Do you have an alternative to suicide?

[LetMeGoPlease]

Mine is a mental institution for the rest of my life. Or having a job with little or no contact with other people and living in the woods or somewhere excluded from society. I would listen to a lot of sad music and cry every day in my misery. I would accept my fate and wait for death.

I know some of you find the idea of imprisonment horrible. To me it would feel like a relief if I willingly chose to do so. Not all of us have the same background.

I wonder what your alternatives would be.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

To keep basement-dwelling and making failed attempts at leaving the NEET life until something dystopian or unexpected happens that forces my hand to suicide or kills me outright.

 

[FuneralCry]

Spending an eternity walking around cemeteries being jealous of those who are at rest. Honestly in an ideal world If I could live in some isolated countryside or a forest maybe having some nice views might ease some of my pain.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Finding a genie in a bottle. Catching a golden fish. Exploit the hell out of shooting stars. Getting a visit from satan, or god. Getting abducted by aliens.

 

[Superdeterminist]

The alternative to death would be my being happy about my own life, meaning accepting my past as well as present and future, and being content to suffer all the pains that I know are on their way, and still remain happy about life. I don't see that happening, ever.

 

[yive]

no, suicide is the perfect [and only] choice

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Was thinking about this today. My alternative is to simply move to a random state in a random town, cut contact completely with my family and any past friends and just stay quiet, solitary and completely devoid of social interaction until I die either by my own hand or naturally. Pretty much through with trying. Way too broken to fix or be around.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

The alternative to death would be my being happy about my own life, meaning accepting my past as well as present and future, and being content to suffer all the pains that I know are on their way, and still remain happy about life. I don't see that happening, ever.

Man I was getting motivated until the plot twist at the end. I think that's my main problem. I get easily motivated but just as easily demotivated.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I think the only alternative to suicide is living, better said existing. So if I won't ctb I will suffer whole life and then "naturally" die.

 

[MrBigSad]

We exist , then we don't . On the positive side there are many creative outlets. Drawing, writing , painting, programming, excercise. And if you really want to feel again psychedelics are an incredible aid.

The solace I find is in potential, even if it's wasted . There's no rush :)

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Yeah, a few more years of NEETdom then homelessness and starvation.

 

[Boochky]

No. I have basically no friends, I'm on Disability but I have to switch to medicare and I won't be able to afford my care. I need thousands of work on my teeth and I just don't care anymore. I will try SN until it works.

 

[WornOutLife]

Sure. I could just keep on working, meet a girl, get married, have children and keep on working until I'm a sick old grey man but it doesn't sound quite good for me. I find it boring and bringing children into this hell would be really unfair for them.

I just find life too pointless because I will never get the answers I seek such as the true purpose of this universe, life and the origin of everything.

Also, I don't think my bipolar disorder allows me to have a normal life for many more years but well, I'm really trying to keep on living for now.

 

[esoterispeec]

Mine is a mental institution for the rest of my life. Or having a job with little or no contact with other people and living in the woods or somewhere excluded from society. I would listen to a lot of sad music and cry every day in my misery. I would accept my fate and wait for death.

I know some of you find the idea of imprisonment horrible. To me it would feel like a relief if I willingly chose to do so. Not all of us have the same background.

I wonder what your alternatives would be.

Finding some way to accept that life is suffering and just be ok with it. Seems impossible

 

[the_final_countdown]

I could. It would just be incredibly hard and frustrating.

Medicine damaged my ability to have a normal libido. That would be enough for some people.

Dry eyes, vertigo, mouth pain, chronic headaches, and all the muscle and fat on my body is now saggy. Makes it difficult to sleep without constantly turning. It's a torture.

Other intense hormonal problems. Emotionally I don't feel a part of this world anymore.

Eating certain foods causes strange reactions. Intense intense nausea. Rapid heartbeats.

I can't really workout anymore because I'm constantly out of breath. Medication did that. Damaged my hormones.

Even if I could I'd just steadily accumulate scar tissue. The fingers on both my hands don't move as well anymore.

I could live this way, but every day would be a disappointment

 

[SleepingClouds]

No alternative for me. Death is the only option.

