Death is a day worth living

[I am tired]

Hi guys, this is my first post on SS, but I've been reading it for a few months. I'm not sure how I can present myself, in general I'm destroying myself a little every day and I'm looking for substances that make me leave this reality, I try to numb myself in various ways, the pain, tiredness and emptiness are with me in every moment, and to make matters worse I have a heart disease that is slowly taking my breath away, in a few years I will be much worse and limited. Glad to know that I will do ctb before that kk. In the past I've had small moments of happiness, but everything was ending over the years and now I realize that it couldn't be different, my disease already existed, the problems were gaining strength, etc... Overall I can say I had a lifetime, and I've lived it. But now things are sobering, the future I've always denied has arrived, I can barely pretend it's okay, my mind is destroyed, my body is broken, the union of these factors causes a pain and suffering that I don't want on anyone, drugs and leaks are no longer alleviating. The thing I most want now is to rest, I've endured it for a long time, I'M TIRED!! Enough of feeling! enough suffering! Sorry for the outburst, but this is me, and to close: My death will be the best moment of my life, and in the final moments maybe I will experience the happiness I never had.

 

[gorgonzola]

I hope you get that happiness

 

[deathisnear]

I agree, I am also tired and just want to rest. The day I pull the trigger will be the best day of my life. I hope we both find peace and welcome aboard!

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I agree, I am also tired and just want to rest. The day I pull the trigger will be the best day of my life. I hope we both find peace and welcome aboard!

Me too . All the pro-lifers and normies that like to lecture me about how good life is will end up worse than me and i'm pretty bad off but they'll end up worse than me at 80 years old or 90 demented and in pain. And time flies so it's sooner than they think. There's no way i'm going to let this sack of cells i'm imprisoned in get old .

 

[whywere]

Well HELLO and WELCOME to our global family here on Sanctioned Suicide!! I am so, so happy to be able to have YOU as a global family member here with the finest group of folks on this planet. We are THE most loving, caring folks ever and add to that lots of empathy, understanding, kindness and support and WOW!! we are truly awesome! You are NEVER EVER alone or having to wonder if anyone cares, the global family that you joined is always here and we are ALL awesome!!!! Again, WELCOME!! Walter ( yep real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and NEVER phony)

 

[deathisnear]

Me too . All the pro-lifers and normies that like to lecture me about how good life is will end up worse than me and i'm pretty bad off but they'll end up worse than me at 80 years old or 90 demented and in pain. And time flies so it's sooner than they think. There's no way i'm going to let this sack of cells i'm imprisoned in get old .

Agreed, they are the WORST! Life is no miracle, life is no gift, life and existence is hell, I have stuck around for other people way too long, it's my turn to make my own decision and ctb, we will be much better off than they will be.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I'M TIRED!! Enough of feeling! enough suffering!

Sums up how I feel.

 

[I am tired]

Thanks to everyone, this community is one of the best places in the world. It's an honor for me to be part of this family, for the time I still have! And please excuse my English.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is exhausting, I know that feels. I see death as the one escape and the solution to all my problems. Our mind and body can torture us and there is no limit as to how bad it can get. I wish you peace.

 

[WornOutLife]

First of all, welcome to SS!!! It's always nice to meet new people who really understand the hell individuals like us are going through!!

As for death, I can relate.

I'll ctb before my 40s no matter what so, I've decided to try to live these years to the fullest as long as my goddamn depression and bipolar disorder allow it lol.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[whywere]

Thanks to everyone, this community is one of the best places in the world. It's an honor for me to be part of this family, for the time I still have! And please excuse my English.

HELLO and WELCOME to our global family! @WornOutLife , Matt, said it so perfectly about meeting new people and all the hell also. Everyone here is just so great as all the folks here are the most loving, and caring people on this planet. Now also add in lots of kindness, understanding, empathy and support and there is the most perfect global family that has ever been. Again, WELCOME to SS and our global family. Walter ( yep real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and never phony)