Depression shows it’s ugly head

[lostinthebleak]

I thought taking a vacation with some friends and my wife would help me to relax and maybe get my mind off my current situation. All it's done is make me deal with my depression in a new city. While I enjoyed the travels good old depression managed to still sneak up on me and cause me existential panic anxiety and fear. I'm currently fighting for my ability to keep my job. I've been depressed for years lost so much and feel like I'm starting to feel distant from my wife and friends and family. I've become so numb all I want is for it to end. No concrete method yet but I have ideas. I've turned to the bottle to ease my pain but it only does so much. I hate living with depression. I just want it to stop

 

[SheJumped]

I too have taken vacations and time away to see if I could reset.
The first few days it was fine but ultimately it found away to wrap itself around me.
Careful with the bottle as therapy as that can lead to more of a slippery slope with loved ones.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it is hard to carry on when there is no escape from pain. It really is horrible being alive. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.