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DarkDg21

DarkDg21

Member
Oct 12, 2021
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Ugh
It's almost that month of the year when everyone celebrates their happy lives, accomplishments and relationships.
I can't do this shit. It disgusts me.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
Ugh
It's almost that month of the year when everyone celebrates their happy lives, accomplishments and relationships.
I can't do this shit. It disgusts me.
It's painful and frightening
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
when everyone celebrates their happy lives, accomplishments and relationships.

Sure...

dysfunctional-family-card-56.jpg
 
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Account unknown

Account unknown

Reprehensible
Nov 19, 2021
49
Ugh
It's almost that month of the year when everyone celebrates their happy lives, accomplishments and relationships.
I can't do this shit. It disgusts me.
Christmas never bothers me too much and sometimes I actually have a reasonable day seeing the kids in the family happy and opening presents etc.

It's new year that's always the worst for me. Almost every single year for as long as I can remember I'm shut in my room alone while I can hear the entire rest of the world outside partying, fireworks and just having a good time with friends, loved ones and strangers. It's my loneliest day/night every single year and always feels like everyone in the world gathered together in one place and left me out.
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
I always loved December. This year it will be totally different. I lost literally everything 2 months ago ( including peace of mind, mental health, health looks, GF, job, and respect of the family). I hope I CBT before 2022, but considering how hard is to obtain N it probably will not happen.
 
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171S

Member
Nov 16, 2021
34
And some people also like to make us feel ashamed, self-conscious for not fitting into their bs celebrations either to feel better about their pathetic lives or thinking its an effective method to change who we are. I became tired of pretending I enjoyed life and that I had something to feel grateful enough for that would compel me to show some kind of bs joy.
 
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callme

callme

I'm a loose cannon - I bang all the time.
Aug 15, 2021
1,234
Yeah and this half of the world not celebrating is not worth going to because you end up with tourists celebrating christmas there.
Somehow we love Santa and Coke endorsements and we drink it, but then yap all about saturated fats, sugar and obesity. Who's looking anyway, if we don't abide by "the rules" on holidays, we aren't good christians. Besides my pastor says it's ok
 
Flippy

Flippy

Felis Sapien
Jan 5, 2020
931
Ermigerd! It's mi merm! :O:O:O

Seriously, once this image gets put through the old cerebral blender with those Christmas memories while I'm sleeping(truly a happening), I'm going to have some entertaining nightmares! :-)
 
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$nowLeopard

$nowLeopard

Student
Oct 30, 2021
160
One can only hope for times where you CAN gather with people you love during these usually lonely times.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,625
December is the worst month for me as well, over the years many horrible things have happened to me in that month. Everything relating to christmas irritates me. I cannot stand it. Of course every month is horrible, as living is very painful. My suffering will only end when I die. I wish I could make this life go away.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
384
Dunno man, December is awful but I think January might be even worse that feeling that you have to start all over again and you are supposed to be positive about it. New years resolutions amd this type off bullshit everyone acting like things will change for the better or some shit. Truely does my head in honestly. On top of that the weather is shit dark and cold and noone ever has money.
 
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Disco Biscuit

Specialist
Mar 1, 2020
350
Christmas never bothers me too much and sometimes I actually have a reasonable day seeing the kids in the family happy and opening presents etc.

It's new year that's always the worst for me. Almost every single year for as long as I can remember I'm shut in my room alone while I can hear the entire rest of the world outside partying, fireworks and just having a good time with friends, loved ones and strangers. It's my loneliest day/night every single year and always feels like everyone in the world gathered together in one place and left me out.
This is my identical experience. Wow. Every single year.

I have set a tentative date to go and I think a combination of the new year loneliness and winter blues might be enough to act on it. An impulsive act based on years of planning :)
 
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callme

callme

I'm a loose cannon - I bang all the time.
Aug 15, 2021
1,234
Instead of a "Blue jahnny" with the neauveau-riche roid monkeys, lie in bed and spend christmas and new year with all the other sane people, you people. A nice quiet time. That's what I plan.

Chestnuts roasting on a dumpster fire 🎶

 
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looseye

looseye

A boring person.
Oct 27, 2021
187
I like the cozy "eat crackers, drink milk" vibe of December. Seeing people enjoy their lives and have a wonderful time with their loved ones is what fucks with me, even if it's just a facade. Serves as a reminder of you being a complete failure
 
Deadweight

Deadweight

It's spilling out of me
Nov 10, 2021
79
Being the loser of the family, it's always nice for relatives to come over and see that I still haven't changed. I dread December, I can barely look at any of my family in the eye.
 
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JustAMatterOfTime

Fragile
Mar 21, 2021
905
Winter is my favourite season, December is stressful though, Christmas, being forced to be sociable with family is exhausting, fortunately they just kind of leave me to it now and I do my own thing after the formalities.
 
callme

callme

I'm a loose cannon - I bang all the time.
Aug 15, 2021
1,234
Winter is my favourite season, December is stressful though, Christmas, being forced to be sociable with family is exhausting, fortunately they just kind of leave me to it now and I do my own thing after the formalities.

Out of nagging curiosity what is it?
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
Ugh
It's almost that month of the year when everyone celebrates their happy lives, accomplishments and relationships.
I can't do this shit. It disgusts me.
It's a "charming" time of year when it isn't fueled by stupidity and materialism.

I envy people who had "normal", happy holidays.

I empathize with people who have endured loss.
 
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JustAMatterOfTime

Fragile
Mar 21, 2021
905
What do you do when alone on the holidays?
Nothing special just regular stuff, fuck around in my room, wait for family to leave, maybe escape and see some friends, look forward to January 1st when everything goes back to normal. :sunglasses::sunglasses:
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
556
if you live in parts of the world where it gets dark quickly in winter and everything is quiet at the entrance and the shops are closed, yes


in some parts of the world it is warm and in december there is always a party on chrismas or on new year's eve it is pure party,then less
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Best time of the year bro..christmans !
 

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