Do you feel comfort from this site?

[justwaiting]

I know I just joined Wednesday but I really appreciate this site. Lately, when I've been feeling down, I come and browse through this site. What ever I'm going through, I'm reminded that it is going to end soon and I feel a sense of relief.

 

[lv-gras]

yes, sometimes very strong comfort

 

[worldexploder]

Very much so! I feel like I'm surrounded by family. Wonderful people who are supportive, nonjudgmental, and validating. I found my tribe.

 

[Empty Smile]

SS is the family I don't have in real life. It's my home away from this empty life I live.

 

[Threads]

Yeah. This website brings me clarity, and I enjoy being part of the community.

It's actually a pretty fun place.

 

[Welsh]

I only joined recently too. Lurked for a couple of days and was hooked after just a few minutes of browsing.

Personally I'm not particularly low or suicidal these days, but I find this site incredibly comforting and addictive. I know I could slip back into a shitty place mentally at any point, so it helps to know that there's endless resources and genuinely non-judgemental voices here.

Also this place is pretty freaking light hearted somehow. Seems contradictory, being a suicide centred forum and all, but the tone is nice here. I'm genuinely amazed that a community built upon something so dark, can be so inviting and homely. Credit to all of you, well done.

 

[kkatt]

The pro choice community has made some of my strongest friendships in life. However, you do lose a lot of people you feel close to aswell.

 

[Empty Smile]

I only joined recently too. Lurked for a couple of days and was hooked after just a few minutes of browsing.

Personally I'm not particularly low or suicidal these days, but I find this site incredibly comforting and addictive. I know I could slip back into a shitty place mentally at any point, so it helps to know that there's endless resources and genuinely non-judgemental voices here.

Also this place is pretty freaking light hearted somehow. Seems contradictory, being a suicide centred forum and all, but the tone is nice here. I'm genuinely amazed that a community built upon something so dark, can be so inviting and homely. Credit to all of you, well done.

That's what I like about SS. Everyone is supportive of you, your ups and downs, your thoughts and ideas, and mostly, if you fail at ctb, you're not laughed at here.

We're here to help keep you sane, even though most of us are insane!

 

[longingforrelease]

I have found this place of enormous comfort. I have with but one notable exception, found everyone here to be amazingly sympathetic, supportive, loving and without judgement. It is the safest place I have found to reveal myself and all that troubles me. I've laid bare the ugliest truths about me here in a way I've found utterly impossible anywhere else. I've even called this a sacred space. And I mean that. That said, I have to say that this place can have something of an ominous feeling to it. Hard to describe what I'm trying to say, actually. But it can sometime fill me with, or simply add to, a kind of darkness. This is because this site makes what I'm contemplating so very real, so much more than private, abstract musings about maybe one day killing myself. I mean we get very specific (and helpful) feedback about methods that might work best for us given our specific circumstances and needs, and we've certainly had to post our goodbyes to those we'd come to care about because they the finally acted on their desire to end their suffering through chosen death. In other words, this shit it real! And that can sometimes weigh heavily. I suppose that's healthy though. What I am contemplating is the most serious question I've ever had to wrestle with. There are complicated issues for me about the impact of my death on my little girl, my elderly mother, and others I will leave behind. And some of the threads here have really helped me confront those difficult questions I'd often rather not think about. I've gotten very practical advice about how I might arrange my death to look accidental so as to spare my daughter the additional trauma and complex grief of losing her father to suicide as well as how to find a way to leave behind (in the form of a journal) messages to my daughter that I hope would help her process her grief (entries that expressed how much I loved her, how much joy she brought to me, etc.) without giving it away that my death was suicide. In short, this place is like no other I have found anywhere. I am grateful to be able to be free to share my experiences and feelings as well as to listen and learn from those who share their own.

