Do you bother to keep up with responsibilities?

[lili]

My bad, this is the second thread I start in a day. Perhaps I'm bored and lonely.

I just feel like I'm waiting for the SN but it arrives at end of March. But it's odd to wait for this, I'm not sure what to do with myself. And there's so many responsibilities in life that I have to do. Is it worth it to do all the deadlines that I have to do for work if I know this will happen?

Finishing writing projects and so many responsibilities and meetings. I feel I don't have the energy to do this since I know it will mean nothing in the end. Except for a project I'm writing, but even then I would only be able to finish half of it.

Does anyone else experience this? And doesn't have to be related to CBT perhaps you are depressed and have these same feelings of nothing is worth anything.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Well, I hated my job so I took a sick month to try to find another. But since I'm depressed I'm not going to the interviews, so I don't know. It's fuck up.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Similar boat here, SN should arrive this week. I feel like I have to keep up with them, for two reasons I suppose. One being, I don't want anyone to notice or get worried. The second being, when I CTB I want it to be a rational decision in which things that were out of my control lead to it. I do not want to intentionally self-destruct and force myself into that corner, and am not in a rush nor do I have a set date, I will merely get my SN and be able to have the peace of knowing I have that option.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not have the energy for anything, there is not much that I feel like doing, I just try to pass the time. I am very tired. The way I see it, everything is meaningless. That is what life, is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it. Everything we do is just a distraction from death, I see no point to living. Life is mostly just suffering for the sake of it. Nothing really matters.

 

[lili]

Similar boat here, SN should arrive this week. I feel like I have to keep up with them, for two reasons I suppose. One being, I don't want anyone to notice or get worried. The second being, when I CTB I want it to be a rational decision in which things that were out of my control lead to it. I do not want to intentionally self-destruct and force myself into that corner, and am not in a rush nor do I have a set date, I will merely get my SN and be able to have the peace of knowing I have that option.

True takes a lot of energy though. I feel like I am already messing up a few things here and there. But best to try to keep on moving as you say.

I do not have the energy for anything, there is not much that I feel like doing, I just try to pass the time. I am very tired. The way I see it, everything is meaningless. That is what life, is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it. Everything we do is just a distraction from death, I see no point to living. Life is mostly just suffering for the sake of it. Nothing really matters.

I feel the same way. That's why it's so hard to keep on going.

 

[Belljar]

No I'm ignoring everything because nothing matters at this point. There was a time I used to care about bills and credit and my future. It's like a different planet now.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I don't even have the energy or motivation or care to do things like brush my teeth or bathe, or take care of household chores. Some of my failure to do these things is due to purely physical issues, like chronic pain or nausea, or other illnesses I have, but a huge part is because I don't care anymore about putting forth the effort. Because, what for? Nothing I do matters, makes a difference in the end. I'm tired and tired of trying. I simply don't care to bother with much anymore these days. So I certainly understand and relate to your post, OP.

 

[Ligottian]

My house is a cluttered mess. I do try do some minimal hygiene such as teeth, showering, and shampoo. I always try to pay my bills on time.

 

[brnggundottxt]

I try to participate in assignments so I don't let my classmates down. They work so hard you know?

 

[Seafoam]

I try to keep my responsibilities to a minimum because I know I have a habit of self-destructing when stressed. I also don't really think too hard about the future because of my plans to ctb. It's hard though, knowing that I can't even handle the most basic things in life.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Not really

 

[georgecostanza]

Well, I hated my job so I took a sick month to try to find another. But since I'm depressed I'm not going to the interviews, so I don't know. It's fuck up.

Are you me?