Do you ever just stand in one spot, list staring out the window, or around your room and wonder why

[Silent Raindrops]

You have those dark deep thoughts that just creep up into your brain?

Those tears that start for no obvious reason?

The sadness that starts at the pit of your stomach and engulfs your entire inner being?

The demons that crawl out from the darkness, tormenting, and haunting you?

Welcome to my world.
Don't mind me people, I been drinking.

 

[return.]

I haven't gotten that feeling in a while, but I have felt before that a child inside of me just wants to burst out into tears. Like all he really wanted was love, to be heard and understood, and not seen as some abnormality.

I have gotten that sick feeling in my stomach too. Sometimes if I talk to someone in person I'll realize out of nowhere that I've talked too much and I'll just feel regret for what I've done.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

yeah, i zone out randomly a lot. i just forget what i was doing or what evers happening and stare at nothing and feel just emptiness and despair overwhelm me for a while. its like my brain shuts down and my mind and body fills with sadness and i cant move. if someones around at the time and they ask if im ok all i can muster is a 'hm' in response. its kind of nice in a way bc my brain stops racing and its all just calm sadness.

 

[mirroredmind]

when i have the urge to ctb i stand in one spot and look at the ground for around ~15 min even tho i am immersed in deep and dark thoughts i manage to calm down

 

[restless.dreams]

Yes, I can relate. I'm sorry you're going through those dark feelings :(

 

[BlessedBeTheFlame]

I think any time I have depersonalization/dissociation episodes, it becomes far too unbearable to distract. It's impossible to distract, since there is literally no way to even get to me in the first place anymore. So I just sit motionless, not being able to do anything. It's far worse than anything else I feel. I also often just zone out, so I can imagine myself in a better world, where I somehow managed to not succumb and instead was able to achieve things in life. Idk, maybe one day I'll zone out for long enough to die, without even realizing it.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah, I wonder why I had to be born as a human in this lifetime when I could've been a cat. Cats have such nice lives. In my opinion, they've won at life. They don't have to do anything, they can just sit there and look cute and pretend to like their owners. They don't have to work for a living just to survive. They don't have to pay to exist on this planet. It's not fair that I had to be human…

 

[Final_Choice]

I get that quite a bit but can't really explain why, maybe it's just a form of disassociation which allows me to leave life for at least a moment.

 

[F@#$]

You have those dark deep thoughts that just creep up into your brain?

Those tears that start for no obvious reason?

The sadness that starts at the pit of your stomach and engulfs your entire inner being?

The demons that crawl out from the darkness, tormenting, and haunting you?

Welcome to my world.
Don't mind me people, I been drinking.

My buddy had a stroke and after that that motherfucker would just start crying for no reason. I'd ask him what the fuck? He said he didn't know why it just happened.