didnt end up going through with it

[ihateittoo]

i had been planning to ctb today for a few weeks, but last night i just got too scared and i ended up just spending the day in bed. i feel really bad about it, i hope this doesnt make any of my prior posts seem attention seeking, i still plan to ctb, this time just didnt end up working out. i just need a bit more time i think

 

[Redhand5]

Th best laid plans between mice and men haha
Don't be too hard on yourself though. Some things don't go as planned.

 

[FF777]

this is super common and no one here is going to think you are attention-seeking.. you are perfectly fine and your life is about you, not about the people on here.. no one is going to be upset at you for not being CTB yet..

any way, i don't know your situation, but just relax and listen to some good music and stuff and play some fun games.. there isn't any need to rush things, and honestly some people here might not even have seen your other posts (including me); this is the first time i've ever seen you on here, so i've not seen your previous posts or any thing..

you might ponder for a bit whether it is really even time for you to CTB yet or not if you are getting cold feet about it.. and SI (survival instinct) is usually stronger then people anticipate it will be..

we are here to support you and love you no matter what you decide to do or how ever many attempts you decide to do, or if you decide to recover and try some more things in your life first.. don't fret over it.. you're cool.. just give your self a bit more time and do some reflecting and decompress if you can and do some things you enjoy and try to relax and chill (if your situation allows it any way)..

 

[Redhand5]

this is super common and no one here is going to think you are attention-seeking.. you are perfectly fine and your life is about you, not about the people on here.. no one is going to be upset at you for not being CTB yet..

any way, i don't know your situation, but just relax and listen to some good music and stuff and play some fun games.. there isn't any need to rush things, and honestly some people here might not even have seen your other posts (including me); this is the first time i've ever seen you on here, so i've not seen your previous posts or any thing..

you might ponder for a bit whether it is really even time for you to CTB yet or not if you are getting cold feet about it.. and SI (survival instinct) is usually stronger then people anticipate it will be..

we are here to support you and love you no matter what you decide to do or how ever many attempts you decide to do, or if you decide to recover and try some more things in your life first.. don't fret over it.. you're cool.. just give your self a bit more time and do some reflecting and decompress if you can and do some things you enjoy and try to relax and chill (if your situation allows it any way)..

Well said. Very supportive. Good job :)

 

[barryberkman]

I think just taking things slowly, giving yourself some grace, and not beating yourself up is important. I haven't seen your previous posts (I don't think it lets me since my account is too new), but I get it. Try to find comfort and enjoyment in whatever you can for the time being. Then, if you're ready, you can work toward your next attempt. And if you decide not to, that's okay too. I've been in a similar boat the last couple of nights and ended up doing the same thing, so it's understandable. Anyways, I hope you feel better. :)

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Shooting oneself at a gun range is not okay, so it's a very lucky thing for everyone at the range you planned to CTB in that you stayed in bed.

If you don't want anyone here to think you're "attention seeking", then don't engage in attention seeking behavior like posting selfies (as you did in your post removed by mods last night).

Th best laid plans between mice and men haha
Don't be too hard on yourself though. Some things don't go as planned.

Shooting oneself at the gun range in front of everyone is the exact opposite of the best laid plans.

 

[autonecrotic]

i had been planning to ctb today for a few weeks, but last night i just got too scared and i ended up just spending the day in bed. i feel really bad about it, i hope this doesnt make any of my prior posts seem attention seeking, i still plan to ctb, this time just didnt end up working out. i just need a bit more time i think

youre not attention seeking. you are valid in any way that you may feel whether you go through with it or not. you deserve to be heard regardless. i think we all wish that someone would care after we are gone or not. ill be that person if you need it. i love Hum as well. Suicide Machine is my favorite song by them. you can always message me if you want to talk about anything.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

this is super common and no one here is going to think you are attention-seeking.. you are perfectly fine and your life is about you, not about the people on here.. no one is going to be upset at you for not being CTB yet..

any way, i don't know your situation, but just relax and listen to some good music and stuff and play some fun games.. there isn't any need to rush things, and honestly some people here might not even have seen your other posts (including me);

If you had, you might feel differently. Shooting oneself at the gun range is not ok. Posting selfies here IS attention seeking.

 

[SASU-KE]

There's nothing wrong in seeking to be heard or seen a bit. We all need some of that from time to time. Don't beat yourself up over it.

 

[ihateittoo]

Shooting oneself at a gun range is not okay, so it's a very lucky thing for everyone at the range you planned to CTB in that you stayed in bed.

If you don't want anyone here to think you're "attention seeking", then don't engage in attention seeking behavior like posting selfies (as you did in your post removed by mods last night).

Shooting oneself at the gun range in front of everyone is the exact opposite of the best laid plans.

it wasnt removed by mods i removed it myself after your reply. its easy to lose track of right or wrong when you've been in such a terrible place for so long. im embarrassed of that post, my plan, the selfie, all of it. its just hard. im sorry for my behavior on the forum last night.

 

[thereishope220]

i had been planning to ctb today for a few weeks, but last night i just got too scared and i ended up just spending the day in bed. i feel really bad about it, i hope this doesnt make any of my prior posts seem attention seeking, i still plan to ctb, this time just didnt end up working out. i just need a bit more time i think

Don't force yourself to do anything you're not ready for. Remember, life isn't all bad.

 

[DignifiedGrave]

Suicide is hard for everyone. But eventually we can all aquire the ability. And some of us eventually get happier anyways. Hopefully you wont need to attempt again.