 

[wanttodie]

very strong comfort knowing im not the only one how wants to end my life

 

[Empty Smile]

I have found this place of enormous comfort. I have with but one notable exception, found everyone here to be amazingly sympathetic, supportive, loving and without judgement. It is the safest place I have found to reveal myself and all that troubles me. I've laid bare the ugliest truths about me here in a way I've found utterly impossible anywhere else. I've even called this a sacred space. And I mean that. That said, I have to say that this place can have something of an ominous feeling to it. Hard to describe what I'm trying to say, actually. But it can sometime fill me with, or simply add to, a kind of darkness. This is because this site makes what I'm contemplating so very real, so much more than private, abstract musings about maybe one day killing myself. I mean we get very specific (and helpful) feedback about methods that might work best for us given our specific circumstances and needs, and we've certainly had to post our goodbyes to those we'd come to care about because they the finally acted on their desire to end their suffering through chosen death. In other words, this shit it real! And that can sometimes weigh heavily. I suppose that's healthy though. What I am contemplating is the most serious question I've ever had to wrestle with. There are complicated issues for me about the impact of my death on my little girl, my elderly mother, and others I will leave behind. And some of the threads here have really helped me confront those difficult questions I'd often rather not think about. I've gotten very practical advice about how I might arrange my death to look accidental so as to spare my daughter the additional trauma and complex grief of losing her father to suicide as well as how to find a way to leave behind (in the form of a journal) messages to my daughter that I hope would help her process her grief (entries that expressed how much I loved her, how much joy she brought to me, etc.) without giving it away that my death was suicide. In short, this place is like no other I have found anywhere. I am grateful to be able to be free to share my experiences and feelings as well as to listen and learn from those who share their own.

A lot of what you said falls on me as well. I can come here and speak openly about my issues without having to worry about being judged. Here, I can tell people things that I can't tell people face to face. Maybe it's the anonymously way of doing it, I don't know.

I can write my feelings down better than I can talk about it. It just seems when I talk to people irl, I tend to lock up.

 

[Johnnythefox]

This is the only place where I can really relate to others. It's also a reliable source of information regarding methods etc. I'd never encountered N till coming here.

 

[weedoge]

At the very least, I don't feel alone. I'm not sure what I get comfort from, but I value having somewhere to talk about my feelings openly without fear of people ditching me for it.

 

[Fucking loving it]

SS comforts me. It is where all my friends are. Where I can relate to ppl and they can relate to me. I'm on here 98% of my time. Lol. I love it here.

 

[Midnight]

Yes. One time in the beginning i joined i got pm's from a few people ... It was such a good feeling that someone reached out to me just to say kind words or wanted to have a chat. These people have either ctb'ed or gave life another chance. It was very nice especially since i don't reach out myself very easily.

Also having info on methods is nice and comforting.

 

[Goldie]

It is comforting yes, but I find that recently I am not as active. I dont know if this means I am more or less depressed. Or it may because I have already ordered my N and I am waiting for it to arrive.

 

[none666]

This is the only place I can talk honestly about how suicidal I am, so yeah this place helps a lot. There's some good people here

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. This is the only place where I can truly be me and not get shit for it.

 

[iHeartRockArt]

Yes. This is the only place where I can truly be me and not get shit for it.

Isn't that the truth! Great place. Great people.

 

[OkTotti]

Yes, SS keeps my sanity. I'm like on it, all the time. It's the only thing i look forward to doing each day

 

[Winona]

This community seems really supportive and the board's usability is at a very high level, no wonder that it's so easy to become addicted to SS. But to be honest, I'm afraid of scammers and predators hanging around( Sorry, I didn't mean to hurt anyone.

 

[DreamsofDeath]

Great comfort. Sadness that so many are suffering, but great comfort and gratitude to be amongst all the wonderful people here. I'm very grateful I found this board.

 

[Funkbunny]

In a way, yes. There's honesty here. You can vent, people understand without judging, telling you things will get better, or trying to put the blame card on you.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

Short answer. Yes.

Longer: Very much so. Not only for the virtual companionship but also the reassurance that I'm not the only one who rejects the idea of life as a gift I should be thankful for.

Being able to rationally discuss one of the most taboo topics gives me a bit of hope that the discussion could one day go mainstream. With a different agenda than the current one.

However, I still kind of feel like everyone has well established relationships and I'm just "the new kid on the block".

Also, I can sometimes feel a bit out of place being a middle aged reclusive black woman. Feeling different amongst the different.

Still, I find comfort in the fact that we all have one fundamental thing in common that SHOULD transcend all the other differences. Be they societally constucted, nature imposed, environmental, or whatever.

I'm very grateful for the site and it's users.

 

[Empty Smile]

Short answer. Yes.

Longer: Very much so. Not only for the virtual companionship but also the reassurance that I'm not the only one who rejects the idea of life as a gift I should be thankful for.

Being able to rationally discuss one of the most taboo topics gives me a bit of hope that the discussion could one day go mainstream. With a different agenda than the current one.

