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dewasrite

dewasrite

Too old for this sh!t.
Dec 30, 2025
49
I feel like all the years I would have actually had a chance to enjoy are gone. What would I even recover for now??
 
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fuzzypeach

fuzzypeach

Member
Jan 26, 2026
61
im sorry... this sounds like an awful feeling. but idk, i think you in the present matters just as much
 
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YourLocalSadGirly

YourLocalSadGirly

God’s least favorite
May 6, 2024
92
I'm still young (21) but sometimes it does feel that way. It feels as if both my dreams and my best love are behind me. I'm sorry you feel this way. I hope you're able to recover you may not be as happy is you could have possibly been years ago but there's still joy in life that you're able to experience in the present and future.
 
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Sewing

Sewing

Working...Please wait...
Nov 11, 2025
26
I feel the same way but that thinking just traps me in a cycle where the "window" that includes my best years includes more of my life, so I try to go with the mentality of a late start still being a start. And as some others have put it, you're still worth it even in the present. I hope you can find things to enjoy,
 
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pelicanportal

pelicanportal

Member
Jan 28, 2026
16
I feel the same. Sorry OP.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
The way I see it, the fact that I'm this old and without any active plans means I pretty much already have recovered even though it was through complete inaction and almost entirely against my will.
 
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Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
246
I've definitely started to feel that way lately. I think it's too late for me to start over or otherwise see anything change in my life that would make me happy. I'm upset because I exist, and I don't like this dog-eat-dog reality. The only way I could ever be truly happy is if the fundamentals of life itself were to change, which will never happen, therefore I will always be depressed.
 
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Luna223

Luna223

Member
Jan 11, 2026
14
for me it is like metronome, some days it looks like im too old, some days it looks there is plenty of time infront of me
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,604
As one of my favourite songs says: there's just too much that time cannot erase.
 
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unloveable27

Member
Jan 29, 2026
15
Yes. I'm 27 and haven't passed most of the proper social milestones. I haven't even kissed. It's one of if not the main reason I want to CTB because I already missed out on the fun part of life being depressed and a drug addict alone
 
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decafcheeseburger

Member
Jan 31, 2026
6
I'm 35 and never left school (or a lab). Feel the same. I honestly miss the old days where I wasn't really in the moment but inside my head for most of the time.
 
underairpressure

underairpressure

Member
Nov 30, 2025
58
Sort of, though for me it's less about my actual age, and more the sheer length of time I've been mentally ill. It feels too deeply ingrained in me to ever be "fixed".
 
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naughtyNaughtyBear

naughtyNaughtyBear

a scringly boi
Jan 31, 2026
21
I'm 27 and I think you can always recover and lead a great life
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
286
For what it's worth, I think there are some things in life that one simply cannot recover from, regardless of age. Traumatic events that will be a permanent source of pain for as long as you live... If you are fortunate, you'll be able to avoid these happening to you. For the vastest majority of people, it's possible to reach a state of equilibrium or beyond, where life is otherwise pleasurable enough to keep up with the sources of pain. This would count as a form of "recovery", I think, but the term is pretty vague.

I don't think the process of recovery has anything to do with age. A 60 year old is often just as determined as a 20 year old to stay afloat, so long as they actually have hope and things they want to fight for.
 
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MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
46
Part of me wishes I didn't lose my high school years to undiagnosed depression and anxiety, part of me thinks that I peaked in 7th grade, that I should've gotten better during high school. But now I'm about to be 23, and I'm sure it's not too late.
 
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a65b

Mors certa, hora incerta
Jan 31, 2026
60
Sometimes i do thinks its too late, but i know its probably not. Im only 19 so im not really that old even if i try to convince myself that i am
 
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SnaileyBailey

SnaileyBailey

Member
Jan 25, 2026
12
Im 29 and im starting to feel that way. I wanted to get better so I could talk to my friends without making it emotional work for them every time we hang out but I barely see them anymore and I always end up wondering what's even the point.

I lost all the fun years to depression and now its just this.
 
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iset

iset

Member
Nov 28, 2024
37
As one of my favourite songs says: there's just too much that time cannot erase.

Evanescence.... I love this song and band so much (as you can imagine perhaps from my avatar...)

And yes. I think if these thoughts of CTB become "chronic" over decades, recovery is not an option anymore. You can learn to live with it or... die.
 
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traumer

traumer

the thorn
Nov 18, 2023
125
i'm literally 18 and sometimes i feel that way too but fuck it let yourself be late for things and still have so much fun you deserve a hibiscus tea with lots of honey even if you are old
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
154
I mean yeah. I wasted 27 years of my life on a mental disorder I will never be able to fix.
All I get is that any attempt at fixing anything will just leave me fat and therefore inhuman or you know- the reason I am on this forum for.

I dunno man maybe there's some fuel in the tank for you but it is up to you if you wanna risk it
 
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hiiiii

Member
Aug 27, 2023
14
yeah i kinda feel the same way on and off. half of me feels like there's no point in recovery because i've wasted all of my early and mid twenties in my crazy person isolation bubble and have completely missed out on those fun formative experiences that most people my age have had. and i hate the idea of being in my late 20s and doing shit that everyone else got out of their system at like 22. but i also have this fear of missing out by CTB. it's like that one meme with the guy mining, but instead of turning around before i strike diamonds i take SN and miss out on an opportunity or connection that makes life worth living.
 
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DreamingOfAutumn

DreamingOfAutumn

Member
Jun 15, 2022
20
It depends on what I'm supposed to be recovering or working for. I'm in my early 30s with no real qualifications, a horrible work history, and I've never even had a girlfriend much less do I have any realistic hope of having a family. Distractions in the form of escapist media aren't something that I especially enjoy anymore, and I it's pretty difficult to identify anything that I both want and am able to attain. Sill I'm going to make one more attempt to sort my life out, just without any actual hope or self-deception this time.
 
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DownwardSpiral

DownwardSpiral

Member
Jan 21, 2026
19
yeah i kinda feel the same way on and off. half of me feels like there's no point in recovery because i've wasted all of my early and mid twenties in my crazy person isolation bubble and have completely missed out on those fun formative experiences that most people my age have had. and i hate the idea of being in my late 20s and doing shit that everyone else got out of their system at like 22. but i also have this fear of missing out by CTB. it's like that one meme with the guy mining, but instead of turning around before i strike diamonds i take SN and miss out on an opportunity or connection that makes life worth living.
thats exactly how I feel as well
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,169
I'm 27 and I think you can always recover and lead a great life
Nice. 36 here and I've got to find a way, if only because suicide is so terrifying. Life goes on, there's no turning back time. I gotta toughen up and find a way to live.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,248
I'm much older than this group, 52. I'm likely more pessimistic because I experienced a different time. I honestly think the internet has been a net negative. Other things too. Greed is different now. So much more impersonal. Companies have zero care for their employees. So much tribalism. Leads to hate. It's every group as far as I'm concerned. It absolutely was not like this. Got bad around 2000 then Covid made it all worse. But it really doesn't matter I made too many mistakes. Life is wrecked and in an environment where even strong are struggling. My grandfather worked his entire career with one company. Same for most of that generation. Now? No chance. Companies hate you. This world is evil beyond belief.
 

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