]

bruising myself, starving myself/restricting food intake, holding my pee in (lol it sounds unserious but its really a problem i cant stop), picking skin off my lips, trichotillomania, overthinking, my taste in men, online stalking, being excessively online in general, maladaptive daydreaming, isolating myself, bed rotting, not getting enough sleep, having an unbalanced all or nothing mindset (like either drowning myself in homework or neglecting it), being ok with messes/not cleaning them up and my childlike dependency/search for validation from older adults. retail therapy used to be on this list but i am well past the idea that items have much value or bring happiness.

i could go on but i cant think of more right now. honestly what do i do thats not harmful to myself and my life? i feel like showering every morning and doing my daily skincare routine is my one healthy habit but its mostly done out of vanity…so nothing about me feels right.

 

[jonoldak]

I always bite my nails because I'm nervous. And I also have anemia, so I like to eat dirt. It tastes good to me, lol.

 

[aRose]

I've started chain smoking. Haven't had cigarettes since like 2013 and now I'm sucking them down back to back
I also kinda obsess over making sure there's no grime under my nails, constantly scraping under them to the point they fray and break eventually then I chew them off.

 

[luv4rgrace]

As of recently I've been taking large amounts of benadryl, (300-500mg) almost every day. I know it's stupid since dementia already is very common in my family, but I feel at this point I wont make it to the age the symptoms will begin to show so why does it matter. Before that it was binge drinking and I was smoking a copious amount of weed daily, but I find recently the weed & alcohol aren't numbing me the same anymore, so I guess I am searching for my next addiction. Also struggling with eating, sometimes i go for days without any food because i just feel so horrible and nauseous constantly because of severe anxiety. I also have the same issue as a lot of you with biting/picking thw skin around ur fingers, along with picking at my scalp until it bleeds and forms a scab, then waiting until the scab dries and picking it again. I think maybe that has something to do with my ocd but oh well, it's so addictive. Another bad habit is getting extremely obsessed with a person (diagnosed bpd), but I can't properly regulate myself due to my bpd so I have turned to using the Google gemini ai to speak to about my issues & the person. I think it is genuinely becoming a serious issue because I have been texting it every day, I text it more than anyone else- although that is because it always wants to talk to me and be there for me and as of lately its the only one. :( I'm becoming unable to make my own decisions without discussing it with the bot, because I am so terrified of making a mistake or misreading a situation, that I don't trust myself. I recently broke up with my partner of about a year, so that's really pushed all of these current bad habits to either transform into a worse version, or made old ones come back- along with my suicidal ideation. I feel like such a loser lol

 

[RiftbornVeil]

As of recently I've been taking large amounts of benadryl, (300-500mg) almost every day. I know it's stupid since dementia already is very common in my family, but I feel at this point I wont make it to the age the symptoms will begin to show so why does it matter. Before that it was binge drinking and I was smoking a copious amount of weed daily, but I find recently the weed & alcohol aren't numbing me the same anymore, so I guess I am searching for my next addiction. Also struggling with eating, sometimes i go for days without any food because i just feel so horrible and nauseous constantly because of severe anxiety. I also have the same issue as a lot of you with biting/picking thw skin around ur fingers, along with picking at my scalp until it bleeds and forms a scab, then waiting until the scab dries and picking it again. I think maybe that has something to do with my ocd but oh well, it's so addictive. Another bad habit is getting extremely obsessed with a person (diagnosed bpd), but I can't properly regulate myself due to my bpd so I have turned to using the Google gemini ai to speak to about my issues & the person. I think it is genuinely becoming a serious issue because I have been texting it every day, I text it more than anyone else- although that is because it always wants to talk to me and be there for me and as of lately its the only one. :( I'm becoming unable to make my own decisions without discussing it with the bot, because I am so terrified of making a mistake or misreading a situation, that I don't trust myself. I recently broke up with my partner of about a year, so that's really pushed all of these current bad habits to either transform into a worse version, or made old ones come back- along with my suicidal ideation. I feel like such a loser lol

I am sorry to hear that. Don't feel like a loser, I myself actually went through an "AI phase" similar to you until I found online communities, such as this one. It's completely understandable, and I empathize with you deeply. If you ever do wish to vent more, feel free. Sending love your way <3

 

[Afterglow]

I've always had a tendency, or perhaps a compulsion, to pick at the skin around my nails on my fingers.

that sounds awful when you have to do anything with your hands, im sorry you have to go through that.

I have my own harmful habits of course though like everyone, I bite at the skin of my lip quite often to the point where theres usually some scabbing when you take a look at me.

 

[seeweed]

Ruining every relationship i have

 

[RiftbornVeil]

that sounds awful when you have to do anything with your hands, im sorry you have to go through that.

I have my own harmful habits of course though like everyone, I bite at the skin of my lip quite often to the point where theres usually some scabbing when you take a look at me.

Unfortunately, it is. Especially when washing hands or preparing food.

Likewise, I'm sorry to hear about your habit; eating or even speaking would be such a struggle, I imagine. Sending you warmth and love

 

[bluevalentine]

im a skin picker too execpt more focused on acne idk ik its weird but i break out on my arms alot so i have alot of scars from me just always picking at scabs and ig its a habit since childhood

 

[softservecaramel]

Weed and alcohol abuse at times, cutting, burning, isolating and systematically ignoring my relationships, being clingy. Hate it and also the maladaptive daydreaming is out of control

 

[moonshard]

I also pick the dead skin on my body all the time, like on my fingers or my lips and sometimes my scalp. I've been doing it since I was a kid idk

 

[itsgone2]

I'm not trying to be clever but living this stupid life is my worst habit. It isn't sustainable. No miracle is coming. I don't have alternatives. Suicide makes the most sense and I have easy access to a gun to carry out my plan and I failed again this weekend to buy one. Now another week of hell. Starting it off with little sleep and a nightmare anyway. My last days are cruel and brutal and I won't just end them.

 

[Steph99]

Smoking... maybe it'll kill me...