However, I still kind of feel like everyone has well established relationships and I'm just "the new kid on the block".

Also, I can sometimes feel a bit out of place being a middle aged reclusive black woman. Feeling different amongst the different.

Still, I find comfort in the fact that we all have one fundamental thing in common that SHOULD transcend all the other differences. Be they societally constucted, nature imposed, environmental, or whatever.

I'm very grateful for the site and it's users.

Don't feel out of place here. We don't care about race, sex, sexual orientation, religion, country, or whatever. We all are in the same boat(well, almost), and we aren't here to attack anyone. We are one big supportive family.

 

[Help_Me]

This website gives me a lot of confort. This is like a small family of like-minded persons.

 

[Kooz]

To be honest... Only kind of now. I see a lot of people that aren't really going to ctb but are actually just here for a cry for help.

The problem with that though, is that they're not going to get actual help. They're going to just go deeper and deeper into depression and anxiety.

Because they're surrounding themselves with people that are equally or more depressed than themselves. A lot of people that have came to ctb have already read the information and planned their date or have already ctb.

So you're left with people that haven't reached their date yet or with people doing cries for help.

It's sad to me because some people could actually be helped.

That's what I think true survival instinct is. Either you have everything planned out and there is nothing that will stop you OR you're here for attention and trying to find help so you don't have to ctb.

That's my opinion though. I've done my research. I have my date coming up soon and I know for a fact that nothing is going to stop me.

 

[agreement]

Yep

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I have found this place of enormous comfort. I have with but one notable exception, found everyone here to be amazingly sympathetic, supportive, loving and without judgement. It is the safest place I have found to reveal myself and all that troubles me. I've laid bare the ugliest truths about me here in a way I've found utterly impossible anywhere else. I've even called this a sacred space. And I mean that. That said, I have to say that this place can have something of an ominous feeling to it. Hard to describe what I'm trying to say, actually. But it can sometime fill me with, or simply add to, a kind of darkness. This is because this site makes what I'm contemplating so very real, so much more than private, abstract musings about maybe one day killing myself. I mean we get very specific (and helpful) feedback about methods that might work best for us given our specific circumstances and needs, and we've certainly had to post our goodbyes to those we'd come to care about because they the finally acted on their desire to end their suffering through chosen death. In other words, this shit it real! And that can sometimes weigh heavily. I suppose that's healthy though. What I am contemplating is the most serious question I've ever had to wrestle with. There are complicated issues for me about the impact of my death on my little girl, my elderly mother, and others I will leave behind. And some of the threads here have really helped me confront those difficult questions I'd often rather not think about. I've gotten very practical advice about how I might arrange my death to look accidental so as to spare my daughter the additional trauma and complex grief of losing her father to suicide as well as how to find a way to leave behind (in the form of a journal) messages to my daughter that I hope would help her process her grief (entries that expressed how much I loved her, how much joy she brought to me, etc.) without giving it away that my death was suicide. In short, this place is like no other I have found anywhere. I am grateful to be able to be free to share my experiences and feelings as well as to listen and learn from those who share their own.

Like everyone else, I'm chock full of opinions. I'm normally completely against parents with small ones ending their existence. Still, I can't and won't ever judge because I don't live your life.

I only wanted to say I admire the thought you're putting into your daughter's emotional after care. Again, I love the idea of journal or letters that she can re-read througout the years.

If there is anyone you'd trust with the task, you can maybe write her series of age appropriate letters, detailing what led to your decision and your subsequent journey, to be disbursed on her bds. Or whatever day seems most important or reasonable.

I don't know her age or temperament but I'm assuming she's young and doesn't need to be introduced to the idea of suicide anytime soon. However, (when she's older) I think there is a lot to be said for explaining to her that you did nothing fundamentally wrong, and, therefore, there is nothing for her to feel shame or harbor guilt over. Only a thought.

I know this was unsolicited and I hope it's taken with the good intentions i intended.

It's my mom's bd I'm feeling emotional and your post touched me a bit.

I have letters from her but they were all written to me before the age of 12. Full of cutesy words and "I-Love-You's" galore. Still, she left me with no understanding of what tormented her. I don't know what she was running from. What she was looking for. I don't know who I am or why I wasn't enough to keep her going.

Sorry, I got going! Lol

 

[Toenditall]

Yes I love it on here it's a great distraction from everything and the people are all incredible wish I could meet up with a few for a few drinks before we all ctb