Venting Depression comes in waves.

[Deleted member 19654]

Some days I'm okay and I feel good but it sort of lulls me into a false sense of security because before I know it, I get knocked off my feet again. I hate how my mood fluctuates and it's exhausting. I know if I wait it out, I'll start to feel okay again but I also know that it will be back. It's a fucking cycle. Anyone else relate?

 

[vacant_n]

It's the same for me but the cycles are shorter. Usually I'm completely inconsolable in the mornings, then after I cry for an hour or two I steadily improve until I feel like it's almost manageable. Then around mid afternoon it starts over again.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I think this is true for a lot of people. Sometimes our mood changes because of time of day, or because we encounter triggers, or sometimes — just because.

I wrote about this a week ago, I think. I go through these cycles, but each successive cycle seems to get worse. Perhaps best to end the cycle, but I can't seem to pull that proverbial trigger.

 

[Mr.AlphabetSays]

For me, I'm usually really depressed before I go to sleep and then feel better when I wake up. Although sometimes I'll go a few straight days feeling depressed and suicidal.

 

[StupidLizard]

I am always in a state of feeling passively suicidal. I think of it less as a cycle, but rather a fluctuation of severity.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

From Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel:

'I told her about the black wave, that the feeling was literally physical, that the sensation was palpable, as if I'd drunk a bottle of tequila...' (128)

I can relate, yeah.