Do you ever look at old photos of yourself?

[Hope:-)]

Anyone else also compulsively do this or do it more than they should? I look at them flabbergasted. I am a shadow of the woman I once was. It's surrealle to look back...

 

[jodes2]

I look at them and wonder what happened, I was quite a bit happier as a kid. But I also look at it and wonder why I was born at all. It would have been easier if I was never born, or died young

 

[yuno]

I avoid looking at myself or any photos of myself. The older ones especially. I'm my worst bully and viewing myself triggers even more abusive thoughts. Rarely I can look at myself and think "why am I looking so cute?" Then I must counteract those rare thoughts with all the horrible things. I know someone who has the opposite problem. They take 50+ pics of themself a day because that's how their loathing works. I'd surely ctb far sooner having to face myself that much. It's funny in a way.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Yes- Hard to imagine it's the same person… And looking into their eyes thinking they had no idea it would come to this

 

[Hope:-)]

Yes- Hard to imagine it's the same person… And looking into their eyes thinking they had no idea it would come to this

I think that. I do it with memories too like thinking of when I was in 6th form, ( highschool for those who say that,) thinking wow you have no idea that at 18 yrs old you will take medication that will ruin your life. I am now terrified of what is around the corner because of it.

 

[rationaltake]

I couldn't stand it so got rid of every single photo - with or without me in it. Weren't many. I have terrible photos of me on a couple of official documents.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Yeah it's fucking heartbreaking...what have I become

 

[thebunny]

not really. i refuse to look at old photos of myself because it just reminds me of how happy i once was and that i could never achieve that again no matter how hard i try. i refuse because i don't wanna be reminded of the what could've beens.

 

[Lookingtotalk]

no, i dont want to cry i was so happy

 

[Hope:-)]

no, i dont want to cry i was so happy

Me too.x

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I try not to. I've had to tell YouTube not to recommend my own channel so I don't see my thumbnails.

 

[Hope:-)]

I try not to. I've had to tell YouTube not to recommend my own channel so I don't see my thumbnails.

You have a youtube channel? How cool :-)

 

[👁️👃👁️]

No I don't like to it just reminds me of how happy I was at some point

 

[Jimblue]

I actually don't have too much pics at all. I was never be a considered as a good looking/ cute/ adorable girl even when I was child or young girl. My mother always told me I was a super ugly person and don't deserve to be loved by anyone or any man.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeh I did recently and I also tend to think about the past way too much. I had an idyllic childhood but I still wasn't happy being me.

 

[outrider567]

I don't look at pictures of anyone or anything anymore

 

[victoria91]

Anyone else also compulsively do this or do it more than they should? I look at them flabbergasted. I am a shadow of the woman I once was. It's surrealle to look back...

I can really relate. I get so upset looking back at photos. You can see the life in my eyes and the happiness. I don't know who she is anyone or what happened to her. But yeah , here if you want to chat :)

 

[ncmxm]

Yes, and it always makes me a bit sad because I don't look as young anymore

 

[ojinzo]

I can't look at old pictures of myself. It is too painful

 

[Ligottian]

I sometimes look at childhood pictures. Me sitting on Santa's knee my first Christmas. My sister and I dressed in our Halloween costumes. Birthday parties with cake, ice cream, and balloons. To name just three. All taken long before most reading this were born. A very Edenic time in my life. I suppose one of the best parts was having no inking of the evils in the world or what the future had in store for me.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Anyone else also compulsively do this or do it more than they should? I look at them flabbergasted. I am a shadow of the woman I once was. It's surrealle to look back...

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I lost my Google account in March and I don't have many photos of myself left on my own device but I used to look a quite often to see I was happier or unaware that it would be this way for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I doubt that any even exists, thankfully. I don't want to think about the past at all, I've never wanted to be here and I have no positive memories of existing. Life could never be worth living to me.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Nah, I hate that shit. Especially when someone else sends me or shows me an old photo like, "remember this?!" with a big stupid smile. I remember that day, yeah. But I will never relive a moment similar to that or be the person in that photo you're standing next to again.

 

[Zegers]

He was smiling, he is not the same spirit.

 

[home]

When i see pictures of myself when I was younger or when I see those tiktoks about people's younger self, I feel so guilty. I feel like I somehow failed this kid. People are always like "what would you do if you met your younger self", and all I could do is say "I'm sorry". Im sorry for where we are. Im sorry for who we've become. Im sorry that youll have to go through what I did. Im sorry.

 

[Y444]

When i see pictures of myself when I was younger or when I see those tiktoks about people's younger self, I feel so guilty. I feel like I somehow failed this kid. People are always like "what would you do if you met your younger self", and all I could do is say "I'm sorry". Im sorry for where we are. Im sorry for who we've become. Im sorry that youll have to go through what I did. Im sorry.

I'm on this forum mostly to find a "solution" (I'm stuck with SN for now, can't find it in my stupid country tho), but i randomly stumdled across this thread and your comment legit brought tears to my eyes, because I had never thought about my situation in this way before: I really let down that nice and happy kid which supposed to have a great life.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Not really, but on occasion when someone shows me a photo of myself as a young child, I can't comprehend how or why I was smiling for the camera despite everything that was going on behind closed doors.

 

[Hangnail]

Yeah. It's really sad because I was such a happy, go-lucky kid.

 

[Idontmatter]

I avoid looking at pictures of myself. I'm to ugly so i avoid cameras as much as possible

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Yes. I used to think I was so fat. I'd give anything to be that size again.
I often wonder what I'd look like now if I had taken better care of myself and didn't want to grow up so fast.
I hope we get a redo if we so choose so I can see the outcome if I make different choices in my life.
I'm just curious.