"Distract yourself and take a medication."

[Sadness20]

I'm so sick of distracting myself and taking all different kinds of medications. I am so sick of living. Sick of all just being a distraction from my thoughts. Sick of going through life just being one big distraction. I am so fucking sick of hearing "take a med, you're gonna feel better" IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS, ITS NOT GETTING BETTER. And no this is not a competition of who is suffering the longest. It's just all of us on SS and all the suicidal people, why can't we all just go in peace. Why can't there be a place where we can go and peacefully leave this life. I'm so tired of all of this pain. It's all enough. Just enough.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've taken meds for 20 years. It just papers over the problems and turned me into a zombie.

 

[Sadness20]

I've taken meds for 20 years. It just papers over the problems and turned me into a zombie.

It just doesn't help at all because the problems will stay. They won't go away just because you want them to leave strong enough.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I am tired of suffering as well. Wanting suicide is perfectly rational in a life as horrible as this. Many people are delusional thinking things will always get better. Some people live in denail of the fact that things can get that hopeless that would one would consider ctb. They dismiss all suicidal people as irrational. Of course we all deserve a peaceful exit, none of us asked to exist in the first place. I hope you find peace.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It just doesn't help at all because the problems will stay. They won't go away just because you want them to leave strong enough.

Well part of the reason they stay is because I'm not really doing anything to solve them… There's lots of things I could do but I don't have the motivation

 

[Belljar]

Meds gave me mania which made me break the law which made me suicidal in order to avoid legal consequences. The irony

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Meds gave me mania which made me break the law which made me suicidal in order to avoid legal consequences. The irony

I can relate sort of. With the meds I gained a certain confidence and spent my money irresponsibly…