Dependence and loneliness

[Z0002]

Hey, I'm in a terrible mood right now. Grandpa has been drinking more and more frequently in recent months. Lately, it's been rare for him not to be drunk. And I'm completely dependent on him because he provides 90% of my food, my transportation, etc. I know I'm a pathetic loser who's unfit for any job and has no skills. I also have no friends to talk to. I'm an attention whore, and no one wants to stay with me. Honestly, the loneliness has been driving me crazy for the past few years. I'd like to talk to someone, but I don't think I can have a meaningful conversation anymore. I was thinking about overdosing on clomipramine and lamotrigine earlier. Is that even a remotely reasonable solution? If not, I'll consider buying a fucking SN. If anyone wants to talk, I'm here, but I don't know how it would work.

 

[Grasp of darkness]

I'm sorry your grandpa has been drinking more. I don't know how the messaging works either, but we can talk here?
How has your weekend been? Have you been able to push through?