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s1llyg1rl

s1llyg1rl

Jul 4, 2024
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i don't know why i have a body. i don't want it. the only reason i'm really keeping it is because i know my family needs it to do things for them, and for some reason i prefer the idea of being trapped in a body but useful over being free and useless. i guess it's just part of being human.

i love my husband. he makes me feel real. and my cats. they make me feel real. i think the only real thing in this world is love. it's something i have regardless of my being. i wish i could exit my body but leave my love for my husband and cats and family in this world so they wouldn't feel sad over my body being vacant, but unfortunately, my body is the only tangible means of communication and connection i have to this world.

i love my mum, i love my little brother, i love my husband, and i love my cats. i love, so i live. i don't know if it's my purpose of living, but it's definitely a reason to live, and that's enough for me.
 
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