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thesquigglyline

"I made the whirling world stand still"
Dec 18, 2023
13
So even though I'm still trying to use VSED to ctb and have found myself without thirst or hunger even after more than a day of not drinking or eating anything. It seems that at some point this will become way too painful. As I only have access to tramadol and other much less strong painkillers and some benzodiazepines and not morphine or anything like that, it seems I will have to use another method.

Is there a way to make this work with over the counter medication? Maybe if I take enough tramadol and benzos? Or some injectable that I can get? Keep in mind that in my country I can get benzos and some painkillers without prescription but not overly known things like morphine or heroin.

Or maybe ctbing by fasting with water would be ideal?

Some minutes ago I have managed to find someone that may have morphine tho! Maybe this will be the way! :))
 
Soupster

Soupster

Chasing dreams, catching nightmares
Aug 14, 2024
184
Everything I've read about VSED points to it being a terrible way to go. Also, it's very easy to get "helped" by people should they realize what you are doing. Friends, family, even strangers. Short of complete isolation, I feel it's a method that has very little chance of success. I've nor seen any medications that would help with it.

That said, I'm addicted to food and have never gone more than 24 hours without it. So I salute your will and self control.
 
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thesquigglyline

"I made the whirling world stand still"
Dec 18, 2023
13
Yeah I realized that yesterday and broke my fast even though I wasn't hungry or thirsty. I may try it again if I get morphine. Since overdosing morphine is adviced against...

Tho maybe if I get enough morphine I can overdose instead if done correctly some people have died that way and it seems pleasurable.
 
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HarryCobean

Student
Apr 12, 2024
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Or maybe ctbing by fasting with water would be ideal?
People do water fasts for "detox" and sort of thing ("detox" is bullshit, but I'm just saying, people do it) for a month or more at a time, so I think this would take... ages.
 
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thesquigglyline

"I made the whirling world stand still"
Dec 18, 2023
13
Yes, well detox is not complete bs it's just that it's a very ambiguous term. Detoxing from what? Nobody gives a clear answer but fasting can help renewal of cells and maybe production of brain neurotrophic factor through autophagy.

Fasting with water would take a looooong time specially if you have fat reserve due to weight but I may try it starting tommorrow. I'll see if I can get the morphine but really hope I die cause I don't want to survive and have to chase the dragon and become an addict.
 
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