 

[Ardesevent]

Just being a NEET or having a dead-end job until something else kills me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

If I can't die by suicide then I'll simply let my diabetes kick in and kill me. I already do very little to manage it so it will only be a matter of time before my unhealthy lifestyle kills me anyway.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

If I can't die by suicide then I'll simply let my diabetes kick in and kill me. I already do very little to manage it so it will only be a matter of time before my unhealthy lifestyle kills me anyway.

That's an incredibly hard way to go.....would reconsider that route.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

That's an incredibly hard way to go.....would reconsider that route.

I already have plans to go next year thanks to SN so hopefully it won't have to come to that. Diabetes itself might not kill me that early but a heart attack or something surely would.

 

[BottomlessPit]

The alternative to suicide would just be to delay the inevitable for a little longer. We will all die eventually, the question is how much suffering and pain do we want to feel before we go? The sooner death comes, the better.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

I do! Living out the remainder of my life until my physical health and cognitive functioning deteriorates to a point where I have to be dependent on others for my needs and wants. Then spending my last days bedridden and hooked up to machines.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

I'll try giving relocating a try. If that doesn't work out, then so be it.

 

[DarkNearDeath]

There's an alternative everyone hates. Life

 

[motel rooms]

Fuck alternatives to suicide. Fuck them with an iron poker. If children are successfully ctb, I know I can do it too! I'm sure as hell not gonna spend the rest of my days suffering in vain & whining about being afraid that killing myself will be incredibly painful - let it be painful, let it hurt like a son of a bitch!!! What's a couple of hours of even the most horrific stress & physical pain compared to an eternity of FREEDOM from this pathetic, meaningless bullshit?? I refuse to be life's cowardly bitch.

 

[Bat 17]

Fuck alternatives to suicide. Fuck them with an iron poker. If children are successfully ctb, I know I can do it too! I'm sure as hell not gonna spend the rest of my days suffering in vain & whining about being afraid that killing myself will be incredibly painful - let it be painful, let it hurt like a son of a bitch!!! What's a couple of hours of even the most horrific stress & physical pain compared to an eternity of FREEDOM from this pathetic, meaningless bullshit?? I refuse to be life's cowardly bitch.

Sounds like Seppuku could be an option for you LOL


Yes I have an alternative. I try to remind myself of it every day.

First, I can be a good dad to my girls. It's not their fault that my life is a mess. I'd give anything so they can be happy. Second, I can work. I am very lucky that I'm of a generation when it was still possible to start a career without a miracle taking place. I know that. I have an interesting job and people depend on me and I need to do it for them if I can't for myself.

Third, I would like to travel again. One of the good things about CTB is it has made me relatively fearless. I'd like to study in Italy and then go further afield in Asia and the Americas. I don't know if this will happen because of (1) and (2) but it's a pleasant daydream.

Fourth, I'd like to write (wouldn't we all). I have published some things previously its just applying myself I suppose.

Fifth, I would like to explore spirituality and perhaps also theoretical physics. Somebody tried to convert me to evangelical Christianity when I was in hospital but I wasn't persuaded. One of my favourite authors is Christopher Isherwood (author of A Single Man, the Tom Ford film). He wrote a book about his own explorations, particularly with Hinduism, which I'm looking forward to reading. I'd like to have my answers to @WornOutLife 's existential questions!

I don't hope for a life without mental illness and CTB because I don't think that's possible. I often look down on the scars on my legs and think that death has left his mark and will be coming back. Maybe that's just romanticism.

 

[rs929]

I find kind of comforting that life will eventually end. No matter what we do. It seems some of you believe it will last forever

 

[LakatosDiogenesz]

Life isn't totally unbearable, it's just much worse than death and not worth the effort. I could do this for many more years but I'd have to be stupid to do that.

 

[noname223]

Postponing suicide till poverty arrives. But it is likely to be the final solution for me. Poverty is no alternative

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

Fuck alternatives to suicide. Fuck them with an iron poker. If children are successfully ctb, I know I can do it too! I'm sure as hell not gonna spend the rest of my days suffering in vain & whining about being afraid that killing myself will be incredibly painful - let it be painful, let it hurt like a son of a bitch!!! What's a couple of hours of even the most horrific stress & physical pain compared to an eternity of FREEDOM from this pathetic, meaningless bullshit?? I refuse to be life's cowardly bitch.

I admire your sstrength. Not all of us are this brave.