Do you grieve your own life before ctb?

[completely-done]

For anyone who already has their ctb date (or even those who don't know yet), are you grieving your own life? Missing what could have been? How do you grieve?

I don't have anything to grieve because I never amounted to anything. But I do cry for what I could have been.

 

[StarryStarry]

I do cry for what I could have done and what I could have been. I allowed others to tell me how I felt about myself. I can't do it over ....

 

[Zzzzz]

Yes I have grieved much for my own life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also have nothing to grieve. I have never wanted to live. My life has always been very empty, it is like I died a long time ago. I feel like in my case, even if my circumstances were different, I would still want to die. Nothing would ever take away the emptiness. I do not feel sad about dying at all, when I think of being dead it comforts me. I am not meant for this world at all. I just feel sad that I am still here and that it is difficult to ctb. The thing I want the most is to pass away peacefully, like falling asleep and never waking.

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

Not really. I'm glad it's almost over.

 

[ProntoFim]

I also have nothing to grieve. I have never wanted to live. My life has always been very empty, it is like I died a long time ago. I feel like in my case, even if my circumstances were different, I would still want to die. Nothing would ever take away the emptiness. I do not feel sad about dying at all, when I think of being dead it comforts me. I am not meant for this world at all. I just feel sad that I am still here and that it is difficult to ctb. The thing I want the most is to pass away peacefully, like falling asleep and never waking.

what country are you from and what prevents you from achieving peaceful methods? Have you ever thought about SN? in my country it is sold freely, all you need is a good antiemetic, the rest is details.

 

[FuneralCry]

what country are you from and what prevents you from achieving peaceful methods? Have you ever thought about SN? in my country it is sold freely, all you need is a good antiemetic, the rest is details.

UK. The peaceful methods are not easily accessible as the society tries to force us to live. They do not respect the right to die. If I did have access to a peaceful method, I would already be gone.