Do you guys self harm?

[mantarays]

I've been self harming for maybe 8 years at this point. I have a little box in my closet that I keep my razor and all the things I need to clean up the blood. I have never found a way that can calm me when I'm upset like being in pain does so I don't see myself stopping cutting myself anytime soon. I wear long sleeves year-round to cover my arms. It gets comments from my coworkers in the summer but I always tell them that I just like the way long sleeves look on me. I have no idea if they believe that or not. Even if they know the real reason I wear long sleeves I doubt they care.

 

[Dinozauria]

I used to self harm by cutting myself but I ended up getting scared of infections which stopped me. Nowadays, I try to self harm by starving myself, but I have really bad self control. Also, this one is a lil weird, but I try to trigger myself to think about suicide every day. I don't know if it counts as self harm. I heard it does, but it makes me feel good

 

[Zen0]

I don't really self harm in the traditional sense. But there's no shortage of self inflicted pain for me. I don't really take good care of my physical health as i don't follow a good sleep schedule, i don't eat much (or sometimes not at all), burn myself in the shower, sink my nails into my skin. All mostly ways that don't immediately show to other people "that boy is hurting himself on purpose".

 

[Pale_Rider]

I have thought seriously of starting to self harm again. But as had been said it will bring unwanted attention if discovered. I think my suicidal nature is fine to fly under radar now, but if I were to start cutting that would likely be a problem. My thoughts.

Well yeah I've lost a bunch of weight again. I was manipulated into a Dr's office behind it I think, or maybe it was genuine concern. Idk. I'm trying to eat more often now. At least to maintain my present weight.

I also have the sleep issues. Not much can be done about any of that I guess.

They have me on gabapentin. I don't feel it's being that helpful, but I could still go up. I also don't know what to tell them when they as about it. I feel luke they just want to hear it's working.

 

[DashofPepper]

yeah ive been cutting myself for years atp, my thighs are covered in scars. idk i find its just a very addictive feeling because the mental relief it gives me is incredible, genuinely the best ive ever felt was when i was cutting myself.

 

[thelostautistic]

I started when I was 16 and I'm nearly 25 now. I don't do it as much anymore because I don't feel the need to. That was until recently. I randomly relapsed last week which sucks but I'm 1 week self harm free so that's positive.

 

[raikko]

I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.

no, which is why i feel like a fraud

 

[chuckapalahniuk27]

sometimes but its annoying to clean up after

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Does starvation count? I have not eaten anything for about four or five days now after a breakdown.

 

[suimaxxer]

yeah. i cut every couple days. the only thing i regret is cutting up my left arm too much, the skin there looks really weird now since it is mostly scars. it reminds me of wood

 

[Imausername]

I cut words into my self. It feels less valid and more attention seeking but so what. I can write words I can't understand or say. I feel it's more real like though sh is my way to express my internal hidden mental pain others can't see so I give them something... Crazy sure they drove me there

 

[fairygirl184]

i first cut in 2009-2010 at 12, immediately got dobbed into school by a friend, they then called my mum. she basically asked me if id never do it again and i said ok, just got better at hiding it after that. i don't cut often anymore, but hitting/head banging i resort to when overwhelmed. i also have issues with things like spending and binge eating which i think is due to (waiting list but undiagnosed) adhd. i wasnt a deep or bad cutter but still have visible scars, the worst from 2015

 

[KeepSmiling]

i used to cut as a way to cope but now its just something i do when i feel like it.
its the same as smoking or drinking. either way its harmful, addictive and ur better off not doing it in the first place but in moderation its not that bad

 

[bipolar22]

Yes