toms_space_station
Alien Observer
- Jul 22, 2020
- 68
I put up a CTB thread last year winter, but ended up not going through with it and took some time away from the forum. Over the holidays my depression hit me so hard. Despite doing the best i can to take care of my health and nutrition, I realized that if i keep fighting this on my own, I'll end up dead or in a far worse situation caused by me.
Started some medications for bipolar disorder 2 at the beginning of this year. Aripripazole and Lamictal. I must say that when I started these meds, it put me in a pleasantly hypomanic state. Over time, i started to get some side effects such as akathisia and anxiety which sucked. It was most likely the aripriprazole. But part of it also has to do with the amount of caffeine i would drink, and i also ended up trying some delta-8 edibles - another possible factor for anxiety.
My doctor lowered the Aripripazole to 2mg which feels much better, and i try to avoid anything over 3 cups of coffee per day.
I think ive flatlined at this point, im no longer in what feels like a hypomanic state, and it's probably for the better.
Started a 9-5 job, working weekends. It just is what it is. Haven't thought about dying or CTB in a while since these new changes, except for maybe 1 or 2 off days.
Hopefully things work out and overall I'm feeling better.
Started some medications for bipolar disorder 2 at the beginning of this year. Aripripazole and Lamictal. I must say that when I started these meds, it put me in a pleasantly hypomanic state. Over time, i started to get some side effects such as akathisia and anxiety which sucked. It was most likely the aripriprazole. But part of it also has to do with the amount of caffeine i would drink, and i also ended up trying some delta-8 edibles - another possible factor for anxiety.
My doctor lowered the Aripripazole to 2mg which feels much better, and i try to avoid anything over 3 cups of coffee per day.
I think ive flatlined at this point, im no longer in what feels like a hypomanic state, and it's probably for the better.
Started a 9-5 job, working weekends. It just is what it is. Haven't thought about dying or CTB in a while since these new changes, except for maybe 1 or 2 off days.
Hopefully things work out and overall I'm feeling better.
