Do people in your life ascribe your suicidality to a mental disorder?

[left0vers]

I can't tell you the number of times I had my problems downplayed. It's "all in my head". Is this a universal experience?

 

[Topaz111]

Absolutely, nearly every single person I have met irl dismisses it as a "it's in your head" thing or "chemical imbalance in brain". All "professionals" I've seen think this way too of course. It's convinient for them, "why acknowledge systemic issues which are hard or even impossible to solve when we can instead just gaslight the victims of the system and call them crazy?"

 

[Le temps perdu]

My parents have even thought about sending me to a psychiatric hospital before. In China, family members' opinions can carry a lot of weight in involuntary admissions, and the environment and procedures aren't very transparent.

Even though I kept explaining that I don't think I'm mentally ill, they were still worried. I used to imagine that families could be honest with each other, so I told them about my suicidal thoughts. I even thought that before leaving one day, I could try to leave behind some warm memories to reduce the pain for them.

But later I realized that might not really be possible…