Riu
Clueless
- Apr 5, 2023
- 144
There is this person who recently came into my life, and they seem to really be interested in knowing me better and enjoyed talking to me. I also really enjoyed their company. The problem is that I've already made up my mind to ctb, and looking back I really shouldn't have let them get close. Today I told them that I think we shouldn't be friends anymore and we shouldn't talk because it wouldn't end well. I didn't tell them I was going to ctb. We have discussed the topic of suicide and they are pro-choice, but they seem like they really want me to live and get better. I didn't tell them because I didn't want them to have the burden of possibly preventing my suicide. They seem to really want to support me in living, and I really didn't want them to feel like they failed to save me when I eventually ctb. They seemed like they were very down and maybe a bit mad at me when I told them. I am also very miserable because I really did enjoy talking to them, but it felt like it would be the right thing to do. This way they can move on easier and be oblivious to something much worse. Did I do the right thing?
