Death is easy for me to understand

[jimmy7754]

Death is easy for me comprehend.. I have no fear of it.. but surviving a suicide attempt is frightening to me.. this is my only fear even with peaceful measures.. boy do I wish their was a light switch for life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you feel. I also do not fear death, I believe that there is nothing after this. Death is freedom from all pain and suffering and I find the thought of death to be very comforting. Fear of failure is what holds me back from ctb. I deserve to exit this world in a peaceful and reliable way. It terrifies me the thought of a method failing. More than anything I wish it was easier to leave this world. I do not belong in this world and living only brings me pain. I just want to be at peace.

 

[jimmy7754]

I wish I was more self aware when I was growing up.. maybe even suicidal in my teenage years.. I was depressed but not suicidal.. being older now in my 30s and feeling this way is absolutely terrifying and exhausting.. I feel I actually LEARNED a lot from being this way and wish I went through something like this when I was younger because

1. Mental health care seems shit once your in a massive rut
2. Everything about psychological care to me seems very good for preventive care but not when your sinking in quick sand
3. I can't stand my experience with mental care in the USA
4. Etc..