Do you get fed up talking about suicide?

[Lost Magic]

I have been on this forum (as great as it is) since 2020 now. I am tired that I am still here. I guess that is why I hope to find the strength to ctb this year. It is so draining feeling this way and talking about the pain of existence. Does anybody else feel that they are running out of steam here?

 

[Loneliest]

Yeah I feel you. I was lurking on SS on and off without an account before finally joining recently. I'm quite frustrated with myself for actively thinking about it but not doing it yet. Ever since I've made the decision that I will ctb, I've lost all desires to do anything. It's just like what's the point? I'm going to ctb anyway. The question though is when. When will I have the courage to finally end it all! I can't keep feeling this way

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah I feel you. I was lurking on SS on and off without an account before finally joining recently. I'm quite frustrated with myself for actively thinking about it but not doing it yet. Ever since I've made the decision that I will ctb, I've lost all desires to do anything. It's just like what's the point? I'm going to ctb anyway. The question though is when. When will I have the courage to finally end it all! I can't keep feeling this way

Indeed. It is just exhausting to not want to be in this world but just pushing along anyway. Yup, it sure is.

 

[UKscotty]

Yes, I get sick of talking about it and thinking about it. I just wish I wasn't such a coward and could get it done.

I know in my mind I could make a noose and be gone from this world in the next 10 mins but I don't have the guts and that sucks. Every day alive sucks.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Not really, it has been a part of my life for roughly 20 of my 34 years on this planet. It's like talking about sports or the weather at this point.

 

[Mr2005]

I'd rather talk about anything else even in a place like this. It's a distraction like any other. There's only so much to say about why I'm here and if I do I only want to kill myself more.

 

[Bedrock48]

Not particularly, I find it valuable having at least some open discussion about suicide. Only thing I get fed up about is having to repeat things over and over to professionals. While I don't mind telling my story it gets tedious going over *every* detail endlessly. Especially if said person doesn't "get it".

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't get fed up talking about suicide, for me it is always on my mind and I see it as the only way I can get peace. This forum makes me feel better and makes my days more bearable. I am fed up of existing though, I have been alive for too long.

 

[Lost Magic]

Don't get me wrong this a fantastic outlet for like minded people which I love. I just get tired of myself for being alive this long and just scraping by. I think I would be worse without this forum and my ability to speak freely. Still, It doesn't change the way I feel about being bored with my suicidal thoughts and feelings.

 

[suisuiforum]

I've talked about suicide on so many different (anonymous) platforms, and I feel like I sound like a broken record. Even when I'm talking to complete strangers in a chatroom, I still try to limit how intense I sound or how many times I talk about it, otherwise people would get upset, bored, or fed up. I also rant in private, but even that's getting boring to write and read about for myself.

 

[IWantToSleep]

Kind of, but atleast it's something.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Quite the opposite, this is the only place I can find where people actually understand and it's a tremendous relief every time. Would much rather talk about suicide than put on a mask and pretend to be happy.

 

[Life_and_Death]

My mental illnesses/problems is all thats ever on my mind and for the most part is all i talk about with my friends. It is tiring dealing with it 24/7. Like, a break for a normal conversation would be nice.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm gonna kill myself if I don't leave this place soon & kill myself

 

[Pisceslilith]

Yeah, I get very fed up because I just want to do it but unfortunately I can't right now. It's so frustrating.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yeah I'm getting tired of talking about this too. Good point once I realized I'm going to end myself I just lost desire for everything. But I need to stop being a coward and do it but have to cover finances first