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bloomingdark

bloomingdark

Alex
Jan 24, 2019
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Since I am planning ctb I was doing a little list on my mind of what thing I want to do before ctb , eating my favorite meal, listening to the playlist I have been doing especially for when the moment arrives, maybe a few days before trying physocdelics ,etc.

Do you have a list?
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
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Not really. I wish I had, but nothing caters to me anymore and life would get in the way anyways. I just try to indulge in something from time to time, but I don't bother listing anything.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
I have a list of how my day would look when the time came. What I'd eat, where I'd go, what I'd do beforehand etc. I haven't got the energy or motivation to do anything big or grand before the time comes sadly. Though I've done things over the years that I can class as bucket list worthy I guess.
 
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SelfLiberation

SelfLiberation

Thinking about ctb ever since I can remember
Oct 8, 2020
38
The only thing I did, was to make sure I got rid of any things I wouldn't want to be found after my death.
 
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Deleted member 19654

Deleted member 19654

Working towards recovery.
Jul 9, 2020
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I haven't made a bucket list and don't think I will. I can't really think of anything that I want to do or try before I CTB. The only list I'll make is probably the things I need to do to get my affairs in order like erasing everything from my phone etc.
 
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goodbyebunny

goodbyebunny

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Oct 19, 2020
105
My ideas are similar to your list. I have a very thorough plan, which involves my favourite food (sushi), bit of alcohol (I'm not much of a drinker), lots of marijuana and maybe other drugs, some skincare routine stuff, styling myself nicely, and listening to music as well as watching anime, all in a specified order. Kind of like a ritual. My last act of self love.
 
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